I've come to realize why small updates are key...
Well well I'm finally to the point where I'm sick of reading my last entry over and over again. Hmmm that was about what, 3, 4 weeks ago? So much has happened since then too.
Trance, trance, trance, trance... unnst unnst unnst unnst.
I don't even think I remember half the shit that has happened since that fucked up night at The Atrium. Oh wait- yes I do. A lot of shit went down after that night. A lot of lying, backstabbing and drama. I run away from it but it always finds me one way or another. I came to hate Zack. Every word out of his mouth to me means nothing. I hate how he still calls me his Princess. It stabs my heart like a knife. We don't talk anymore, the last time we did was last Tuesday night, he called me all pissy cause I was on the phone with Dan and not him. Whatever. I then saw him last Thursday night at Shbooms. We barely talked or interacted with eachother. He grabbed me a few times to dance but it wasn't the same.
March 1st, 2nd, and 3rd I spent with a guy I met at the Atrium, Kevin. Granted they were wonderful, I don't know what happened. Monday night he met me after work and we drove around in his truck (gorgeous dropped Chevy S10). We sat in the WEndys parking lot for hours and watched a movie on his dvd player in the truck. I don't remember the name of it but I do know it took place in Pairs (haha). It was awesome getting to know him and such. That night my phone kept blazin... Fallyn would call, then Zack called crying and apologizing, then Rhi then Ken then Brad. I was the fucking mayor. The next day me Rhi Rhi, Kev Kev and Shawn went out to dinner at Unos. Meh wasn't that good, after we went to Shawn's. Rhi and him hit the hot tub and I fell asleep on Kevin in his truck. "The real Sleeping Beauty" he called me. Another thing to stab my heart. Wednesday I went over Kevin's house, we got pizza and rented "Cold Creek Manor" I fell asleep, another Sleeping Beauty. Ken called me during it, him and Rhi were fighting. I went off on both of them and it pissed off Kevin. He proceeded to tell me I was wasting his time and this and that. That night I came to realize that Kevin wanted something more serious than I do at this moment. He's brutally honest, doesn't talk bullshit, and I guess that night I was the bullshit he didn't want to take. Here I am now two weeks later. I miss him, I do. Everytime I hear "One Call Away" by Chingy I think of him and that Monday night. He went off on me the other night "Fine go hang out with all those guys that just want to fuck you!" *click* If that's the way he wants things to end, so be it. Uggghhh... he's so bi-polar. And I was really starting to like him....
I had another interview at Abercrombie 2 weeks ago. They piss me off.
Hmmm now I want to talk about Mike. I met Mike at Mac's Two that night we went with TKE. He's Pete's friend, it's all legit haha. Very good looking boy, AMAZING personality. He's a lot like me, sarcastic cocky humor. He loves South Park (we've spent hours just watching it), and the same music as I do. I really enjoy talking to him. He makes me laugh like no one else ever could. I don't feel like I need to live up to any expectation with him or impress him. I hung out with him last night for a few hours. We watched the new South Park episode, hilarious! Mike is Stan and I'm Butters. HA! As much as I'm starting to develope feelings for him, I feel like it's going nowhere. He's really shy, passive, easy going. I'm the total oppisite. I hold back when I'm with him, it feels like the right thing to do. I think he likes me but it's so hard to tell sometimes. I don't know if there's really anything between us other than a friendship. Give it time, just give it time.
I saw "The Secret Window" the other night with Rhi and Brad. That movie is FUCKED UP!!! I recommend it to anyone that loves Johnny Depp and screw drivers used as killing tools.
Last Tuesday night Me and Rhi met Fallyn and the rest of the Projekt Evo kru at Club Bravo in Worcester. I don't like it there, too small and sketchy. I almost got kidnapped by scary Black men (no offence). They grabbed me and wouldnt let go, one of the guys tried to kiss me. I turned around quick "That's my boyfriend" I said and I pointed over to Fallyn. Fallyn ran over to me, grabbed me and went to town on them. "This is my girl, my wivey, what are you doing? Keep away from her!" "Yaaa I'm sorry man keep it real, keep it real." Tuesdays at Bravos they have karaoke, some chic started to sing "Angel of Mine" by Monica, Fallyn and I slow danced. He kissed my forehead and carried out the boyfriend thing. He then told Stevo and Zack to watch them. That made me realize a lot of things about Fallyn. He's my big bro, I love him. He's got my back and I have his whenever he needs it.
I heart Projekt Evo
Also That night I met Dan. Gorgeous boy from Grafton Hill (Worcester). He came up to me and declared I was his dream girl cause I'm: A blonde hair, blue eyed Irish/Catholic girl named Erin that has her tounge pierced. Apparently he has a check list (Kevin has a point system) and I checked off all the boxes in a mere 5 minutes. Cutest thing anyone has EVER said to me: Dan- have any rings? *looks at my hands* Want another one? He was convinced I was made for him. We hung out Friday night for a little, then Sunday night before I went and hung out with Mike. WE watched "The Way of the Gun." GOod movie. I've barely spoken to him since. He called me yesterday becuase "It's been at least 2 days." but we didn't say much. Rhi had to go to GAP yesterday at Searstown to get Joe's bday present and we stopped by the NExtel kiosk and said hi to Dan. He's such an ass. I don't get it.
Why the hell are boys so bi-polar?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Yesterday was St. Pattys day. Half Irish Erin did nothing out of the ordinary. Hung out with Ken, then Rhi then some TKE boys, then Mike then Rhi.
this is so fucking long. I'm not typing anymore. I'm going to Shbooms tonight, hell fucking yes it will be grand. THen next week, shbooms will have to deal without me.
<3 mah playas and heartbreakas <3