"I'm feeling much better now, thank you."

[allthatisleft]

Okay, I'm back on my medication, and I feel a lot better. Although, some things still get to me and make me very sad/angry/jealous. Well, I text messaged Devon asking if her parents still thought I was crazy (long story -- read past blogs) and she said yes, and her boyfriend Jon also thought so. I asked why they thought that. She said she didn't

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[sovietz]

Bryan, Devon is a fucking pyscho anyways

[lilkitecat]

=]

[mike_lucero]

Bryan, Devon wasnt as great as you made her out to be. but the only thing i did like about her bryan was one thing. is how you were happy. and im sorry for saying that but that is the only thing. i remember back last year when you used to talk about her and stuff and jared would make fun of you. hes just a dick. bryan you may not have her now, but it was for the better. your a great person, hell out of all my friend i think i like you the most. i say this with reason, because bryan, your so damn interesting. your diffrent than anyone else. speak your mind, tells whats up. and women like that. none of that poser fucking wanna be shit. your a one of a kind person bryan. and im proud to call you a friend. casey made a good point accross, but your still speaking your mind. its cool dude. dont feel the need to bottle shit in. you may feel the need that no one needs you, no one wants you and everything else. i cant say much because it seems that i have these feelings a lot latey. i know how you feel, it hurts, its damn fucking sucks ass. i

[allthatisleft]

Michael, that is probably the most honest, beautful thing i've ever heard. You're right. I made Devon seem like a goddess. And at heart, I kind of felt the same way. Sometimes I would be sitting in her car while one of her parents drove and there were a bunch of little things that annoyed the hell out of me. I don't want to say it was a relationship based on sex, because it wasn't. But for some reason, I'm starting to think that. Devon is a sweet girl, but she's not for me. It's like thinking you've won the lottery for a year and then finding out all you have is a piece of paper with only a few of the right numbers. She'll always be my friend. Thank you Michael. You've opened my eyes. I appreciate yours, and everyone else's input on this matter. Why don't I feel like I deserve you guys?

[mike_lucero]

Bryan, no matter what you'll always have a friends. And myself, i will always be there for you bro. life is a never ending story, until you close the book. (that shits mine i made it up just now) and since your eyes are open now, explore the unexplored and live life to the fullest.

Lucero

[allthatisleft]

at first, i didn't. but right as you passed i was like, "hey! i know her!" sorry.

well

[anonymous]

venting is good, but more than often we are led to follow blind 'truth.' What you think might be great or a great relationship built on 'trust' is never going to stay for long. Its the evolution of the spirit and mind- people get tired of repetition. As for Devon- She just needs someone there for the moment. When she's home, up at school, etc. So don't overglorify someone who cant commit to their morals of honesty. Deception is a bitch. Being single is almost better than dealing with unnecessary baggage. The ending of your first real relationship will lead you discover that 'love' is misleading and you may not know what it is yet. There's a long journey ahead of you, I wish we could've been friends some time ago