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Title: Bellflower
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: R
POV: Third, Alex focused
Summary: The thought of ending his life was simple, it was the survival that he didn't expect.
Warnings: Mental illness, slash, etc.
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, you know the drill
Masterpost
By the time they got up the stairs Jack already had Alex gently pinned against the wall, placing slow yet deep kisses against his lips with soft moans escaping. Alex immediately opened his mouth so Jack could slide his tongue inside, desperately fighting each other for dominance as the taller man’s hands explored his clothed body.
Jack honestly couldn’t even describe how much he missed this man, missed feeling him, tasting him, holding him…he just missed him. Slowly snaking his hand under Alex’s tank, he ran his fingertips over his pelvis before moving up and over his side and to his chest, the blonde moaning into his mouth as goosebumps rose across his skin.
As if being able to read his mind, Alex lifted his arms up as Jack pulled his shirt off before doing the same with his own and lifting the man up so his legs were wrapped around his waist, Alex immediately holding his face in his hands as he kissed him again while moving into the bedroom.
“J-Jack,” he panted softly against his lips before slipping his tongue back into his mouth when they hit the bed. Alex instinctively wrapped his legs around Jack’s waist the moment he was on top of him, arching up when he felt those kisses to his neck and to his collarbone as he felt himself growing in his trunks.
He had imagined this moment every day that he was away from Jack in the rehab center, just thinking about what it would be like to touch him again and feel those lips against his own. From the moment the two of them got together they had always had a strong physical and emotional connection that was best brought out during sex…they knew each other’s bodies so well that it was as if they became one during it.
As Jack began to kiss down his neck to his collarbone, Alex let his eyes fall closed as he began to pant, feeling his mind fill up with every sensation that he possibly could get. He was excited to be with Jack again, excited to connect with him and get in tuned with him again.
He was nervous as all hell that he wouldn’t be as good as he used to be since he had been out of practice for months, but he was filled with so much passion that he felt like he could burst at any given moment, that his heart could leap right out of his chest if he didn’t let it out soon…but most of all he was scared. Scared that none of this was real, that he was trapped in his limbo that was just taunting him with cruel tactics.
But thankfully Jack was there to pull him out of that and bring him back to reality, taking his face in his hands as he said softly, “Lex…look at me…” Alex slowly opened his eyes and looked up at him before feeling a sense of calm wash over him. “I’m here…this is real.”
He nodded a bit as he watched Jack reaching for the lube, Alex immediately chewing on his bottom lip as he panted, “W-Wait…”
“I know,” Jack whispered as he placed a kiss on the corner of his mouth as he slid his hand down his hip to pull his trunks down. He knew that Alex wanted a bit of prep time before they got right to it which was completely understandable due to his lack of nearly any physical contact, let alone sexual.
Popping the cap off of the heated lube, Jack poured some onto his fingers as he leaned back a bit, placing his free hand onto his hip as he just admired him for a second. He was so beautiful that sometimes he still thought that he was just dreaming, that he really couldn’t have an amazing and gorgeous guy like Alex but he knew that this wasn’t some fantasy and that Alex really was with him.
Making sure that his fingers were lubed up really well, he gently brought Alex’s knee up before sliding two fingers inside of him which definitely earned a moan from the man laying down. It hurt a bit at first since he just needed to get used to the stretch but he knew that eventually it would feel good again. The lube was working, immediately feeling himself growing more as it heated up with Jack’s fingers inside of him before arching up when he added a third.
He slid his hands up behind his head while gripping onto the pillow and twisting it in his ballad fists since he just needed something to hold onto during all of this, feeling as though he would get lost if he didn’t ground himself. Jack crooked his fingers a bit which earned another desperate moan from Alex, the man instinctively spreading his legs even more open for him.
“J-Jack,” he whimpered desperately as he felt his chest heaving up and down. “I n-need y-you…” He needed him on so many levels right now that he almost couldn’t control himself.
Jack immediately pulled his fingers out as he slid his trunks down and coated his shaft in the heated lube while spreading apart Alex’s legs as he positioned himself. He made sure to search his face for any signs of distress or fear, taking his cue when he didn’t find any as he slowly slid into him while gripping onto his hips for support.
Alex immediately threw his head back as his mouth fell open, definitely not prepared for how much more that stretched him out but he knew that he would get used to it, he just needed some time like everything in his life lately. He squeezed his eyes shut as he gripped onto Jack’s shoulders for support, relaxing as much as he possibly could before feeling Jack starting to move slowly to get a rhythm going.
“L-Look at me,” Jack whispered softly as he moved inside of him, Alex forcing his eyes to open up while connecting with the man on top of him. “S-Stay with me…” Swallowing the lump growing in his throat, Alex nodded the best he could as he got used to the stretch before moving right along with him like they were one again. He just needed to stay with him, just stick around and he would be okay. Simple, right?
Jack soon quickened his rhythm a bit but not too rough or anything, this definitely being more sensual rather than raunchy since it was like their first time again. Alex was panting heavily against him as they moved together, all of it somehow becoming a bit of a blur like it always did…it wasn’t that the sex was bad, far from it actually, it was just the fact that they got so tangled up in each other that they couldn’t tell one moment from the next.
Alex cried out when Jack hit his spot, the man arching up off of the bed while digging his fingertips into Jack’s bicep, immediately feeling his stomach tightening up since he knew that he wouldn’t make it much longer. Feeling Jack release inside of him just made him ride out his orgasm even harder, made his entire body convulse, his toes curl, all of it, always loving the feeling of Jack filling him up like that since it made him feel so…complete.
Both of them falling back onto the bed, they panted against each other’s sweat glistening bodies while holding one another tightly, feeling as if they let go then they would float away. Alex was always afraid of that, that one day Jack would just disappear…or worse, that Alex would and Jack would never be able to find him.
“I love you,” Jack whispered softly as he nuzzled his nose into the crook of his neck, Alex placing his lips against Jack’s shoulder and just letting them linger there. “I love you so much, Lex…you gotta stay with me…” Hearing that always broke his heart, he hated it when Jack begged him to do that. He didn’t understand how hard that request was to carry out and to promise but he did it every single time.
But he agreed to it, giving him another little stab of guilt each time.
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: R
POV: Third, Alex focused
Summary: The thought of ending his life was simple, it was the survival that he didn't expect.
Warnings: Mental illness, slash, etc.
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, you know the drill
Masterpost
By the time they got up the stairs Jack already had Alex gently pinned against the wall, placing slow yet deep kisses against his lips with soft moans escaping. Alex immediately opened his mouth so Jack could slide his tongue inside, desperately fighting each other for dominance as the taller man’s hands explored his clothed body.
Jack honestly couldn’t even describe how much he missed this man, missed feeling him, tasting him, holding him…he just missed him. Slowly snaking his hand under Alex’s tank, he ran his fingertips over his pelvis before moving up and over his side and to his chest, the blonde moaning into his mouth as goosebumps rose across his skin.
As if being able to read his mind, Alex lifted his arms up as Jack pulled his shirt off before doing the same with his own and lifting the man up so his legs were wrapped around his waist, Alex immediately holding his face in his hands as he kissed him again while moving into the bedroom.
“J-Jack,” he panted softly against his lips before slipping his tongue back into his mouth when they hit the bed. Alex instinctively wrapped his legs around Jack’s waist the moment he was on top of him, arching up when he felt those kisses to his neck and to his collarbone as he felt himself growing in his trunks.
He had imagined this moment every day that he was away from Jack in the rehab center, just thinking about what it would be like to touch him again and feel those lips against his own. From the moment the two of them got together they had always had a strong physical and emotional connection that was best brought out during sex…they knew each other’s bodies so well that it was as if they became one during it.
As Jack began to kiss down his neck to his collarbone, Alex let his eyes fall closed as he began to pant, feeling his mind fill up with every sensation that he possibly could get. He was excited to be with Jack again, excited to connect with him and get in tuned with him again.
He was nervous as all hell that he wouldn’t be as good as he used to be since he had been out of practice for months, but he was filled with so much passion that he felt like he could burst at any given moment, that his heart could leap right out of his chest if he didn’t let it out soon…but most of all he was scared. Scared that none of this was real, that he was trapped in his limbo that was just taunting him with cruel tactics.
But thankfully Jack was there to pull him out of that and bring him back to reality, taking his face in his hands as he said softly, “Lex…look at me…” Alex slowly opened his eyes and looked up at him before feeling a sense of calm wash over him. “I’m here…this is real.”
He nodded a bit as he watched Jack reaching for the lube, Alex immediately chewing on his bottom lip as he panted, “W-Wait…”
“I know,” Jack whispered as he placed a kiss on the corner of his mouth as he slid his hand down his hip to pull his trunks down. He knew that Alex wanted a bit of prep time before they got right to it which was completely understandable due to his lack of nearly any physical contact, let alone sexual.
Popping the cap off of the heated lube, Jack poured some onto his fingers as he leaned back a bit, placing his free hand onto his hip as he just admired him for a second. He was so beautiful that sometimes he still thought that he was just dreaming, that he really couldn’t have an amazing and gorgeous guy like Alex but he knew that this wasn’t some fantasy and that Alex really was with him.
Making sure that his fingers were lubed up really well, he gently brought Alex’s knee up before sliding two fingers inside of him which definitely earned a moan from the man laying down. It hurt a bit at first since he just needed to get used to the stretch but he knew that eventually it would feel good again. The lube was working, immediately feeling himself growing more as it heated up with Jack’s fingers inside of him before arching up when he added a third.
He slid his hands up behind his head while gripping onto the pillow and twisting it in his ballad fists since he just needed something to hold onto during all of this, feeling as though he would get lost if he didn’t ground himself. Jack crooked his fingers a bit which earned another desperate moan from Alex, the man instinctively spreading his legs even more open for him.
“J-Jack,” he whimpered desperately as he felt his chest heaving up and down. “I n-need y-you…” He needed him on so many levels right now that he almost couldn’t control himself.
Jack immediately pulled his fingers out as he slid his trunks down and coated his shaft in the heated lube while spreading apart Alex’s legs as he positioned himself. He made sure to search his face for any signs of distress or fear, taking his cue when he didn’t find any as he slowly slid into him while gripping onto his hips for support.
Alex immediately threw his head back as his mouth fell open, definitely not prepared for how much more that stretched him out but he knew that he would get used to it, he just needed some time like everything in his life lately. He squeezed his eyes shut as he gripped onto Jack’s shoulders for support, relaxing as much as he possibly could before feeling Jack starting to move slowly to get a rhythm going.
“L-Look at me,” Jack whispered softly as he moved inside of him, Alex forcing his eyes to open up while connecting with the man on top of him. “S-Stay with me…” Swallowing the lump growing in his throat, Alex nodded the best he could as he got used to the stretch before moving right along with him like they were one again. He just needed to stay with him, just stick around and he would be okay. Simple, right?
Jack soon quickened his rhythm a bit but not too rough or anything, this definitely being more sensual rather than raunchy since it was like their first time again. Alex was panting heavily against him as they moved together, all of it somehow becoming a bit of a blur like it always did…it wasn’t that the sex was bad, far from it actually, it was just the fact that they got so tangled up in each other that they couldn’t tell one moment from the next.
Alex cried out when Jack hit his spot, the man arching up off of the bed while digging his fingertips into Jack’s bicep, immediately feeling his stomach tightening up since he knew that he wouldn’t make it much longer. Feeling Jack release inside of him just made him ride out his orgasm even harder, made his entire body convulse, his toes curl, all of it, always loving the feeling of Jack filling him up like that since it made him feel so…complete.
Both of them falling back onto the bed, they panted against each other’s sweat glistening bodies while holding one another tightly, feeling as if they let go then they would float away. Alex was always afraid of that, that one day Jack would just disappear…or worse, that Alex would and Jack would never be able to find him.
“I love you,” Jack whispered softly as he nuzzled his nose into the crook of his neck, Alex placing his lips against Jack’s shoulder and just letting them linger there. “I love you so much, Lex…you gotta stay with me…” Hearing that always broke his heart, he hated it when Jack begged him to do that. He didn’t understand how hard that request was to carry out and to promise but he did it every single time.
But he agreed to it, giving him another little stab of guilt each time.