Heres The Deal
Okay....Apparently, Chelsey finds the need to write something else about me which isn't true. She thinks she knows my life better than I do. This is whats up.....You don't know me or Star. Don't fucking judge me by what I do or other people that you don't know. The problem's under the link....Make sure you read it.
I talked to billy today too...hes mainly what the subject is about. everytime i read his journal or talk to him, he pisses me off so bad. First of all, he is best friends with some one who is really cool, but is a complete loser in the eyes of most of the world...it's not a very good example for billy. he is SO impressionable sometimes...and he is getting more and more tatoos...its scary...he is going to regret messing up his body someday... when he is all old and wrinkly. Like, I have a tatoo...but its small and discreet and just enough to be cool without over doing it. i might get another one...but like...its STILL gonna be discreet, ya know. You can't get a job in the real world if you've got a huge tatoo on your face or somethin! like shit man for real. THEN he drinks like all the damn to....I mean we all do things like that, its part of being a college kid...but he SO overdoes it...he is going like, have no liver soon. it's scary. thats like, what his whole life focuses around. it's like his whole life is a big rock song...its really sad...he has no dreams that he is gonna be able to follow through with because he spends all the money he has on alcohol...my friend was in the marines...and he saved all his money and when he got out, he was able to get married, and FULLY support himself for like...7 months...and not do a DAMN thing but get settled...billy won't be able to do that because he is either A.) going to be dead by then or B.) going to have spent all his money and is going to be wishing he could die. He swears I have changed since we were together...but the strange thing is that I still have all the same friends that I;ve had for forever...and they don't think Ive changed at all. If I have changed, its been for the better. and now he has this new girlfriend, star...She sounds like a really cool kid...and he sounds like he likes her a whole lot. I think that is AWESOME. except for she sounds ALOT like him. she has like 230 tatoos on her back. you can't get a job anywhere looking like that, except for somthing crazy and unsubstancial like hot topic...he posted on his journal that he is happy to be loved again...and to me it seems so soon for that...the purpose of a relationship is not just to feel loved...its to be a support system for each other. to me it jsut seems like she will be supporting his bad habits...GOD i wish he would just quit all this shit. I mean, Im sure he is just sewing his oats. BUT GOD...he's my little billy, who was so sweet and innocent and inqusitive and caring about everything...i've never seen anyone NOT care about themselves so much. it really stresses me out. and he thinks im just being a bitch and a prude. IM NOT...gahhhhhhhhhhh I just want to love him and be his friend and know he ok. grr.