all I am is not who I am ment to be

what does it mean if I live as much as possible, aside from "morality" and in the end still crave life? I don't know anymore.

I shouldn't still be thinking about this everyday, but I just wish you were honest. I know thats hypocritical cause Im not being either. But you go back and forth and I've never felt so worn, confused, or jealous before. And I hate that because Im the lest jealous person alive. I thought you were over it but I don't know why it matters so much to ( Read more... )

Im afraid my love, It must be true ( Read more... )

How do I always manage to screw things up. And I mean always. Im going to lose one of my best friends for such a stuiped error. Why am I not enough? And why does this seem to keep happening? Why do I think things are fine when they aren't and worry when things are fine? Im either getting hurt or hurting people when this happens, it never ends in a ( Read more... )

I have the most liberating free-spirted friends. We went cliff jumping yesterday and walked soking wet to the park to bang on some drums and play music in the oddly hott weather. I never though such accepting//creative people existed. The way they allow life to satisfy them is completely paranormal and inspiring. Its amazing the things that you can ( Read more... )

my lungs have trees in them

DAMN IT JORDAN... when are you going to make up your mind?? sometime soon would be nice

Once I tried to be your friend, but I was undergoing change ( Read more... )

I love negro parties down town

w000t

Imma getz all splitz up muh sixtysixxx!!

contentment is so effing hard to find. I think Im learning I won't find it until Im completely gone from everything familiar. Familiar places and people that hold me back from giving myself whole heartedly into another place. I will.... So.. Im thinking of where the hell I want to move in seven months. I just want to travel and live all over the ( Read more... )