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[alonedownthere]

I find myself pushing the people I love farther and farther away. I can't help it, its just been happening. Objectively, I can see it as the rather immature way of handling leaving that it is, ie that typical notion that if you hate what you leave behind then you don't have to miss it. But knowing it doesn't stop it. And I'm gonna be gone about

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[margotdarko]

I remember feeling exactly the same way when I finished high school. Things will change and it'll get easier.

That last sentence sounds trite, and I hesitate to say it. But it is true.

[alonedownthere]

hey, thanks for the support. the trite stuff always turns out to have some sort of truth in it, huh? I'm glad you commented, its nice to hear from someone a little older who isn't like, a parent or something.

[grayponyeyes]

I don't feel like savoring these last days of high school and trying to care because if I start to care it means I wasted four years.

I can feel myself fighting against nostalgic feelings. I tell myself that everyone else will be leaving as well so it's okay. But I know it's secretly not. I let little things bother me to great extends in hopes of saving myself some tears when we scatter off into different corners without each other.

Sounds like we're on the same boat. Those who are older and wiser say that we will get through this; let's hope they're right.

[alonedownthere]

yeah, its weird, I'm feeling nostalgic for times that I don't even remember being that great. Anyways, I was hoping to meet you at Caleb's party on thursday but I will be in Portland visiting a friend. Perhaps I will go down to Fremont wednesday afternoon and visit you folks?

[grayponyeyes]

sounds good. have fun in Portland