I has internets!
Squee! It's about bloody time I have my own connection! Muahahahahaha!!
*does the snoopy dance... as best as a taur could ever do it* 0.o
Ahem... just thought I'd mention that...
Now I can actually keep in touch with my friends and furry family.. oh, and on that note...
So, I made an observation at work today while I was staring off into space (due to having absolutely nothing to do due to my trainee's engines being down, and mine being shut down for the day)... Why is it so hard for me to keep friends? Am I really so creepy or in some way screwed up that I keep scaring them off? Not bitching or anything, just wondering. I must have 60 or 70 names in my various IMs and such and maybe ten talk to me. half only when I prod them into talking. 0.o
Used to know a bunch of people. Then they started to either stop talking to me and vanish, start hating me, or... I misplaced them... somehow.... :P Wish I knew what it was all about. What I'm doing wrong.
Sometimes I start to think that I should never even have started trying to break free of my shyness... But, I continue to work on it one way or another, for better or for Ill.
I had a conversation a few days ago with a friend I've known since my early days in the fandom in which I described why I'm always complaining. I said that it's because "I'm a moody whiny bitchy mentally screwed up creature that craves yet fears attention".
Her reply was "No, you're a social creature with a scary past who isn't yet sure how to deal with the attention you so desperately need"
Which do you think?
*wonders if anyone will answer...*
*does the snoopy dance... as best as a taur could ever do it* 0.o
Ahem... just thought I'd mention that...
Now I can actually keep in touch with my friends and furry family.. oh, and on that note...
So, I made an observation at work today while I was staring off into space (due to having absolutely nothing to do due to my trainee's engines being down, and mine being shut down for the day)... Why is it so hard for me to keep friends? Am I really so creepy or in some way screwed up that I keep scaring them off? Not bitching or anything, just wondering. I must have 60 or 70 names in my various IMs and such and maybe ten talk to me. half only when I prod them into talking. 0.o
Used to know a bunch of people. Then they started to either stop talking to me and vanish, start hating me, or... I misplaced them... somehow.... :P Wish I knew what it was all about. What I'm doing wrong.
Sometimes I start to think that I should never even have started trying to break free of my shyness... But, I continue to work on it one way or another, for better or for Ill.
I had a conversation a few days ago with a friend I've known since my early days in the fandom in which I described why I'm always complaining. I said that it's because "I'm a moody whiny bitchy mentally screwed up creature that craves yet fears attention".
Her reply was "No, you're a social creature with a scary past who isn't yet sure how to deal with the attention you so desperately need"
Which do you think?
*wonders if anyone will answer...*