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This one's 4 u.........i don't care if u don't wanna hear it. I don't care if u don't like what i'm about 2 say. I need 2 say it so i'm gonna fuckin say it.

I hate u right now.....i hate u so much. I didn't think it was ever possible 2 hate u but, i do. U've caused me so much pain. I can't even describe it. U say u know how i feel. ( Read more... )

It hasn't been that long since i last updated....i think....but n e wayz my point is that a lot has gone on since my last entry. Alright so let's get started shall we?

Thursday

Um......i don't think anything really happened on Thursday. I can't really remember so just 4get about Thursday. Oh wait a sec, i take that back. On Thursday i showed ( Read more... )

Well it's been a while since i last posted so i thought i would post now and let everyone know that i'm still alive lol. N e wayz, i just got done writing this poem. I got my inspiration from the song i'm listening 2 now. I wrote this poem in like 2 minutes and it doesn't even rhyme so i'm gonna call it a free verse haha. It's about my best friend ( Read more... )

These are some songs that i've been listening 2 all day and they have a lot of relation 2 what is going on in my life and what i'm feeling so i thought i would share them w/ u guys. They're dedicated 2 someone....u know who u are......the first one u guys are gonna have 2 put into a girl's perspective which is what i did. The 1st one is 98 Degrees ( Read more... )

Blah, blah, blah my life is a mess. Haha....i don't know why i found that funny......maybe i just need 2 laugh...i haven't laughed in so long....i used 2 be able 2 laugh non-stop 4 about 15 minutes. Maybe one day i'll posses that ability once again. N e wayz....so last night play rehearsal was cut short cuz no one was there and Katie and I were ( Read more... )

Yep...i'm moving on and letting go. I can't hold on 2 what i don't have anymore. Mark obviously doesn't want 2 be w/ me so i why do i keep trying and keep waiting?? It's getting me nowhere. Everyone tells me not 2 worry that he'll come around eventually and realize he loves me 2. I can't wait until eventually. I've already waited long enough. We ( Read more... )

It seems everything is fading away these days....everything has changed...nothing is the same. This has been by far one of the toughest weeks i've ever gone through. And believe me there have been some pretty bad ones. Let's start off by talking about the smaller bad things that have happened this week shall we? Well...first of all....i'm failing ( Read more... )

Haha. Sorry about the subject guys. I've been watching Dirty Dancing Havana Nights over and over all day. It's kinda rubbed off on me. I suddenly feel very spanish. lol! I'm happy 2 say that i really enjoyed my 3 day weekend. Friday we had a game...that we lost...ugh..don't really wanna talk about it. Saturday i got 2 go 2 the mall w/ Mark....wow ( Read more... )

Yesterday had 2 be one of the best days of my entire life. What made it so good? Well i'll tell u. Alright well, when my dad got home he was like "what do u want 2 eat?" i told him i really didn't care cuz i wasn't hungry for anything in particular so he suggests we go sit down and eat somewhere and i'm like "okay lemme get ready" so i take a ( Read more... )

I hate my life right now....the only good thing about it is that i'm alive and healthy.....and i don't even think that's true cuz right now i don't feel alive and i certainly don't feel healthy. I don't know what to do......my life is just a big mess right now. I really need 2 talk 2 Mark but he's not answering he's phone and he's not online. He's ( Read more... )