someone stop my heart from beating so fast when i think about him.
stop it.

done with highschool
FOREVER

where the fuck is jason. i have the best news ever and i got one message from him today.
saying he was at grad and my name was on the list.but then he disappeared which is just
like him.so where the fuck is he cuz i have awsome news.and i want him to celebrate with me

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS..I LOVE IT BUT I HATE IT.

tomarrows my birthday..and i have this sinking feeling that something is going to go terribly wrong and im gonna be extremely upset..i dont know why i have this feeling but i do and im really worried..im sure itll have something to with jason even tho i reminded him today that my birthday was tomarrow but im sure hell do something dick like not say ( Read more... )

looking to get miggggggggggggghtyyy fucked up tonight ( Read more... )

he said "hes been feeling wierd" but it was "an akward time to talk"
im kinda worried..but then again that could just be me, it could be good.

right?

so yeah my life...i dont even know anymore i dont know what to do with it. i know that im smart i know that im a good athlete i know that im fairly good looking and i know that i can go far..but how to get there. taking this year off is going to put me back in the right place ive gotten so off track with the all night parties and everything else ( Read more... )

im hurting.
breathing is so overrated.

i need some new friends ASAP.minus jason and a few others here and there.
new friends are needed as soon as fucking possible.

nothing.
absolutly nothing.
he said nothing.
am i really that surprised?
nope.just hurt.and getting sick of it.
so sick of it im about to just throw my hands up.
and say fuck you.god how i wish i was going away to school this year.
god fucking damnit.