Comments | aloneallalong: Something beautiful, a contradiction. I want the friction.

aloneallalong

Something beautiful, a contradiction. I want the friction.

Feb 12, 2005 10:55

Caution: Long entry. ;D ( Read more... )

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gilyann February 12 2005, 15:22:16 UTC

Right now I’m feeling trapped. A rather morbid thing is that I’ve imagined myself in my grave rotting, and I don’t want to rot until I’m ready to rot, which is why I’m going to go on ahead with the chemotherapy. Please don't think that I'm trying to lecture you but I can only imagine how hard this is for you and I just can't help myself when I hear of people in difficult situations ( ... )

gilyann February 12 2005, 15:23:08 UTC

want more than this typical life, I want somewhere where I’m not an outcast or a fly on the wall. I suppose I shall have to spend the rest of my days searching for that missing part of me, the part of me that was meant to make me shine and glimmer with greatness. No, I don’t want to take over the world, I’m not sure whether or not I want to be misunderstood. I know I don’t want people to presume things about me, they don’t know the real me…and probably never will. Right now I’m stuck between moon and earth, heaven and hell… whatever you will, I’m stuck between it. Nothing’s right or wrong anymore, I’ve lost my sense of morality and I don’t know where to look for it. I know I stay depressed a lot but each day it grows and grows worse. People say I have a right to be depressed after what I’ve had to go through, but I don’t know anymore what I have the right to feel and not feel. Being stuck in the depression is something I can honestly relate more than you may think. While it's for different reasons I do know how it feels. Your ( ... )

aloneallalong February 13 2005, 04:27:59 UTC

The trouble is..I can't decide what I like and what I don't like, but I do definitely need a change of scenery, maybe I'll get one after I get out of here.

Do you know of any good historical works of fiction, I'm a bit interested in those.

gilyann February 15 2005, 03:49:59 UTC

I have been recomended a series that so far everyone that I have asked have talk wonders about it but since I'm reading 3 other books I can't tackle it. The author is Pier Anthony xanth and the series is called XANTH. Here is the link to the author's site ( ... )

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echoesofagony February 12 2005, 18:35:02 UTC

Well, I was going to say something along the lines of what gilyann said, but now I'll pass. It looks pretty well covered. Anywho. We are awesome, we're more awesome than any of these kids.

aloneallalong February 13 2005, 04:35:48 UTC

Awesome indeed.