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Nov 16, 2013 23:52

i can't believe how bad chapters 7 & 8 are. the whole cat's eye arc is a mess. too many characters, too many ties to each other, too fucking complex, and completely boring. when i think back to it, i was only in the mood to write those chapters when i was angry. from things on tumblr, from life, dramatic etc, dramatic etc. and it turned out so fucking dramatic (even after cutting it down to size!!). like, i never really thought about what i was writing... if that makes sense? i just didn't think things through.

or maybe i just planned too much. i planned total shit tho tbqh. i mean, looking back it was such a pain in the ass to write. i loved the concept, but the execution was terribad. sometimes i get so caught up in things i just don't think about anything else.

speaking of, law is so fucking hard to write. he's a smug little condescending asshole. that's not fun. that's not cool. i have a headcanon where he's way more dorky than he lets on and doesn't have any of his shit together (though he pretends the fuck out of it that he does). and maybe he secretly loves his crew to bits? mama bear law? i feel like his rambunctious side would only be shown during a fight. he probably gets really into fights, loves showing off (devil fruit and sword and haki fuck u marines if that's not awesome), but spends nights thinking about how to make his powers better, make him better. and then he has these really lazy days where he makes up for not sleeping by treating fucking everything as a bed. i also feel like his crew tries really hard to give him a break, convince him to goof off with them, and it never works and they always sort of end up quietly blaming themselves. he has a side where he's really amused by shit, but he never laughs. only small chuckles and grins. or maybe small laughs but never big ones. but he also has an air which people seem to gravitate towards? v. charismatic, but it isn't effortless. he's aware of it, he's in control of it, in control of himself. he gives smiles very rarely, and takes them away very easily.

i think the biggest problem i have is making him too stoic, because even though he's always in control, he isn't fucking emotionless. he's prideful, quick-witted, polite, sarcastic, and appears to enjoys screwing around with people. (i'm mixing post-TS law with pre-TS law. ugh.)

...but what if he really likes a particular junk food? or he's really into skeletons. like skeleton clothes, glow in the dark skeletons, skeleton vitamins or something. or he's a huge book junkie and walks everywhere with his latest book, around the ship mumbling to himself, accidentally into the shower. he's really good with sitting still and focusing, but he also has moments where he gets really restless and wants to go out and raise hell. temperature wise, he's a really cold person. he wears thick socks. or his socks always have holes in them and make him sad. hates taking care of himself and forgets to eat for days, comes out of his room looking like an unshaven zombie.

idk i'm just spiraling really hard right now

edit: I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT THE REVIEWS I HATE THIS ARC SO MUCH

mnp, still learning how to write

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