never did i realize ( Read more... )

so practice lately has been going well... mat has been really improving his singing abilities to a point where i actually catch myself singing his lyrics when i think of our songs... dave seems to enjoy himself when he plays but but i sense something whimsical about his thoughts of the band... tyler absolutely dissolves into his music and let's it ( Read more... )

i don't understand... how one second things can seem so good... then the next they start falling apart... i'm ready to go back to the good times... like i had in college or even high school... every is soooo... complicated... now... the one thing i thought i could count on has let me down and didn't even have the nerve to let me know... just kept ( Read more... )

So i'm sick yet again... and it sucks cuz we had band practice yesterday and it really affected my ability to play... I mean near the end I just focused all my energy into keeping the beat but then that really took a lot out of me and I had to call practice early so I could go to bed... All in all it was a productive day... we've fleshed out two ( Read more... )

Practice today ended up being phenomenal! It started off slow again with most of us feeling weird (well at least i know tyler felt weird) but we still worked on new stuff and i felt like we were accomplishing something. Then Mat showed up and everything clicked... i was really getting into the songs and though both Dave and Tyler were sick they ( Read more... )

ok so i'm sitting at school right now on my 2 hour break between classes and i'm reading my homework which is talking about how other cultures used to have "rites of passage"... this is like the fifth time this year that i've read something that refers to this... what it basically is: is a way for adolescents to gain entry into adulthood... it's ( Read more... )

so Brandi decided to tell me that i should rot in the hell the other day... that did it for me... the conversation ended up "ok" cuz i was drunk and normally don't like upsetting people... but when someone knows how much the other hates hearing somethings... you should never say it to them... my mother has called me worthless and told me i'm going ( Read more... )

Band practice tomorrow and i'm psyched... there is nothing i would want to do more then make great fucking music tomorrow... i need to do something cuz i've been feeling really down lately and as much as i try to put on the "happy" facade at work or whenever for that matter... it still boils down to me being miserably alone... i have never gone ( Read more... )

This livejournal has turned into Colin's Venting Journal... so in keeping that tradition... I feel like shit cuz I've got the flu and i left work early yesterday because of it... I feel bad because it's my new job and everything (and considering at my last job I didn't call in sick once and in fact I passed out at work because of my illness)... i ( Read more... )

Here is good ridance to one of the worst years of my life... here is good ridance to all the shit I put myself through... here is good riddance to 2004... this year will be better because i will make it that way... have a good one friends...