so i am considering giving up drinking for lent. even though thats not for like another month or so. but really i am sick of getting drunk all the time ( Read more... )

so.
i want to come back.
i miss having my real friends.
i miss having people i actually know, for real.
i wish i could just go back in time, like a couple months.
before college, it ruined me.
i can't stand drinking drinking being the only thing i ever have to look forward to anymore
i want out.

pretty much i am never ever ever drinking absinth again. it is the devil. it made me black out for like 3 hours and i woke up with a broken toe. i was also still drunk at 10:40 in the morning when i had to attend my very first class of the semester. not funnnnnnn at all. so absinth is officially out.

once again it has been a long while since i last wrote in here. i am of course pretty bored at the moment and instead of just sitting around i am opting to write. well i am back in binghamton after a very long winter break. it was quite an eventful break i must say. i spent the beginning pretty much just hanging out with the girls, most of the time ( Read more... )

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i came home for the long weekend. i just got back from mini golfing with hillary, christina, john, and sean. so spending the evening with 2 of my best friends and their boyfriends, and being the fifth wheel pretty much got me thinking. for the past year or so i've had many one night hook up things, it was all good though cuz i was having fun and i ( Read more... )

so here i am at college, binghamton university. i think i like it, still adjusting a little bit. my roommates are cool and i've been having good fun. went to a few frat parties... it's weird being surrounded by sooo many people and not knowing any of them. a little scary too when you're drunk. this morning i had my first class, intro to american ( Read more... )

i'm leaving in two days. all year and in june i couldn't wait for this, finally getting out of here. i had a really good summer, so lately i've been not wanting to go. now i'm not sure anymore. i think i want to go, but 2 days is too soon. i need some more time to take care of a few things. i feel like leaving now would be just like removing me ( Read more... )

i was just driving home from isabels house, and it finally hit me. things are never going to be the same. it's been the six of us through high school, and for some of us through elementary and middle school. we've had sooo many good times. it's so hard to picture my life without seeing these people everyday. we've grown apart just a bit over this ( Read more... )

im really tired. i hate the feeling i have after i've stayed up all night and then spend the day sleeping. i feel like such a waste ( Read more... )