self piece short :april 12th piece
fun fact about brittnaw: she likes sex a lot, it inspires her to write cool things.
Honesty. Not hiding behind your man, or the lack of fighting words. It’s not holding back, even if you’re screaming - at least you’re saying something. Even if every other word happens to be fuck, you are saying something rather than not. And I believe in it, for me honesty is more real than any God they’ve taught me to believe. And more sincere than any kiss that’s ever touched my lips. I believe in saying how I feel when I feel it, regardless of the time or the place, and I wish more people felt this way. They don’t. People lie, not lie lie but hide things, which is worse than lying. At least I think so, I mean really how do people just live like that.
In a world of holding back, and maybe it’s a good skill to have at some points. But I can’t hold back. I’m too much. Too much happiness, too much anger, too much sadness. I push it down, I inhale people’s problems just to ignore my own. And that’s not good, I’m important too. I’m awesome actually. I forget. I don’t know how. But I did.
& Thus I found something I need to work on.
Honesty. Not hiding behind your man, or the lack of fighting words. It’s not holding back, even if you’re screaming - at least you’re saying something. Even if every other word happens to be fuck, you are saying something rather than not. And I believe in it, for me honesty is more real than any God they’ve taught me to believe. And more sincere than any kiss that’s ever touched my lips. I believe in saying how I feel when I feel it, regardless of the time or the place, and I wish more people felt this way. They don’t. People lie, not lie lie but hide things, which is worse than lying. At least I think so, I mean really how do people just live like that.
In a world of holding back, and maybe it’s a good skill to have at some points. But I can’t hold back. I’m too much. Too much happiness, too much anger, too much sadness. I push it down, I inhale people’s problems just to ignore my own. And that’s not good, I’m important too. I’m awesome actually. I forget. I don’t know how. But I did.
& Thus I found something I need to work on.