No matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave ( Read more... )

heartbreak. worse than before.

why can't it just work?

why can't he love me?

it hurts so much.

I've had a good holiday season thus far, and I'm extremely happy that I have Jake back. He is the one person I have ever loved that fully, or wanted to do so much for...in my entire life. He is so strongly a part of me and it killed me to lose him a year and a half ago ( Read more... )

...and when i'm discontent. it isn't such a good habit, but i still need somewhere to vent ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if i'm overcompensating for years worth of inadequacy. i feel like i don't do enough, and i know i do a lot.

Jake and I are officially together again, as of the 7th.

It's hard for me to acknowledge a lot of things. Especially the things I don't like ( Read more... )

externally happy and logically miserable.

i want someone who wants me and doesn't have to question it.

unfortunately, i don't want anyone else.

dilemma. impass.

I'm listening to a playlist on random that I didn't make, and it just went from Goo Goo Dolls "Big Machine" straight to NIN "We're in this Together ( Read more... )

Despite my neighbor's being god's gift to stupidity and annoyances, and despite my body deciding it wants to bleed for a month straight, things are well and normal ( Read more... )