In MY Life... Pain Is God!
Ok... I Finally Got All My Poems Ready... The Ones I Promised u Like 2 Weeks Ago. All 39 r Here. Don't Read Or Comment If Ur Just Going To Make Fun Of Them. Im Sensitive And Protective Of My Poetry.
“Intro”
As The Eyelids Were Shut
His World Was Darkened
As The Mind Was Prying Open
A Voice Spoke Aloud
“Fear Not My Pretty Child
My Sweet Lonely Child
For What You Are About To Experience
Will Change Your Life; Change your soul
You’ll Experience Fear and Hate
Don’t Fret My Child
For When You Open you’re Eyes
You’ll be but an Infant; Young and Naïve
What You’ll Feel Is All in Your Head
You’ll be but a Poor Profit
To Speak the Truth and What You Feel
Awake Now My Child
For The Time Has Come”
The Voice Faded and Born This Child Was
His Eyes Opened For the First Time
And The Intro to Life Was Done
“Father Figure”
My Soul Revolves Around You
You Can’t Stand Anything I Do
All Your Screaming and Your Bullshit
Make Me Cry and I’m Sick of It
Why Can’t You Back Down
Why Can’t You Turn Around
Oh God the Feelings I Feel
Will This Pain Ever Heal
I Want This to Go Away
Can’t Stand It No More
Why Do You Say the Things You Say?
Stop Pushing Me To The Floor…
I don’t want To Feel It Any More
My Whole Life I’ve Felt like Dirt
The Things You Say They Make Me Hurt
I Am Hoping That in Time
We Can Put All This Crap Behind
A Real Father Figure Is All I Need
To Come and Help Me Stop the Bleed
No More Can I Keep Up This Fight
My Soul Dies Down Inside…
“Surface Breathing”
Don’t Fret My Precious
I’m here to Protect You
From All of The Outside
And Everyone You Thought You Knew
I’m Your Only True Friend
The Only One Who Cares
Your Only Protector
From Your Nightmares
Everyone Kills You
Just the Same
They’ll All Backstab You
Just For A Little Fame
Don’t Be Scared
They Can’t Harm You Now
I’ll Hold You Forever My Precious
They Can’t Preclude My Vow
Don’t Be Scared… I’m here
“The Hate”
Here I’m Different on This Little Earth
Why Did You Pick On Me; Make Me Feel Blind
Evil Thoughts Creeping Through Their Heads
Scratch the Pain I Feel Inside
Why Can’t the World Just Go Away?
Stop the Laughing and My Pain
What the Hell Is Wrong With All of You
Stop the Hurt Before I Go Insane
I Can See Inside Your Minds
Every Hurtful Word You Find
Why Do You Treat Me This Way
Make My Hurt Stay
I Sound Like All This Will Never Go Away
Like All the People Will Keep Their Hate
Why Is It I Feel This Way
What Is To Become Of My Fate?
Will This World Get Any Better
Why Can’t I Ever Win?
I Just Know One Thing
I Won’t Ever Give In
“Reflection”
I Take a Look in the Mirror
And Somehow It Starts To Make Sense
Of Where This Kid Had Lost His Innocence
They Told Me What I Didn’t Want To Hear
They’re The Ones Who Grew the Fear I Feel Inside
The Images Turn Red
Inside The Pictures in My Head
I Will Never Be the Man I See
In All of My Fantasies
Now Look What You Did
All I See Is a Paranoid Kid
The Kids Growing Up and Now Feels the Hate
Can’t Believe You All Decided His Fate
He Looks In the Mirror and Suddenly Realizes
I Can Never Face the Man I See
Staring Back At Me
I Will Never Be the Man I See
In All of My Fantasies
But I’ll Always Be the Fag on My Knees
My Ass, LAUGHING BACK AT ME!
“Hopeless Dream”
I Prayed For a Night
I Would See Myself Under
A Big Spotlight
An Audience Roaring Like Thunder
And Behind Me
There Would Be Four Others
That An Audience Could See
We Would Be Like Brothers
I Picture Me in a Band
Me as Lead Singer
Singing My Written Words to the Fans
We Would Be Like Brothers
But That Dream Is Far Away
Something I Could Never Achieve
Now I’ll be On My Way
So My Hopeless Dream May leave
“Lost Again”
People Come
Their Funs Begun
Now I Deal With So Much Hate
Won’t Let Me Be
They Pick At Me
And Lead Me to My Fate
My Destiny
I Cannot See
They Bug Until I Cry
Can’t Take No More
I’m Out the Door
Maybe They All Should Die
My Life’s A Mess
I’ll Try My Best
I Think I Need a Friend
I Stay So Tame
They Call Me Names
Oh, Man I’ve lost Again
Our Souls Collide
My Hearts Just Died
I Think I’m Going to Blow
They Laugh In Vain
I Feel the Pain
My Feelings I Dare Not Show
I Run Away
I Dare Not Stay
Man, I Need Some Dignity
I Look Around
I Fall To the Ground
I’ve Lost Again You See
“The Sorrow Has Begun”
May The Sorrow Began, The Fury Unleash, The Fear Excel, The Pain Continue And The End Come. As I Have Learned, Everywhere Someone Goes, They Carry A Feeling With Them That Never Fades Away And That Will Live With Them For Eternity. The Sadness I Feel Inside And The Guilt Of All I Have Done That Follows Is All Consumed Into My Head Without One Moment Of Peace. It Follows Me Like A Shadow As I Seek The Joy I Once Had...Hence the Name, “The Sorrow". This Is The Feeling I Carry In Me; One Day You Shall Find Yours.
“The Lonely Outcast”
Help Me If You Can
I’m Lying Here Just a Man
Trying To Fit Within the Crowd
Not Really Knowing How
Waiting and Wasting My Life Away
Hoping Something Good Will Come One Day
Wishing That I Will Find
My Own Peace of Mind
Don’t Want To Face This World Again
Waiting for Someone’s Hand to Lend
Hiding Fearfully On the Ground
Trying To Stand Up While You All Bring Me Down
Lonely Outcast Is a Hurtful Phrase
When We All try To Escape This Maze
Two Words That Make Us Feel Really Dumb
Something We All Never Want To Become
People Treat You Really Cold
Hurtful Things I Was Told
Now All I Really Pray
Is For All of Them to Go Away
“Fear the Clown”
The Teeth Can Pierce Your Skin
The Knife Can Kill
His Flaming Red Eyes Can Hurt You
Best to Write You’re Will
Fear the Clown
He’s coming for you
His Dagger Will Laugh At Your pain
As Your Mind Will Scream
This Isn’t No Game
Fear the Clown
“Little Voice Big”
I Am Breathing
As I Find My Own Route
You Are Teasing
All I Do Is Scream and Shout
My Heart Is Bleeding
Man, You Really Ripped It Out
Am I Screaming?
Because None of the Sounds Found Its Way Out
“Funeral for an Angel”
I Walk Into a Room
Where People Stand
Looking At Their Faces
I Do Not Understand
I Walk Up To a Coffin
Laying In Front Of Me
This Beautiful Lady
Is What My Eyes See
It Was a Funeral for an Angel
One Where We Wept
Peeking In the Casket
Where Peacefully She Slept
Her Skin Was Cold
One Touch Gave Me Chills
Staring At Her
Sadness Is What My Heart Feels
Now she’s Been Taking Up
To Be Watched By Our Lord
Flying through the Clouds
Her Soul Soared
It Was a Funeral for an Angel
One Where We Wept
In The Casket
Laid an Angel We Will Never Forget
“Bleeding Into the Air”
I Slowly Sit Their
Bleeding Into the Air
And If the Wound Don’t Heal
I Swear I Don’t Want To Feel
Taking By the Hate
Slowly Realizing My Fate
Truth Makes Me Insane
Bleeding Out All My Pain
Cutting off My Ear
I Don’t Ever Want To Hear
Stab the Knife into My Eye
I Won’t Have To See Me…DIE!
As I Slowly Sit There
Bleeding Into the Air
And If the Wound Don’t Heal
I Swear I Don’t Want To Feel It
“Star”
Wishing On a Dream So Far
Waiting On a Shooting Star
Hoping It Will Come Today
Into The Starlit Night I Pray
Foolish Dreamers Turn Their Gaze
Getting Lost In This Maze
What If Their Star Does Not Come
Will It Make Them Want To Run
When We Feel We Cannot Cope
We All Need to Believe There Is Hope
Is An Angel Watching Closely Over Me?
Can There Be a Guiding Light I’ve yet to see?
I Know My Heart Should Guide Me Through
But there’s A Foot That Makes Me Blue
There Is a Pain within My Soul
This Proves There Must Be a Hole
What Will Fill This Emptiness
This Feeling I Cannot Suppress
What Is My Fate To Be?
Tell me what is My Destiny
I Need To Know Desperately
Will My Star Shine for Me?
“Wind”
There Use To Be a Time
Where My Wind Headed Right
Life Was Good
Such a Beautiful Sight
But Something Happened
I Do Not Know What
Headed Down To the Road of Doom
The Direction of My Wind Was Cut
The Wind Was Pushed Out
And Was Lead Astray
Wanting the Wind to Meet His Star
I Wait For the Day
My Wind Can Only Be Saved
By That One Little Star
The Wind Cannot Find It
Because That Star Is Far
The Clouds Bashed On It
As They Smiled and Grinned
They Lost Control
And Shifted the Direction of the Wind
“Beware”
Clowns Are Like Knifes
Their Teeth Can Pierce Your Skin
They Kill and Leave Blood Everywhere
So You Know Where They Have Been
Clowns Are Like Shadows
They’re dark and silent
Their Kill Is Very Quiet
While they’re Rebellious and Defiant
Beware!
The Clowns Are Like the Serial Killers
You Read About In Newspapers
Striking People Here And There
Some Considered Rapers
Clowns Are Like the Devil
Evil As Can Be
Hidden Behind the Make-Up
Their Horns You Dare Not See
Beware!
The Clowns are like the People on Your Street
The People You Once Knew
Quiet and To Themselves
Watch out Because They’re Coming for You
Do You Dare to Beware?
“Hidden Truth Unfolded”
Just As Every Pride Has Its Domain
Every Kid Has Its Pain
Just As Every Cloud Holds Its Rain
Every Psycho Is Insane
Just As Every Fire Has Its Burn
Every Life Has a Wrong Turn
Just As Every Person Will Have To Learn
What You Want, You Must Earn
Just As Every Garden Has Its Rake
All Your Hurt You Must Take
Just as the World May seem Fake
Every Soul Carries a Mistake
Just As Every Night You Lay In Bed
All My Words I Have Said
Just As Every Corpse May Seem Dead
The Insanity You Hold Is All In Your Head
“Never mind”
Life Is Confusing
And Not Very Amusing
Things Happen All the Time
And I Can’t Get It off My Mind
My Friends Are Falling Apart
And it’s Breaking My Heart
We Try To Stay Together
But It Feels Like Bad Weather
I Love My Friends and Hope They Love Me Back
But You Know How the Devil Can Attack
Some of My Friends Go Crazy for Different Reasons
Mostly Because Of Treasons
One who’s Been Hurt One to Many Times
One Who’s Committed Too Many Crimes
But I Care For Them All
With Their Problems Big and Small
I Try To Help Them As Time Goes By
But The Time Can Really Fly
Now I Don’t See Things Coming Because Life Has Made Me
Blind,
Oh Well, Whatever
Never mind…
“Inevitable Insanity”
All the Pain That I Seem To Take
Is Affected By the Choices That I Make
But it’s tempted by the Voices That Awake
In My Head, I Feel the Ache
To Keep My Self from Going Insane
I Buried Myself Deep Within My Pain
Feel the Fire Run through My Vain
As The Burn Is Cooled By Bloody Rain
My Life Is Destined By My Fate
Feel My Heart Beat At a Faster Rate
Inside, I Feel My Hurt Turn into Hate
By The Pain That They All Create
I’m going to Do What I Got to Do
Fuck Yourself Now We Are Thru
Oh Man, Why Can’t You Get the Clue?
I Lead A Chaotic Life Because Of You…
“The Loudest Scream”
This Poor Child
Can’t Remember When He Last Smiled
Why Wouldn’t You Just Accept Me
For What I Was Growing Up To Be
Do I Really Bother You
For You to Pick On Me Like You Do
Remembering the Times That Felt Really Long
Making Me Feel Like I Didn’t Belong
But you’re Always Yelling in My Head
Trying To Remember All You Said
Telling Me How I Failed to Satisfy You’re Needs
Got Me Thinking, Failure Is Where My Road Leads
So You Criticize the Way I Live My Life
Well Did It Ever Occur To You That Your Stabbing My Feelings with A Knife
So You Go and Ruin My Fun
Making Me Feel like A No-One
What You Want From Me Is So Unclear
So I Go and Hide and Disappear
Because I Cant Take Anymore Of This
The Old Times I Miss
But Your Words Run Through My Head
Making Me Feel Like I’m Dead
And I Feel So Alone
Because you’re Sympathy You Have Not Shown
And Look At All the Shit You Put Me Thru
Trying To Turn Me into Somebody New
Somebody More Like You, But You See
I’ll Always Be a Better Man than You Could Ever Be!
“Dream”
As I Sleep In My Bed
I Can Feel the Creeping Cold, Cold Breath
I Can Feel the Breath of Death
But Where It Came From, No One Knows
And As I Woke, Waking Slowly, As I Watched, I Saw It
Breathing Deeply Over Me
Saber Sharp Teeth, Shining Yellow Eyes
There I Saw a Clown
I Shook As I Shouted Out In Scream
And There Ended My Terrifying Dream
“Throne of Thorns”
Darkness Fills My Mind
Thinking Of My Past Behind
I Was Unwanted and I Was Alone
To Keep Me from Bleeding, My Wounds Were Sewn
Now I Lay In My Bed
Thoughts in My Head
I’m Terrified of the World Outside
To Myself, I Have Lied
Now I Need Someone To Take It Away
Someone to Show Me a Better Day
Because I’m Scared of These People and Scared of My Friends
God, I Need to Learn To Trust Again
I Need a Rest from All of You Fucked Up, Name Calling Dipshits
Here In My Life Making Me Untame
The Only Way to Stop It Is For You to Learn My Name
If I Don’t Stop It, It’ll All Stay the Same
Time to Throw Back To You Your Own Game
Fuck All You People And
Fuck All You Pricks
Fuck All You Dirt bags And
Fuck All Your Dicks
Fuck All Your Name Calling And
Fuck All Your Shit
Fuck All You Assholes And
Fuck All Your Fits
FUCK YOU ALL!
Because I’m Sick of These People
And Sick Of This Pain
Sick of This Bullshit
And Sick Of This Game
You All Better Learn How to Cry
And Learn How to Die
And Learn How to Suffer
And Learn To Grow Tougher
And Leave Me Alone
And Let Me Sit On My Throne
Of Thorns!
"Sweet Insanity"
Come to me sweet darling
Lie in this bed of mine
Suffocating you slowly
Why your suffering is divine
You crept inside my life
I found my way to your heart
Than you played me over
And tore my feelings apart
Now I squeeze your throat (Why?)
Your eyes bleed out red (Because I loved you)
I feel you screaming out the pain
Than I slit your throat (How?)
Your head rolling off the bed (Out of love)
I took your life in vain
Now my darling laying peacefully in my bed
Your soul is now free
Close my eyes and listen
To my sweet insanity
HOW COULD YOU KILL MY INSIDES LIKE THAT!!!
You selfish whore!!!
I Hate You, I Hate You, I Hate....
“What Is?”
What Is Life But Full Of Pain
A System to Exist In Your Brain
A World That Some People Can’t Deal With
Full Of Make Believe Legends and Myths
What Is It You Actually See
When You Read About the Dangers on T.V
Nothing but a Simulation That Our Mind Creates
In Order To Deal With Our Fates
What Is It When You Try To Get Away
From Where Pain Is Created Each Day
You Cut Yourself Because You Feel
You Get High To Get Away From What Is Real
What Is Real, Weather It Be Your Religion or Beliefs
A World from Which We Try To Relief
What Is the Some of Our Fears?
This Pain in Our Eyes That Drop These Tears
“L.A.O”
I’m looking around thinking
Where is my pride
You know, the one
I once held inside
Now I know
Its been taking away
By my pain
Here to stay
I close my eyes
As a tear falls out
Now I don’t know who I am
My life’s been taken to a different route
I've been picked on
And I've been betrayed
I've been hurt
My heart begins to fade
Who am I?
Why are my feelings tighter?
All I know is that I am
The Lead Astray Outsider
Cowering to myself
I'm looking around
I'm laying on my belly
Crawling on the ground
My tears dry up
My face gets numb
Now I'm ready
To face what I've become
I promised I wouldn’t write another poem
Until I realized who am I
Now I know
And let out a sigh
I take a deep breath
As I’m about to say
" I'm a failure, a loser
And I would not want me any other way."
“Sirhc”
I am a coward within my own mind
Courage I can not find
I cant even take the pain that comes
All my hurt just numbs
He is then born
Rips my feelings with his horns
This man who has come to save me
And rid me of my insanity
Half the time, I’m not even there
Because my feelings, I cannot bare
I’m not an empty soul
He’s there to take control
When you look at me
And say I look empty
Think for a while
Is that really me throwing back that smile?
His feelings are opposite of mine
He doesn’t care if he is lying
He's cold hearted and tense
I don’t like him, but he is my only defense
I don’t know what or who he is
But I do know this
When my life becomes berserk
I become a man called Sirhc...
“Without Darkness”
I Saw The Light
As I Laid In Bed
Its Way To Bright
Am I Dead
A World Without Darkness Inside
Is Something Different As I Shared
Living This Life, I Cried
“ I’m So Scared”
“Sorrow Guilt”
Just Like You, Full Of Madness
I Too, Am Filled With Sadness
Now Fade Away Unto The Dying Sun
For Shall Your Soul Never Forgive You For What You Have Done
"Ism"
I got some news for today
Something to take all our problems away
The news I cannot bare
Therefore I have to share
A comet is heading for us
To turn our world to dust
It will be here in nine little years
Here to drown all of our tears
I see these people walking by
Not knowing there Going To die
Such a wonderful thing to be
So really care free
I wish I was that relaxed
But my fear has grown to its max
On the floor, I cant help but crawl
As I think about that big fireball
Then I think for a while
As I grow a big smile
As I look in the sky, My fear begins to fade
Deep down inside lies the pain people made
When the time reaches dawn
My hurt will be gone
When my body is deceased
I'll finally rest in peace
The only way to kill the pain inside
Is if I finally died
Is that what I want, what I need
For my soul to be freed
Then as I look to the skies
My fear begins to rise
I hope this ism is fake
I hope its a mistake....
They say in nine years
We'll be rid of our fears
But until we reach that time
Our fears will incline
Look at the people driving down the street
Saying hello to every one they meet
Being so really care free...
Oh, how I wish that was me.
"Immortal For Now"
I grow a frown
As I fall to the ground
I can't seem to die at all
He just leaves me to crawl
It jogs my memory
Why wont he take my misery
Than I go back in time
Before I’ve written my rhymes
I have died
And survived... I’m revived
If you search my mind
You’ll be surprise to find
There’s nothing left in my head
I’m already dead
Its a miracle to me
My soul wanders free
Praying on the roof
Do I seem bullet proof
Lets think back for a while
Of my deaths that pile
The knife went straight for me
I’m still here you see
As that car passed by
I didn’t seem to die
As my head went down
I was suppose to drown
I made it out of the lake
My soul he could not take
All the scars that I hold
Are the marks of my deaths retold
I've been cheated out of death
I've got nothing left
Maybe its just that my soul
Has a little goal
That I need to do
Before my life can be through
I think the fact that death he can't bring
Is a really good thing
I wont cry
I cant die... I don’t mind
I Don’t Mind At All…
“Predicament”
Everyday Use To Be So Hard
Always Walking Around, Staying On Guard
Getting Called Names So You See
It Was Never A Good Place For Me
In School, It Was About Taking A Hit
A Little Girl Like Me Never Fucking Liked It
To Everyone I Was Known As A Little Fag
Never Thought I’d Be The One To Get Ragged
Your Billingsgate Tear Me Up Inside
And Conquer All My Pride
Does It Gratify Their Iniquity Soul
That They Grab My Predicament And Take Control
In The Past, I Was Known As A Geek
I Got Picked On Because I Was Weak
Everyday, I Got Pushed Around
Always Got Beat To The Ground
Thought My Friend Would Lend Me A Hand
Never Thought My Friend Would Help Shove My Face In The Sand
“The Fall And Our Stand”
About morning one day
As I might say
Along came a plane and hit a twin tower
With real great power
Below the hole
Another went for a go
Into tower number two
A devastation relapse
Two towers collapse
Into a fight
Our country unites
Against our enemy to devour
We will show that we are the true power!
“Empty”
Today You Came In the Class Quietly
You Took One Little Glance At Me
Out Of Your Mouth Came No “Hi”
Just An Itsy Bitsy Sigh
Your Face Was Very Pale
The Look You Had Was As Sharp As A Nail
I Look Into Your Eyes
And Much To My Surprise
No Expression Was Due
Just The Empty Hallow Space Inside Of You
There Was No Feeling What So Ever
No Man Could Figure How You Feel, No Matter How Clever
Are You Even There
To Ask, Do I Even Dare?
You Looked As If Your Brain Was No More
Like I Was Staring At the Door
I Was Staring Right Through You
As If You Were a Ghost I Knew
Neither Sign of Sad nor Happiness
But a Cold Look So Bliss
To Me, You’re Mentally Gone
Though you’re Bodies Here on the Floor Upon
As I Stare At Your Face
Your Feelings I Can Find No Place
Today No Words Came From You
To Me, This Is Something Very New
Are You Even There
To Ask, Do I Even Dare?
“Counting Deaths”
One…. One… Stop
Two…. Two… And
Three… Three…Count
One, Two Three
Four… Four… Losing
Five… Five… Count
Four, Five And Than The Numbers Disappear…
“Drag It Down!”
Feeling the Pain Once Again
Screaming, Not Knowing Where to Began
Finding a way to stop the Hurt
Watch the Blood Drip down Your Shirt
Feeling So Cold
But It Takes Away Your Pain
One Line down Your Arm!
Your Skin Is Opening
Two Lines Creating Harm!
Takes Away Feeling
Three Lines Can Be Found!
Your Body Starts To Shake
Drag It Down!
This Feeling That You Create
People, They Make You Cry
Wishing That They All Would Die
Not Knowing What Else To Do So the Hurt May Fade
Forcing Your Hurt into the Blade
Ready to Do It Once More
Watching the Blood Drip to the Floor
Five Lines Burn Inside!
Trying To Make It Numb
Six Lines you’re trying to Hide!
Because You’re Troubled Some
Seven Lines of Memories!
Is there not a better Way
What Do You Make Of These!
Hoping For a Better Day
You Feel the Pain
Than Blood you’re Knife
Each Cut In Vain
You Hurt Your Life
Can You Please Explain
The Way You Handle Your Pain
Is There No Other Way for You
To Find A Way to Step Through
As Crazy As It May Sound
Once More, You’ll drag the Blade Down
Nine Lines Attached To You!
You’ve Really Lost It Now
Ten Lines Are Shining Through!
All Your Head Could Do Is Bow
Eleven Lines, Your Scarred!
The Flow before the Flood
To Over Come This Feeling Is Hard!
Passing Out, Face in Your Blood…
“Eye-Less Soul”
You Feel One Way
I Have Different Say
If You Can Only See What I See
The Reality of Which Has Come To Be
Your Eyeless Soul
Sees Very Dull
I See More Than Your Vision So Poor
You Don’t Know What I Feel
If What In My Head Is Real
Do You Hear My Laughs or My Cries
What Would You Give to see what’s In My Eyes…
This one entitled “Am I Going Crazy” is originally written by Jonathan Davis(found on Issues CD)
Modified by: Christopher Montelongo
"Am I Going Crazy"
The world spins before my eyes
Everything has changed
I seem to become addle
Am I going crazy
Come on, and say in taste
I shake as I adjure this question
A lunatic screams in my brain
I see, but cannot get to him
Why can't it go away
Am I too lost to face it
And what will it cost
To escape
The world turns black and dark
Nothing is right
I'm so scared...
ORIGANAL VERSION BY: Jon Davis
Am I going crazy
Come on, and say in taste
Am I too lost to face it
And what will it cost
To escape
Nothing is right
I'm so scared...
“Take This Time”
You came to me
Pretending to be my friend
Now I see
Your hand, you would not lend
-So faithful-
You took advantage over my soul
And yet I said nothing
Let my heart burn in coal
Just so I can feel something
-So graceful-
Ill take this time
To let out what’s inside
Create a crime
They stole from me my pride
What the hell
Betrayed yet once again
And here I fell
No such thing as a friend
So I soak here in water
Hiding from people I fear
Making my life harder
I sit as I drop this tear
-So tasteful-
Ill take this time
To let out what’s inside
Create a crime
They stole from me my pride
What the hell
Betrayed yet once again
And here I fell
No such thing as a friend!!!
“Tame Hate”
I Look At All of You
While You Looked At Me and Saw
That I’ve Written My Hate
While You’ve Watched Me Fall
You Treat Me Like
I’m A Little Rag Doll
For The World Hates Me
And I Hate Them All!
Now Lets Thank My Idol And Insperation For Helping Me Write And Live... Thank U Jonathan "HIV" Davis!
Jon Is God! Jon Is God! JON IS F***ING GOD!
“Intro”
As The Eyelids Were Shut
His World Was Darkened
As The Mind Was Prying Open
A Voice Spoke Aloud
“Fear Not My Pretty Child
My Sweet Lonely Child
For What You Are About To Experience
Will Change Your Life; Change your soul
You’ll Experience Fear and Hate
Don’t Fret My Child
For When You Open you’re Eyes
You’ll be but an Infant; Young and Naïve
What You’ll Feel Is All in Your Head
You’ll be but a Poor Profit
To Speak the Truth and What You Feel
Awake Now My Child
For The Time Has Come”
The Voice Faded and Born This Child Was
His Eyes Opened For the First Time
And The Intro to Life Was Done
“Father Figure”
My Soul Revolves Around You
You Can’t Stand Anything I Do
All Your Screaming and Your Bullshit
Make Me Cry and I’m Sick of It
Why Can’t You Back Down
Why Can’t You Turn Around
Oh God the Feelings I Feel
Will This Pain Ever Heal
I Want This to Go Away
Can’t Stand It No More
Why Do You Say the Things You Say?
Stop Pushing Me To The Floor…
I don’t want To Feel It Any More
My Whole Life I’ve Felt like Dirt
The Things You Say They Make Me Hurt
I Am Hoping That in Time
We Can Put All This Crap Behind
A Real Father Figure Is All I Need
To Come and Help Me Stop the Bleed
No More Can I Keep Up This Fight
My Soul Dies Down Inside…
“Surface Breathing”
Don’t Fret My Precious
I’m here to Protect You
From All of The Outside
And Everyone You Thought You Knew
I’m Your Only True Friend
The Only One Who Cares
Your Only Protector
From Your Nightmares
Everyone Kills You
Just the Same
They’ll All Backstab You
Just For A Little Fame
Don’t Be Scared
They Can’t Harm You Now
I’ll Hold You Forever My Precious
They Can’t Preclude My Vow
Don’t Be Scared… I’m here
“The Hate”
Here I’m Different on This Little Earth
Why Did You Pick On Me; Make Me Feel Blind
Evil Thoughts Creeping Through Their Heads
Scratch the Pain I Feel Inside
Why Can’t the World Just Go Away?
Stop the Laughing and My Pain
What the Hell Is Wrong With All of You
Stop the Hurt Before I Go Insane
I Can See Inside Your Minds
Every Hurtful Word You Find
Why Do You Treat Me This Way
Make My Hurt Stay
I Sound Like All This Will Never Go Away
Like All the People Will Keep Their Hate
Why Is It I Feel This Way
What Is To Become Of My Fate?
Will This World Get Any Better
Why Can’t I Ever Win?
I Just Know One Thing
I Won’t Ever Give In
“Reflection”
I Take a Look in the Mirror
And Somehow It Starts To Make Sense
Of Where This Kid Had Lost His Innocence
They Told Me What I Didn’t Want To Hear
They’re The Ones Who Grew the Fear I Feel Inside
The Images Turn Red
Inside The Pictures in My Head
I Will Never Be the Man I See
In All of My Fantasies
Now Look What You Did
All I See Is a Paranoid Kid
The Kids Growing Up and Now Feels the Hate
Can’t Believe You All Decided His Fate
He Looks In the Mirror and Suddenly Realizes
I Can Never Face the Man I See
Staring Back At Me
I Will Never Be the Man I See
In All of My Fantasies
But I’ll Always Be the Fag on My Knees
My Ass, LAUGHING BACK AT ME!
“Hopeless Dream”
I Prayed For a Night
I Would See Myself Under
A Big Spotlight
An Audience Roaring Like Thunder
And Behind Me
There Would Be Four Others
That An Audience Could See
We Would Be Like Brothers
I Picture Me in a Band
Me as Lead Singer
Singing My Written Words to the Fans
We Would Be Like Brothers
But That Dream Is Far Away
Something I Could Never Achieve
Now I’ll be On My Way
So My Hopeless Dream May leave
“Lost Again”
People Come
Their Funs Begun
Now I Deal With So Much Hate
Won’t Let Me Be
They Pick At Me
And Lead Me to My Fate
My Destiny
I Cannot See
They Bug Until I Cry
Can’t Take No More
I’m Out the Door
Maybe They All Should Die
My Life’s A Mess
I’ll Try My Best
I Think I Need a Friend
I Stay So Tame
They Call Me Names
Oh, Man I’ve lost Again
Our Souls Collide
My Hearts Just Died
I Think I’m Going to Blow
They Laugh In Vain
I Feel the Pain
My Feelings I Dare Not Show
I Run Away
I Dare Not Stay
Man, I Need Some Dignity
I Look Around
I Fall To the Ground
I’ve Lost Again You See
“The Sorrow Has Begun”
May The Sorrow Began, The Fury Unleash, The Fear Excel, The Pain Continue And The End Come. As I Have Learned, Everywhere Someone Goes, They Carry A Feeling With Them That Never Fades Away And That Will Live With Them For Eternity. The Sadness I Feel Inside And The Guilt Of All I Have Done That Follows Is All Consumed Into My Head Without One Moment Of Peace. It Follows Me Like A Shadow As I Seek The Joy I Once Had...Hence the Name, “The Sorrow". This Is The Feeling I Carry In Me; One Day You Shall Find Yours.
“The Lonely Outcast”
Help Me If You Can
I’m Lying Here Just a Man
Trying To Fit Within the Crowd
Not Really Knowing How
Waiting and Wasting My Life Away
Hoping Something Good Will Come One Day
Wishing That I Will Find
My Own Peace of Mind
Don’t Want To Face This World Again
Waiting for Someone’s Hand to Lend
Hiding Fearfully On the Ground
Trying To Stand Up While You All Bring Me Down
Lonely Outcast Is a Hurtful Phrase
When We All try To Escape This Maze
Two Words That Make Us Feel Really Dumb
Something We All Never Want To Become
People Treat You Really Cold
Hurtful Things I Was Told
Now All I Really Pray
Is For All of Them to Go Away
“Fear the Clown”
The Teeth Can Pierce Your Skin
The Knife Can Kill
His Flaming Red Eyes Can Hurt You
Best to Write You’re Will
Fear the Clown
He’s coming for you
His Dagger Will Laugh At Your pain
As Your Mind Will Scream
This Isn’t No Game
Fear the Clown
“Little Voice Big”
I Am Breathing
As I Find My Own Route
You Are Teasing
All I Do Is Scream and Shout
My Heart Is Bleeding
Man, You Really Ripped It Out
Am I Screaming?
Because None of the Sounds Found Its Way Out
“Funeral for an Angel”
I Walk Into a Room
Where People Stand
Looking At Their Faces
I Do Not Understand
I Walk Up To a Coffin
Laying In Front Of Me
This Beautiful Lady
Is What My Eyes See
It Was a Funeral for an Angel
One Where We Wept
Peeking In the Casket
Where Peacefully She Slept
Her Skin Was Cold
One Touch Gave Me Chills
Staring At Her
Sadness Is What My Heart Feels
Now she’s Been Taking Up
To Be Watched By Our Lord
Flying through the Clouds
Her Soul Soared
It Was a Funeral for an Angel
One Where We Wept
In The Casket
Laid an Angel We Will Never Forget
“Bleeding Into the Air”
I Slowly Sit Their
Bleeding Into the Air
And If the Wound Don’t Heal
I Swear I Don’t Want To Feel
Taking By the Hate
Slowly Realizing My Fate
Truth Makes Me Insane
Bleeding Out All My Pain
Cutting off My Ear
I Don’t Ever Want To Hear
Stab the Knife into My Eye
I Won’t Have To See Me…DIE!
As I Slowly Sit There
Bleeding Into the Air
And If the Wound Don’t Heal
I Swear I Don’t Want To Feel It
“Star”
Wishing On a Dream So Far
Waiting On a Shooting Star
Hoping It Will Come Today
Into The Starlit Night I Pray
Foolish Dreamers Turn Their Gaze
Getting Lost In This Maze
What If Their Star Does Not Come
Will It Make Them Want To Run
When We Feel We Cannot Cope
We All Need to Believe There Is Hope
Is An Angel Watching Closely Over Me?
Can There Be a Guiding Light I’ve yet to see?
I Know My Heart Should Guide Me Through
But there’s A Foot That Makes Me Blue
There Is a Pain within My Soul
This Proves There Must Be a Hole
What Will Fill This Emptiness
This Feeling I Cannot Suppress
What Is My Fate To Be?
Tell me what is My Destiny
I Need To Know Desperately
Will My Star Shine for Me?
“Wind”
There Use To Be a Time
Where My Wind Headed Right
Life Was Good
Such a Beautiful Sight
But Something Happened
I Do Not Know What
Headed Down To the Road of Doom
The Direction of My Wind Was Cut
The Wind Was Pushed Out
And Was Lead Astray
Wanting the Wind to Meet His Star
I Wait For the Day
My Wind Can Only Be Saved
By That One Little Star
The Wind Cannot Find It
Because That Star Is Far
The Clouds Bashed On It
As They Smiled and Grinned
They Lost Control
And Shifted the Direction of the Wind
“Beware”
Clowns Are Like Knifes
Their Teeth Can Pierce Your Skin
They Kill and Leave Blood Everywhere
So You Know Where They Have Been
Clowns Are Like Shadows
They’re dark and silent
Their Kill Is Very Quiet
While they’re Rebellious and Defiant
Beware!
The Clowns Are Like the Serial Killers
You Read About In Newspapers
Striking People Here And There
Some Considered Rapers
Clowns Are Like the Devil
Evil As Can Be
Hidden Behind the Make-Up
Their Horns You Dare Not See
Beware!
The Clowns are like the People on Your Street
The People You Once Knew
Quiet and To Themselves
Watch out Because They’re Coming for You
Do You Dare to Beware?
“Hidden Truth Unfolded”
Just As Every Pride Has Its Domain
Every Kid Has Its Pain
Just As Every Cloud Holds Its Rain
Every Psycho Is Insane
Just As Every Fire Has Its Burn
Every Life Has a Wrong Turn
Just As Every Person Will Have To Learn
What You Want, You Must Earn
Just As Every Garden Has Its Rake
All Your Hurt You Must Take
Just as the World May seem Fake
Every Soul Carries a Mistake
Just As Every Night You Lay In Bed
All My Words I Have Said
Just As Every Corpse May Seem Dead
The Insanity You Hold Is All In Your Head
“Never mind”
Life Is Confusing
And Not Very Amusing
Things Happen All the Time
And I Can’t Get It off My Mind
My Friends Are Falling Apart
And it’s Breaking My Heart
We Try To Stay Together
But It Feels Like Bad Weather
I Love My Friends and Hope They Love Me Back
But You Know How the Devil Can Attack
Some of My Friends Go Crazy for Different Reasons
Mostly Because Of Treasons
One who’s Been Hurt One to Many Times
One Who’s Committed Too Many Crimes
But I Care For Them All
With Their Problems Big and Small
I Try To Help Them As Time Goes By
But The Time Can Really Fly
Now I Don’t See Things Coming Because Life Has Made Me
Blind,
Oh Well, Whatever
Never mind…
“Inevitable Insanity”
All the Pain That I Seem To Take
Is Affected By the Choices That I Make
But it’s tempted by the Voices That Awake
In My Head, I Feel the Ache
To Keep My Self from Going Insane
I Buried Myself Deep Within My Pain
Feel the Fire Run through My Vain
As The Burn Is Cooled By Bloody Rain
My Life Is Destined By My Fate
Feel My Heart Beat At a Faster Rate
Inside, I Feel My Hurt Turn into Hate
By The Pain That They All Create
I’m going to Do What I Got to Do
Fuck Yourself Now We Are Thru
Oh Man, Why Can’t You Get the Clue?
I Lead A Chaotic Life Because Of You…
“The Loudest Scream”
This Poor Child
Can’t Remember When He Last Smiled
Why Wouldn’t You Just Accept Me
For What I Was Growing Up To Be
Do I Really Bother You
For You to Pick On Me Like You Do
Remembering the Times That Felt Really Long
Making Me Feel Like I Didn’t Belong
But you’re Always Yelling in My Head
Trying To Remember All You Said
Telling Me How I Failed to Satisfy You’re Needs
Got Me Thinking, Failure Is Where My Road Leads
So You Criticize the Way I Live My Life
Well Did It Ever Occur To You That Your Stabbing My Feelings with A Knife
So You Go and Ruin My Fun
Making Me Feel like A No-One
What You Want From Me Is So Unclear
So I Go and Hide and Disappear
Because I Cant Take Anymore Of This
The Old Times I Miss
But Your Words Run Through My Head
Making Me Feel Like I’m Dead
And I Feel So Alone
Because you’re Sympathy You Have Not Shown
And Look At All the Shit You Put Me Thru
Trying To Turn Me into Somebody New
Somebody More Like You, But You See
I’ll Always Be a Better Man than You Could Ever Be!
“Dream”
As I Sleep In My Bed
I Can Feel the Creeping Cold, Cold Breath
I Can Feel the Breath of Death
But Where It Came From, No One Knows
And As I Woke, Waking Slowly, As I Watched, I Saw It
Breathing Deeply Over Me
Saber Sharp Teeth, Shining Yellow Eyes
There I Saw a Clown
I Shook As I Shouted Out In Scream
And There Ended My Terrifying Dream
“Throne of Thorns”
Darkness Fills My Mind
Thinking Of My Past Behind
I Was Unwanted and I Was Alone
To Keep Me from Bleeding, My Wounds Were Sewn
Now I Lay In My Bed
Thoughts in My Head
I’m Terrified of the World Outside
To Myself, I Have Lied
Now I Need Someone To Take It Away
Someone to Show Me a Better Day
Because I’m Scared of These People and Scared of My Friends
God, I Need to Learn To Trust Again
I Need a Rest from All of You Fucked Up, Name Calling Dipshits
Here In My Life Making Me Untame
The Only Way to Stop It Is For You to Learn My Name
If I Don’t Stop It, It’ll All Stay the Same
Time to Throw Back To You Your Own Game
Fuck All You People And
Fuck All You Pricks
Fuck All You Dirt bags And
Fuck All Your Dicks
Fuck All Your Name Calling And
Fuck All Your Shit
Fuck All You Assholes And
Fuck All Your Fits
FUCK YOU ALL!
Because I’m Sick of These People
And Sick Of This Pain
Sick of This Bullshit
And Sick Of This Game
You All Better Learn How to Cry
And Learn How to Die
And Learn How to Suffer
And Learn To Grow Tougher
And Leave Me Alone
And Let Me Sit On My Throne
Of Thorns!
"Sweet Insanity"
Come to me sweet darling
Lie in this bed of mine
Suffocating you slowly
Why your suffering is divine
You crept inside my life
I found my way to your heart
Than you played me over
And tore my feelings apart
Now I squeeze your throat (Why?)
Your eyes bleed out red (Because I loved you)
I feel you screaming out the pain
Than I slit your throat (How?)
Your head rolling off the bed (Out of love)
I took your life in vain
Now my darling laying peacefully in my bed
Your soul is now free
Close my eyes and listen
To my sweet insanity
HOW COULD YOU KILL MY INSIDES LIKE THAT!!!
You selfish whore!!!
I Hate You, I Hate You, I Hate....
“What Is?”
What Is Life But Full Of Pain
A System to Exist In Your Brain
A World That Some People Can’t Deal With
Full Of Make Believe Legends and Myths
What Is It You Actually See
When You Read About the Dangers on T.V
Nothing but a Simulation That Our Mind Creates
In Order To Deal With Our Fates
What Is It When You Try To Get Away
From Where Pain Is Created Each Day
You Cut Yourself Because You Feel
You Get High To Get Away From What Is Real
What Is Real, Weather It Be Your Religion or Beliefs
A World from Which We Try To Relief
What Is the Some of Our Fears?
This Pain in Our Eyes That Drop These Tears
“L.A.O”
I’m looking around thinking
Where is my pride
You know, the one
I once held inside
Now I know
Its been taking away
By my pain
Here to stay
I close my eyes
As a tear falls out
Now I don’t know who I am
My life’s been taken to a different route
I've been picked on
And I've been betrayed
I've been hurt
My heart begins to fade
Who am I?
Why are my feelings tighter?
All I know is that I am
The Lead Astray Outsider
Cowering to myself
I'm looking around
I'm laying on my belly
Crawling on the ground
My tears dry up
My face gets numb
Now I'm ready
To face what I've become
I promised I wouldn’t write another poem
Until I realized who am I
Now I know
And let out a sigh
I take a deep breath
As I’m about to say
" I'm a failure, a loser
And I would not want me any other way."
“Sirhc”
I am a coward within my own mind
Courage I can not find
I cant even take the pain that comes
All my hurt just numbs
He is then born
Rips my feelings with his horns
This man who has come to save me
And rid me of my insanity
Half the time, I’m not even there
Because my feelings, I cannot bare
I’m not an empty soul
He’s there to take control
When you look at me
And say I look empty
Think for a while
Is that really me throwing back that smile?
His feelings are opposite of mine
He doesn’t care if he is lying
He's cold hearted and tense
I don’t like him, but he is my only defense
I don’t know what or who he is
But I do know this
When my life becomes berserk
I become a man called Sirhc...
“Without Darkness”
I Saw The Light
As I Laid In Bed
Its Way To Bright
Am I Dead
A World Without Darkness Inside
Is Something Different As I Shared
Living This Life, I Cried
“ I’m So Scared”
“Sorrow Guilt”
Just Like You, Full Of Madness
I Too, Am Filled With Sadness
Now Fade Away Unto The Dying Sun
For Shall Your Soul Never Forgive You For What You Have Done
"Ism"
I got some news for today
Something to take all our problems away
The news I cannot bare
Therefore I have to share
A comet is heading for us
To turn our world to dust
It will be here in nine little years
Here to drown all of our tears
I see these people walking by
Not knowing there Going To die
Such a wonderful thing to be
So really care free
I wish I was that relaxed
But my fear has grown to its max
On the floor, I cant help but crawl
As I think about that big fireball
Then I think for a while
As I grow a big smile
As I look in the sky, My fear begins to fade
Deep down inside lies the pain people made
When the time reaches dawn
My hurt will be gone
When my body is deceased
I'll finally rest in peace
The only way to kill the pain inside
Is if I finally died
Is that what I want, what I need
For my soul to be freed
Then as I look to the skies
My fear begins to rise
I hope this ism is fake
I hope its a mistake....
They say in nine years
We'll be rid of our fears
But until we reach that time
Our fears will incline
Look at the people driving down the street
Saying hello to every one they meet
Being so really care free...
Oh, how I wish that was me.
"Immortal For Now"
I grow a frown
As I fall to the ground
I can't seem to die at all
He just leaves me to crawl
It jogs my memory
Why wont he take my misery
Than I go back in time
Before I’ve written my rhymes
I have died
And survived... I’m revived
If you search my mind
You’ll be surprise to find
There’s nothing left in my head
I’m already dead
Its a miracle to me
My soul wanders free
Praying on the roof
Do I seem bullet proof
Lets think back for a while
Of my deaths that pile
The knife went straight for me
I’m still here you see
As that car passed by
I didn’t seem to die
As my head went down
I was suppose to drown
I made it out of the lake
My soul he could not take
All the scars that I hold
Are the marks of my deaths retold
I've been cheated out of death
I've got nothing left
Maybe its just that my soul
Has a little goal
That I need to do
Before my life can be through
I think the fact that death he can't bring
Is a really good thing
I wont cry
I cant die... I don’t mind
I Don’t Mind At All…
“Predicament”
Everyday Use To Be So Hard
Always Walking Around, Staying On Guard
Getting Called Names So You See
It Was Never A Good Place For Me
In School, It Was About Taking A Hit
A Little Girl Like Me Never Fucking Liked It
To Everyone I Was Known As A Little Fag
Never Thought I’d Be The One To Get Ragged
Your Billingsgate Tear Me Up Inside
And Conquer All My Pride
Does It Gratify Their Iniquity Soul
That They Grab My Predicament And Take Control
In The Past, I Was Known As A Geek
I Got Picked On Because I Was Weak
Everyday, I Got Pushed Around
Always Got Beat To The Ground
Thought My Friend Would Lend Me A Hand
Never Thought My Friend Would Help Shove My Face In The Sand
“The Fall And Our Stand”
About morning one day
As I might say
Along came a plane and hit a twin tower
With real great power
Below the hole
Another went for a go
Into tower number two
A devastation relapse
Two towers collapse
Into a fight
Our country unites
Against our enemy to devour
We will show that we are the true power!
“Empty”
Today You Came In the Class Quietly
You Took One Little Glance At Me
Out Of Your Mouth Came No “Hi”
Just An Itsy Bitsy Sigh
Your Face Was Very Pale
The Look You Had Was As Sharp As A Nail
I Look Into Your Eyes
And Much To My Surprise
No Expression Was Due
Just The Empty Hallow Space Inside Of You
There Was No Feeling What So Ever
No Man Could Figure How You Feel, No Matter How Clever
Are You Even There
To Ask, Do I Even Dare?
You Looked As If Your Brain Was No More
Like I Was Staring At the Door
I Was Staring Right Through You
As If You Were a Ghost I Knew
Neither Sign of Sad nor Happiness
But a Cold Look So Bliss
To Me, You’re Mentally Gone
Though you’re Bodies Here on the Floor Upon
As I Stare At Your Face
Your Feelings I Can Find No Place
Today No Words Came From You
To Me, This Is Something Very New
Are You Even There
To Ask, Do I Even Dare?
“Counting Deaths”
One…. One… Stop
Two…. Two… And
Three… Three…Count
One, Two Three
Four… Four… Losing
Five… Five… Count
Four, Five And Than The Numbers Disappear…
“Drag It Down!”
Feeling the Pain Once Again
Screaming, Not Knowing Where to Began
Finding a way to stop the Hurt
Watch the Blood Drip down Your Shirt
Feeling So Cold
But It Takes Away Your Pain
One Line down Your Arm!
Your Skin Is Opening
Two Lines Creating Harm!
Takes Away Feeling
Three Lines Can Be Found!
Your Body Starts To Shake
Drag It Down!
This Feeling That You Create
People, They Make You Cry
Wishing That They All Would Die
Not Knowing What Else To Do So the Hurt May Fade
Forcing Your Hurt into the Blade
Ready to Do It Once More
Watching the Blood Drip to the Floor
Five Lines Burn Inside!
Trying To Make It Numb
Six Lines you’re trying to Hide!
Because You’re Troubled Some
Seven Lines of Memories!
Is there not a better Way
What Do You Make Of These!
Hoping For a Better Day
You Feel the Pain
Than Blood you’re Knife
Each Cut In Vain
You Hurt Your Life
Can You Please Explain
The Way You Handle Your Pain
Is There No Other Way for You
To Find A Way to Step Through
As Crazy As It May Sound
Once More, You’ll drag the Blade Down
Nine Lines Attached To You!
You’ve Really Lost It Now
Ten Lines Are Shining Through!
All Your Head Could Do Is Bow
Eleven Lines, Your Scarred!
The Flow before the Flood
To Over Come This Feeling Is Hard!
Passing Out, Face in Your Blood…
“Eye-Less Soul”
You Feel One Way
I Have Different Say
If You Can Only See What I See
The Reality of Which Has Come To Be
Your Eyeless Soul
Sees Very Dull
I See More Than Your Vision So Poor
You Don’t Know What I Feel
If What In My Head Is Real
Do You Hear My Laughs or My Cries
What Would You Give to see what’s In My Eyes…
This one entitled “Am I Going Crazy” is originally written by Jonathan Davis(found on Issues CD)
Modified by: Christopher Montelongo
"Am I Going Crazy"
The world spins before my eyes
Everything has changed
I seem to become addle
Am I going crazy
Come on, and say in taste
I shake as I adjure this question
A lunatic screams in my brain
I see, but cannot get to him
Why can't it go away
Am I too lost to face it
And what will it cost
To escape
The world turns black and dark
Nothing is right
I'm so scared...
ORIGANAL VERSION BY: Jon Davis
Am I going crazy
Come on, and say in taste
Am I too lost to face it
And what will it cost
To escape
Nothing is right
I'm so scared...
“Take This Time”
You came to me
Pretending to be my friend
Now I see
Your hand, you would not lend
-So faithful-
You took advantage over my soul
And yet I said nothing
Let my heart burn in coal
Just so I can feel something
-So graceful-
Ill take this time
To let out what’s inside
Create a crime
They stole from me my pride
What the hell
Betrayed yet once again
And here I fell
No such thing as a friend
So I soak here in water
Hiding from people I fear
Making my life harder
I sit as I drop this tear
-So tasteful-
Ill take this time
To let out what’s inside
Create a crime
They stole from me my pride
What the hell
Betrayed yet once again
And here I fell
No such thing as a friend!!!
“Tame Hate”
I Look At All of You
While You Looked At Me and Saw
That I’ve Written My Hate
While You’ve Watched Me Fall
You Treat Me Like
I’m A Little Rag Doll
For The World Hates Me
And I Hate Them All!
Now Lets Thank My Idol And Insperation For Helping Me Write And Live... Thank U Jonathan "HIV" Davis!
Jon Is God! Jon Is God! JON IS F***ING GOD!