overly hot, you're overrated. so hot, your pants are on fire. and i'm on. i'm coming ( Read more... )

it's raining outside. it's so beautiful. i just came in from walking in it. i'm so cold, so wonderfully cold. it'd be wonderful though if i had someone here to hold, or hold me. but i still feel great now. just being alive in such a beautiful world, where the rain outside can bring on my own rain:tears.

i walk the sidewalk crookedly. pounds of dirt pour out from my sleeves. there's dirt under my nails and in my hair. there is dirt everywhere. i was created in the image of dirt. dirt smiles. dirt breeze. dirty hands. dirty knees. i love dirt. i eat dirt. i am so dirty. dirt makes me clean. igneous, sedimentary. dirt rocks. the earth. is dirt. what ( Read more... )

in spite of life itself in actuality, i'm doing good. i love my life. i love the life i build for me. i love to dream, sometimes even during the day. i like to be outside, to dance and leap, to blow bubbles, to look people in the eye. sometimes even when i think of him i feel awfuly high. the future is a surprise. i'm so excited. i feel so young ( Read more... )

unsteady hands. shaky scissors. crooked cuts and lots of splinters. you're always trying to cut me down. what do you expect? i came. i saw. i saw the saw. you think you're the only one in the history of ever to be so clever. i'd call you a bad seed, an ugly weed. but, i'm alive. i am green ( Read more... )

i suppose it's time for an update. type type type. update update update. words words words. letters letters letters. setences... hmmm? not much to say at the current moment. i feel pretty gosh darn good. things are going okay. they're not going much of anywhere actually, but that's good. i'm enjoying this little vacation from school and from really ( Read more... )

i never thought i'd feel alone. but these tears flow so fast, so hard, so abundantly. people are really bringing me down right now. just the way they are. they're careless and rude with morals or thoughts...so selfish. and everyone says "i'm there for you." but i don't believe anyone really means it. if i were to confront someone with my worries, ( Read more... )

only the corrupt, evil, and wicked ever really die. but when i "die" i want people to carry out my death in a very particular way. i don't know how many people will be affected by my death. because i believe when i die, i will be one hundred years old. and by then, most of the people i've met on earth will have passed already. i'm sure i will meet ( Read more... )

hey, playgirl. hey, playgirl.
i'm getting homeschooled. cool, weird.

i think a lot of people are ignorant about the fact that it was a suicie. i mean HELLO! dedicate a website? t-shirts? what else?! i regret going to his viewing and his funeral. :/ that is where you honor the dead, right? "pay your respects." no one should honor someone who was weak enough to take their own life. i can't have any respect for him. ( Read more... )