Just For The Sake Of Saving Us [21]
Title: Just For The Sake Of Saving Us
Author: AllTime_Panic
Rating: NC-17 overall.
Pairing: Jalex
POV: Third
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and this is entirely made up.Description: Rian and Zack decide to play matchmaker for Alex.
Author's Notes: I stole the >< , from wedoexist so I hope she doesn't hate me. Um, long note at the bottom. Sorry for any typos but LJ's being a bitch.
Master Post
(Same day as the last chapter bros.)
Jack walk walking home that day. School had ended and ever since he and Alex stopped talking, Jack's had to walk home. Even though Zack begged and pleaded him to allow him to drive the raven haired boy, Jack denied his offers and BSed how he preferred to walk.
He was just passing a small foresty area when he was pulled backwards by the hips.The next thing Jack knew, he was being pushed up against a tree with an angry Alex Gaskarth in front of him, panting like a dog.Alex took a deep and final breath.
"You need to stay away from Ryan." Jack practically flinched at his venomous tone.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were the only person at Dulaney who could have friends." Jack rolled his eyes.
"No, seriously Jack. I'm saying this for your own good. Ryan has bad intentions, and if you know what's good for you you'll take my word and stay the fuck away from him."
Jack scoffed, "I'm sorry, but why the fuck should I listen to you? And when did you start giving out warnings? Because you should have started with" Jack cleared his throat and changed his pitch to sound like a girl. "I'm the prettiest, most popular boy at school and everyones on their knees for me, begging for my dick."
Alex narrowed his eyes and put more force into his hold on Jack.
"Look, I know I fucked up but I'm not just going to sit here as you smoke weed! How fucking stupid could you be, Jack? So, cigarettes are cancer, and weed is what? Candy to you? I mean, I'm not asking you to talk to me. If you need to think about whatever, go ahead. Just please… just, don't do drugs."
"So you think I'm a druggie? At least I'm not a gay whore who fucks girls."
"I'm not a whore! I told you, I've only had sex with girls when I was drunk!"
"It's funny, really, you're a whore but you never let me go down on you."
"Jack, I didn't think you'd want to-"
"Or did you not want someone to go down on you that couldn't deep throat? Sorry baby, but I enjoy having a gag reflex."
"What are you talking about?" Alex asked, his voice turning cold.
"I can't believe you'd keep dirty little secrets from your boyfriend. I'm almost shocked I never noticed you didn't have a uvula."
"You think I went through that surgery because I wanted to suck dick?"
"Well, it's believable. If you fuck girls drunk, I don't even want to know how much dick you suck."
"Jack… Jack, you know me. You know me for who I am, unlike Dulaney. They just know me from my image! Come on, Jack, did you forget about the Alex you used to know? Why would you believe these rumors!"
"I didn't forget about that Alex. I miss that Alex."
"But I'm still here!" Alex whined, his voice getting higher in pitch.
Jack looked away from Alex, not being able to look at the older boy right now. Jack knew himself all too well, and he wasn't taking any risks of falling for Alex's trap.
"Jack.." Alex grabbed Jack's face when he got no response. He pressed his lips to Jack's forcefully. Alex wasn't sure if he was just making things up, but he could have sworn he felt the slightest kiss in return from Jack.
"Tell me you didn't feel that." Alex demanded. "Tell me and you can keep ignoring me."
"I-" Jack sighed, frowning a little. "I'm sorry Alex. I felt nothing," Jack whispered the last few words.Alex took a step back, releasing his grip from Jack and stared at him absently.
"Then I guess you should go." He whispered.Jack looked at Alex for a minute before readjusting his backpack and walking away from the forest and in the direction of his house.
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Knock knock knock.
Alex sighed, shutting his laptop. There's nothing wrong with a well deserved break after typing the title of his assignment, anyways. Not bothering to put on a shirt, he walked down the hall, brushing off his sweats before opening the door.
And there Jack stood, looking as gorgeous as ever. His hair was messed up in it's usual look, he was wearing skinny jeans and a hoodie.
Alex stood motionless, his mind forgot how to function. Jack was the last person he'd been expecting to show up at his doorstep at 9 in the evening.
"Let him in you dumbass!" Rian commanded as he opened the door wider so Jack could step in.
Alex looked from Rian to Jack, "We should talk in my room."
Jack followed the brunette into his room and stood awkwardly in the middle of it, looking around. Nothing had changed, except the amount of clothes on the floor had doubled and there were a few more cups and wrappers scattered here and there.
"Come sit."Jack snapped his head up to see Alex, sat cross legged on his bed. He walked over and copied his position. It was just like the day that they met.The two were silent for a while until Alex finally spoke up. "Why are you here?"Jack bit his lip as he looked down.
"I… I'm sorry. For earlier." He drew in a deep breath before continuing on. "I shouldn't have called you a whore."
"Well apology accepted. Is that it? Because I really need to get back to-"
"And I'm sorry for lying."
Alex knit his eyebrows together. "You're lying about being sorry?"
"No, no. I, uh, I lied earlier. When I said I didn't feel anything."
Jack studied Alex carefully as the older boy's face paled.
"I think you should leave." Alex stood up, taking Jack's hand and forcing the other boy up as well, leading him out of his room.
"Alex, I'm not done-"
Alex reached the door, opening it wide and leaning against the doorframe, staring at Jack expectantly. He looked down, letting out a sigh when Jack stubbornly stood on his porch, not leaving.
Jack walked up to Alex, tentatively putting a hand behind Alex's neck. He brought Alex's face close to his and closed the gap, pressing a light kiss to Alex's lips.
"I'm sorry." Jack whispered as he pulled back, flicking his eyes from Alex's deep brown eyes to his lips. The raven haired boy retreated his hand back to his side and turned around without another word and walked down the stairs from Alex's apartment
.Alex shut the door once Jack disappeared from his vision. He didn't waste a second to lean back against the door, sliding down to a sitting position as he began to sob. And it didn't help that Jack had been wearing Alex's hoodie. It still smelled like Alex's cologne. Jack had never washed it.
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Jack sat in his newly assigned seat in class, waiting for his teacher to call out who was going to sit next to him. He mentally pleaded the lord that it wasn't some bimbo that kept flirting with him, because all he could do was compare them to Alex. Well, they do have something in common. STD's.
He snapped his head up when he saw a flash of bright blonde next to him. The other boy gave Jack a warm smile before extending his hand. Jack recognized him as the kid who caught them after they came out of the closet. (No pun intended.)
"Hi, my name's Kyle. Kyle Burns, pleasure to meet you."
Jack smiled at the kid's manners. "Jack Barakat, aren't you that kid who wants to fuck me?"
"I would, but I heard you're Alex's latest lay?" Kyle asked. He noticed Jack's horrified expression before contenting. "I'm just kidding! Jeez. But seriously aren't you two dating?"
"Well… uh, um-"
"I swear I won't tell anyone. I'm pretty homo myself if you haven't noticed." Kyle said with a playful wink.
"Well, we were but we had a fall out. I hang out with Ryan now."
"Rian… Dawson? But he sits with A-"
"No, Ryan Ross. And Brendon and Pete." Jack informed.
Kyle gave Jack an unsure look before laughing awkwardly. "Good one."
Jack looked at Kyle incredulously. "No, what? I'm serious."
Kyle opened his mouth before closing it again. "Oh, well I just figured Alex would have warned you about him."
"Warned me about what?" Jack drew out his words slightly, semi afraid of the answer.
"Well, after all the rumors Ryan spread about him once they broke up Alex has sorta hated the kid. And about the drugs. Well, unless you do them. Usually Alex strays from those kind of people though. Ryan's a little bitch, so make sure you don't do anything to piss him off."
The raven haired boy remained silent, taking in all the new information. "What kind of rumors?"
"Oh, just stupid stuff. Like that Alex is a whore, and that he has a tiny penis, and that he has gonorrhea."
"Well, he is a whore, I'd totally believe if he had STDs. He's slept with countless amount of people."
Kyle giggled before looking back up at Jack, noticing his serious expression. "Ryan told you that, didn't he? I should have expected that! I thought that rumor was done-zo."
"Wait…. do Alex seriously isn't a whore?"
"Not at all. I mean, when he's drunk he is a little but I think he only does girls because when he's drunk he forgets to pretend like his parents didn't kick him out for being gay. So he sleeps with girls to sorta try and convince himself. He's only slept with like, 5 girls maybe though. And we recently broke up so I mean he hasn't in the last like, 10 months or so."
"You guys dated?" Jack tried to remember hearing Kyle's name before but he was nearly positive he never had.
"Yeah, Alex doesn't really like to talk about his exes. Ryan tried to break us up so many times, he's so desperate! Sorry, I don't meant to talk him down, after all he is your friend, he and I just don't get along."
"What about Brendon and Pete?" Jack asked.
"They're the school assholes. Not very nice guys if they don't like you. But, hey, I'm sure you've picked your friends wisely. I mean, you did pick Alex. He really is something special."
"You.. you don't still like him, do you?""Oh no, I'm way over him. I've got my eye on someone else!"
The bell rang, cutting the conversation short. "Here's my number if you ever need to talk, kay?" Kyle slipped Jack a piece of paper before leaving the class.
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Jack immediately found Ryan after school. "We need to talk."
Ryan smiled at Jack. "Yeah? About what."
"Uh, I think I'm going to hang out with my old friends again. I just kinda miss them." Jack lied, easily.
Ryan's face fell into a very unamused look. "You're fuckin' kidding me, right? This wouldn't happen to involve Gaaskarth, would it?"
"No, I'm not. I'm sorry, it's nothing personal-" Jack stopped talking when he looked up to see Pete put a hand on Ryan's shoulder.
"Is everything okay here?"
I STOLE THE >< FROM wedoexist I LOVE HER OKAY I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF. Uhm, yeah so this actually is a cliff hanger but you'll see why a little later and it's not a suspenseful one but yeah.
Two main points: 1.) Would you guys like me to enlarge my vocabulary? Reading back on this fix, I feel as if my vocal is a little weak.
2.) No, this fic is not over. But, I'm thinking I should get a start on my next fic so it'll run a little more soothly. And I have two ideas. the first one is I'd make a band fic. Like, already on the road, and all that. Now I know I'm doing a highschool fic and the other most popular type is a band fic, but I just really love the whole tourbusy stuff and everything and it makes Jalex seem like an actual thing. My other choose would be "Dear Jack", but it would be a play off of "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks, and I'm afraid everyone will be like "okay I read the book so fuck this." But, I do think it would be different.
Sorry the note is so long, thank you all so much!
Author: AllTime_Panic
Rating: NC-17 overall.
Pairing: Jalex
POV: Third
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and this is entirely made up.Description: Rian and Zack decide to play matchmaker for Alex.
Author's Notes: I stole the >< , from wedoexist so I hope she doesn't hate me. Um, long note at the bottom. Sorry for any typos but LJ's being a bitch.
Master Post
(Same day as the last chapter bros.)
Jack walk walking home that day. School had ended and ever since he and Alex stopped talking, Jack's had to walk home. Even though Zack begged and pleaded him to allow him to drive the raven haired boy, Jack denied his offers and BSed how he preferred to walk.
He was just passing a small foresty area when he was pulled backwards by the hips.The next thing Jack knew, he was being pushed up against a tree with an angry Alex Gaskarth in front of him, panting like a dog.Alex took a deep and final breath.
"You need to stay away from Ryan." Jack practically flinched at his venomous tone.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were the only person at Dulaney who could have friends." Jack rolled his eyes.
"No, seriously Jack. I'm saying this for your own good. Ryan has bad intentions, and if you know what's good for you you'll take my word and stay the fuck away from him."
Jack scoffed, "I'm sorry, but why the fuck should I listen to you? And when did you start giving out warnings? Because you should have started with" Jack cleared his throat and changed his pitch to sound like a girl. "I'm the prettiest, most popular boy at school and everyones on their knees for me, begging for my dick."
Alex narrowed his eyes and put more force into his hold on Jack.
"Look, I know I fucked up but I'm not just going to sit here as you smoke weed! How fucking stupid could you be, Jack? So, cigarettes are cancer, and weed is what? Candy to you? I mean, I'm not asking you to talk to me. If you need to think about whatever, go ahead. Just please… just, don't do drugs."
"So you think I'm a druggie? At least I'm not a gay whore who fucks girls."
"I'm not a whore! I told you, I've only had sex with girls when I was drunk!"
"It's funny, really, you're a whore but you never let me go down on you."
"Jack, I didn't think you'd want to-"
"Or did you not want someone to go down on you that couldn't deep throat? Sorry baby, but I enjoy having a gag reflex."
"What are you talking about?" Alex asked, his voice turning cold.
"I can't believe you'd keep dirty little secrets from your boyfriend. I'm almost shocked I never noticed you didn't have a uvula."
"You think I went through that surgery because I wanted to suck dick?"
"Well, it's believable. If you fuck girls drunk, I don't even want to know how much dick you suck."
"Jack… Jack, you know me. You know me for who I am, unlike Dulaney. They just know me from my image! Come on, Jack, did you forget about the Alex you used to know? Why would you believe these rumors!"
"I didn't forget about that Alex. I miss that Alex."
"But I'm still here!" Alex whined, his voice getting higher in pitch.
Jack looked away from Alex, not being able to look at the older boy right now. Jack knew himself all too well, and he wasn't taking any risks of falling for Alex's trap.
"Jack.." Alex grabbed Jack's face when he got no response. He pressed his lips to Jack's forcefully. Alex wasn't sure if he was just making things up, but he could have sworn he felt the slightest kiss in return from Jack.
"Tell me you didn't feel that." Alex demanded. "Tell me and you can keep ignoring me."
"I-" Jack sighed, frowning a little. "I'm sorry Alex. I felt nothing," Jack whispered the last few words.Alex took a step back, releasing his grip from Jack and stared at him absently.
"Then I guess you should go." He whispered.Jack looked at Alex for a minute before readjusting his backpack and walking away from the forest and in the direction of his house.
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Knock knock knock.
Alex sighed, shutting his laptop. There's nothing wrong with a well deserved break after typing the title of his assignment, anyways. Not bothering to put on a shirt, he walked down the hall, brushing off his sweats before opening the door.
And there Jack stood, looking as gorgeous as ever. His hair was messed up in it's usual look, he was wearing skinny jeans and a hoodie.
Alex stood motionless, his mind forgot how to function. Jack was the last person he'd been expecting to show up at his doorstep at 9 in the evening.
"Let him in you dumbass!" Rian commanded as he opened the door wider so Jack could step in.
Alex looked from Rian to Jack, "We should talk in my room."
Jack followed the brunette into his room and stood awkwardly in the middle of it, looking around. Nothing had changed, except the amount of clothes on the floor had doubled and there were a few more cups and wrappers scattered here and there.
"Come sit."Jack snapped his head up to see Alex, sat cross legged on his bed. He walked over and copied his position. It was just like the day that they met.The two were silent for a while until Alex finally spoke up. "Why are you here?"Jack bit his lip as he looked down.
"I… I'm sorry. For earlier." He drew in a deep breath before continuing on. "I shouldn't have called you a whore."
"Well apology accepted. Is that it? Because I really need to get back to-"
"And I'm sorry for lying."
Alex knit his eyebrows together. "You're lying about being sorry?"
"No, no. I, uh, I lied earlier. When I said I didn't feel anything."
Jack studied Alex carefully as the older boy's face paled.
"I think you should leave." Alex stood up, taking Jack's hand and forcing the other boy up as well, leading him out of his room.
"Alex, I'm not done-"
Alex reached the door, opening it wide and leaning against the doorframe, staring at Jack expectantly. He looked down, letting out a sigh when Jack stubbornly stood on his porch, not leaving.
Jack walked up to Alex, tentatively putting a hand behind Alex's neck. He brought Alex's face close to his and closed the gap, pressing a light kiss to Alex's lips.
"I'm sorry." Jack whispered as he pulled back, flicking his eyes from Alex's deep brown eyes to his lips. The raven haired boy retreated his hand back to his side and turned around without another word and walked down the stairs from Alex's apartment
.Alex shut the door once Jack disappeared from his vision. He didn't waste a second to lean back against the door, sliding down to a sitting position as he began to sob. And it didn't help that Jack had been wearing Alex's hoodie. It still smelled like Alex's cologne. Jack had never washed it.
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Jack sat in his newly assigned seat in class, waiting for his teacher to call out who was going to sit next to him. He mentally pleaded the lord that it wasn't some bimbo that kept flirting with him, because all he could do was compare them to Alex. Well, they do have something in common. STD's.
He snapped his head up when he saw a flash of bright blonde next to him. The other boy gave Jack a warm smile before extending his hand. Jack recognized him as the kid who caught them after they came out of the closet. (No pun intended.)
"Hi, my name's Kyle. Kyle Burns, pleasure to meet you."
Jack smiled at the kid's manners. "Jack Barakat, aren't you that kid who wants to fuck me?"
"I would, but I heard you're Alex's latest lay?" Kyle asked. He noticed Jack's horrified expression before contenting. "I'm just kidding! Jeez. But seriously aren't you two dating?"
"Well… uh, um-"
"I swear I won't tell anyone. I'm pretty homo myself if you haven't noticed." Kyle said with a playful wink.
"Well, we were but we had a fall out. I hang out with Ryan now."
"Rian… Dawson? But he sits with A-"
"No, Ryan Ross. And Brendon and Pete." Jack informed.
Kyle gave Jack an unsure look before laughing awkwardly. "Good one."
Jack looked at Kyle incredulously. "No, what? I'm serious."
Kyle opened his mouth before closing it again. "Oh, well I just figured Alex would have warned you about him."
"Warned me about what?" Jack drew out his words slightly, semi afraid of the answer.
"Well, after all the rumors Ryan spread about him once they broke up Alex has sorta hated the kid. And about the drugs. Well, unless you do them. Usually Alex strays from those kind of people though. Ryan's a little bitch, so make sure you don't do anything to piss him off."
The raven haired boy remained silent, taking in all the new information. "What kind of rumors?"
"Oh, just stupid stuff. Like that Alex is a whore, and that he has a tiny penis, and that he has gonorrhea."
"Well, he is a whore, I'd totally believe if he had STDs. He's slept with countless amount of people."
Kyle giggled before looking back up at Jack, noticing his serious expression. "Ryan told you that, didn't he? I should have expected that! I thought that rumor was done-zo."
"Wait…. do Alex seriously isn't a whore?"
"Not at all. I mean, when he's drunk he is a little but I think he only does girls because when he's drunk he forgets to pretend like his parents didn't kick him out for being gay. So he sleeps with girls to sorta try and convince himself. He's only slept with like, 5 girls maybe though. And we recently broke up so I mean he hasn't in the last like, 10 months or so."
"You guys dated?" Jack tried to remember hearing Kyle's name before but he was nearly positive he never had.
"Yeah, Alex doesn't really like to talk about his exes. Ryan tried to break us up so many times, he's so desperate! Sorry, I don't meant to talk him down, after all he is your friend, he and I just don't get along."
"What about Brendon and Pete?" Jack asked.
"They're the school assholes. Not very nice guys if they don't like you. But, hey, I'm sure you've picked your friends wisely. I mean, you did pick Alex. He really is something special."
"You.. you don't still like him, do you?""Oh no, I'm way over him. I've got my eye on someone else!"
The bell rang, cutting the conversation short. "Here's my number if you ever need to talk, kay?" Kyle slipped Jack a piece of paper before leaving the class.
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Jack immediately found Ryan after school. "We need to talk."
Ryan smiled at Jack. "Yeah? About what."
"Uh, I think I'm going to hang out with my old friends again. I just kinda miss them." Jack lied, easily.
Ryan's face fell into a very unamused look. "You're fuckin' kidding me, right? This wouldn't happen to involve Gaaskarth, would it?"
"No, I'm not. I'm sorry, it's nothing personal-" Jack stopped talking when he looked up to see Pete put a hand on Ryan's shoulder.
"Is everything okay here?"
I STOLE THE >< FROM wedoexist I LOVE HER OKAY I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF. Uhm, yeah so this actually is a cliff hanger but you'll see why a little later and it's not a suspenseful one but yeah.
Two main points: 1.) Would you guys like me to enlarge my vocabulary? Reading back on this fix, I feel as if my vocal is a little weak.
2.) No, this fic is not over. But, I'm thinking I should get a start on my next fic so it'll run a little more soothly. And I have two ideas. the first one is I'd make a band fic. Like, already on the road, and all that. Now I know I'm doing a highschool fic and the other most popular type is a band fic, but I just really love the whole tourbusy stuff and everything and it makes Jalex seem like an actual thing. My other choose would be "Dear Jack", but it would be a play off of "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks, and I'm afraid everyone will be like "okay I read the book so fuck this." But, I do think it would be different.
Sorry the note is so long, thank you all so much!