Comments | almandine: it's 3 AM eternal

almandine

it's 3 AM eternal

Apr 23, 2007 03:07

2 nights in a row, nightmares crafted so perfectly as to enable them to haunt me all day long, so twistedly that all comfort has left my bed. Poking me in all the right spots, tearing me apart. I am SO not going back to sleep tonight. They're to do with Grampa, maybe because we're burying him Mother's Day weekend. (I know, not my choice either ( Read more... )

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_sara April 24 2007, 13:56:42 UTC

First of all, if you got along with M before, you will again. It'll be OK. It will. I promise ( ... )

almandine April 24 2007, 22:00:14 UTC

That is an awesome list - I thikn I'm doing pretty well with the first 3 - a lot of it comes down to number 4. I can see her struggling to figure it out and I keep wanting to tell her that her daddy loves her best, but I'm not the one that can do that.

I think she likes me, but is also trying to figure out what makes her dad like me, and how she can be more like that, so he'll like her all the more.

I believe you that's it's all gonna be ok.

naked_american April 24 2007, 14:29:38 UTC

Amazon has a lot of books on stepmotherhood - check it out.

almandine April 24 2007, 22:09:57 UTC

thanks for the tip. :)

luckaduck April 24 2007, 19:21:09 UTC

Huh, I always thought that your icon was a stock photo. What amazing photography!

Okay, so the point. How old is the daughter? Also, congrats on your marriage! I completely missed this somehow. In less than two months, I graduate. Looks like a lot of milestones coming up for LJ users.

almandine April 24 2007, 22:12:45 UTC

ahh - no - it's an old slide my dad took. thanks!

M is 8 - super cute, super bright, and sassy. I think I've haven't been pimping the marriage much, as I can't quite believe it's really happening. One of those "if I speak it out loud it will vanish" sort of superstistions.

YAY for graduating and just generally getting on with life. :D I'm proud of you Lucky.

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almandine April 26 2007, 04:07:53 UTC

Oddly enough, that is incredibly helpful to hear!

ayawatson April 25 2007, 04:13:06 UTC

I am so sorry to hear about your Grampa, Becky. I'm sure he was a wonderful man. As for your parenting fears, hear me out ( ... )

almandine April 26 2007, 04:10:50 UTC

Sweet jiminy and mother of pearl Aya - thank you. Other people have said similar things but it's hard to believe when I am tired and totally M'ed out. We talked about the step-mom thing, and I told her I'd be her super secret back up mom - her extra mom. I'm hoping to be the parent she doesn't lose rapport with thru her teenage years - I know I could have used one!