I feel better and worse today. Maybe I needed that. I'm not sure yet.

All I know is I haven't cried since Sunday. So things are looking better.

I don't know who reads this anymore. It isn't like I post anything worth reading anyway ( Read more... )

I am ready to stop feeling sick. Okay. Thanks.

David left. I feel indescribable about it. Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I don't want to ever have to be put in that situation again ( Read more... )

Is it too much to expect someone to keep plans when you make them?

This doesn't leave good a impression.

David leaves soon. Too soon for me to handle. I am far beyond not being ready for this. I don't want him to go. Or I want him to take me with him. Ignoring the fact that I don't have the money or a job up there. Ignoring the smart things to do, I don't want this to be the end. It completely hurts. Everywhere. The idea of not being with him hurts,

Goddamn. Sigh.

It amazes me how much my mood changes when I get to see people I truly love ( Read more... )

I am stupidly out of shape.

On my ride today I saw Kira, Adam, and Olivia. I did better on my ride last night than I did today. Ugh.

I got on AIM today for the first time in probably two weeks and there isn't a single person on to talk to.