The world is a vampire.

Ugh so once again, im rewriting this because my mom had to get on. stupid. i was gonna say ho but i felt weird calling my mom a ho... huh

So i went to sleep in like 5 seconds yesterday and woke up around 6 and shaved and got ready. and i wore a skirt today. bad idea. it was sooo cold in the car. and i got to school and ( Read more... )

As the sun tortured cali fornia.

I just wrote most of my entry and my mom got on and closed it. god damn her. im so fucking mad at evrything right now. jesus.

Okay so last night i fell asleep pretty easy and i was so tired. my alarm went  off for 45 minutes and i didnt even hear it. my mom had to wake me up. i woke up at 6:45. grr. so i looked ( Read more... )

Always over

God im so angry at my mom! grrr you have no idea how infuriated i was/am.

GRRRRRR!!!!

So me and katie wanna hang out with tj and todd tomorrow. so i ask and its all resonable and everything. she says no. flippin a. so i tell her every other possibility. and then i finally come up with something completly different to do and she still ( Read more... )

Pouring my heart on to these roof tops.

Damn medication....

So i didnt go to bed till 2:30ish. and i had the weirdest effing dreams. i dreamt i found more pictures. and they were worse. i cant get it off my mnd i suppose. then i woke up at 6:40ish and got ready. and i wanted to wear a sweatshirt but i didnt have one i liked. but i wore one anyways ( Read more... )

Waiting for you.

Hold on, i need to go get ready for bed. one second.okay.

Things and people keep making it worse. ugh. i just wanna be left alone.

I didnt really do anything today. i cleaned my room. all by myself. i barely ate at all. i had a cinamon role and grapes for breakfast and barely any stir fry for dinner. dont quite have an apitite i ( Read more... )

And hes lying about last night.

I always made a promise to myself that if anybody ever cheated on me, i would leave them. under no circumstances. not after what happened with brenna. i saw how much it hurt her and then what happened after. i never wanted to go through that. i guess, ill never be able to keep a promise. i brake evrything.

The last ( Read more... )

And those are the times we need, love.

Im in a happy mood right now. this is begining to get kinda weird. hehe.

So i am plain right sick of boys. seriously i want to just shove all their heads in toilets and hope they drown.

Last night i talked to jake. and jesus i was having crazy mood swings. like hed call me bitch and id get really mad and then ( Read more... )

Tomorrow the world

Youll all never know who its about.

Ive formed a caugh in my lungs. i guess i didnt lie all that much. okay i did but i really am getting sick. aw that sucks. i havent been sick since like...december. anyways.

Yesterday was DAY OF SILENCE. and whoever thinks its stupid is stupid.  So i was planning on waking up around 5 cuz i had ( Read more... )

Your heart wont heal right.

Ugh, another adiction. my moms gonna soon hate them. hehehe

Why does this medicine have to work when i get home from school! cuz now im all hyper and at school im all not. hahaha hehehehe o wow hahaha holy crap i have to pee. like a HAVE to pee. but im not gonna. okay maybe in a minute. its now 7:41. haah ok IMP ing. ( Read more... )

Blushing by myself.

O this feeling... im so happy and cant stop smiling. im not exactly happy with everything in my life, god no. but i dunno, people just cheer my up so much sometimes! and i cant help it. i think im changing, maybe things will get better? or maybe im just using this plaseebos(ha) thing method against my brain. or maybe my day just ( Read more... )