The Party (post 1 of 2)
I was at a large art n m dream. did not know anyone, yet I was very comfortable. Ad it felt *natural* for me to feel comfortable {AMAZING!}
One of the wonderful things I have come to understand in this lifetime is that my dreams can sow me how I can become if I continue to keep growing.
In the dream, somone made some disparaging (& inacurate) remarks about MDMA, which I corrected.
I then went on to describe how psychedelics changed my whole approach to reality.
I used doing magickal ritual as an example. Before psychedelics I memorized other peoples rituals. I plotted out and memorize the gestures, the intonations, the sequence of what was to be done. I entered the Magickal Circle with a game plan!
My catholic school upbringing taught me this. God is out there someplace. I invoke him and talk to him in formal language. I talk. He (hopefully) listens.
Magick worked pretty much the same way.
Catholics, Golden Dawn, OTO -- pretty much all the same. Priests put on a stage show using scripts they once memorized. Does God get bored hearing these prayers memorized scripts after day?
As I became more and mre adroit with psychedelics, inside and outside became a literary fiction as opposed to reality. When I connect with Ganesh, no formal scrips are needed. No ritual plan. No memorized prayers.
Charlie who works on the Square uses mantra a lot. Very loudly. Not sure if he is trying to impress the gods, the people passing near him, or to disconnect from his rational mind.
Why he would want to sort-circuit his rational mind?
I do not know, but mantra seems to be used to do just that.
My ancestors spent millions of years to develop my rational mind. Why would I want to turn it off?
I find hearing Charlie's loud mantras boring. Like the musicians who play the same 3 songs over and over for hours.
Post-psychedelic connectivity does not shut off my rational brain. It connects it. With what? Fuck if I know! My intuitive brain? Sure. But it feels like something much larger than that.
When Ganesh and I chat, Ganesh is in me and I am in Ganesh.
When I am outside, I think of the wind many times a day. It is manifest. I thank the wind. Sometimes expressing I'd like a stronger or more gentle wind We work on the logistics together.
My ~15 year intensive use of psychedelics av put me in touch with far more aspects of the mutiverse than I ever dreamed possible.
BTW, I am not nearly as semantically erudite when awake as I am in my dreams.