Memes
I keep thinking I should do some memes... the kind that ask you questions about yourself. In part because I'm not sure I myself know the answers to a lot of questions that most people probably take for granted, and maybe being prompted would help me know more about myself that way.... I've been enjoying the Writer's Block questions, because they do make me think like that.
So I went to look up some memes that people have already written, and... it's interesting. At least one question is always of the type, "if you could have/do/be/change (a thing of this kind), what would it be/what would you do?" Like... hm, maybe it's hard to understand without an example. Like "if you could go to any time period, when would it be?", or "if you could undo one thing you've done in the past", or "if you could be any creature".... I don't find those questions easy to answer at all.
Maybe it's just that I haven't given it enough thought, but... I'm here to help the present and future, so I don't see any point in going to the past. I have to work with the way the world is now, and improve what's here, and... I can do that, so I don't need to go back. The same with undoing an action I did... I'd wish not to have hurt anybody I ever hurt in the past, but... if I can make it so the future is so beautiful that it no longer matters to them any more, isn't that even better? That way, they've learnt whatever it taught them, and they've moved beyond the pain.... It seems silly to waste time unpicking the threads of the past, unweaving who people are now, when you can just keep on making life better and better for everyone instead.... I guess maybe I don't see a point in going backwards, in general. As an alchemist, as a Mana, I'm always looking to the future.
As for what kind of creature... I guess I'm curious about looking or feeling like various things, like being just light, or something. But it's not like I'd ever want to trade what I am deep down.
And I guess what these questions all have in common, what they all make me realise, is... I really don't know how to respond to questions about lack, or about "what if you could do this or that", because... I can do anything I want, and there's also not much I want. I'd like to try wearing the forms of different creatures, but I also don't really need to. I'm content how I am. And yet... I think I've learnt something by noticing that, because... they are really common questions to ask, and I guess that means that this is how a lot of people think. They are curious about the idea of being other things. They often long to change the past. It helps me understand them, understand the way this world is and what people seek, and it makes me want to help them, and understand more, perhaps, about how to help them.
I wonder how I'd have answered those questions when I didn't know what I was. It's a shame I never thought about it, almost. What would I have said, if asked what I wanted to be? A Mana? Would I have understood subconsciously, would I have recognised that deep down I was this and needed to express it? Would that have given me a clue to my nature before it impressed itself upon me inevitably?
...hm, maybe, since I couldn't find any questions to answer, I guess I'll end this by saying that if anyone wants to ask me questions, they can? Whether you're someone I know, or you're from beyond the fourth wall, I'll happily answer your questions if I know the answers. I wonder what you might want to know.
So I went to look up some memes that people have already written, and... it's interesting. At least one question is always of the type, "if you could have/do/be/change (a thing of this kind), what would it be/what would you do?" Like... hm, maybe it's hard to understand without an example. Like "if you could go to any time period, when would it be?", or "if you could undo one thing you've done in the past", or "if you could be any creature".... I don't find those questions easy to answer at all.
Maybe it's just that I haven't given it enough thought, but... I'm here to help the present and future, so I don't see any point in going to the past. I have to work with the way the world is now, and improve what's here, and... I can do that, so I don't need to go back. The same with undoing an action I did... I'd wish not to have hurt anybody I ever hurt in the past, but... if I can make it so the future is so beautiful that it no longer matters to them any more, isn't that even better? That way, they've learnt whatever it taught them, and they've moved beyond the pain.... It seems silly to waste time unpicking the threads of the past, unweaving who people are now, when you can just keep on making life better and better for everyone instead.... I guess maybe I don't see a point in going backwards, in general. As an alchemist, as a Mana, I'm always looking to the future.
As for what kind of creature... I guess I'm curious about looking or feeling like various things, like being just light, or something. But it's not like I'd ever want to trade what I am deep down.
And I guess what these questions all have in common, what they all make me realise, is... I really don't know how to respond to questions about lack, or about "what if you could do this or that", because... I can do anything I want, and there's also not much I want. I'd like to try wearing the forms of different creatures, but I also don't really need to. I'm content how I am. And yet... I think I've learnt something by noticing that, because... they are really common questions to ask, and I guess that means that this is how a lot of people think. They are curious about the idea of being other things. They often long to change the past. It helps me understand them, understand the way this world is and what people seek, and it makes me want to help them, and understand more, perhaps, about how to help them.
I wonder how I'd have answered those questions when I didn't know what I was. It's a shame I never thought about it, almost. What would I have said, if asked what I wanted to be? A Mana? Would I have understood subconsciously, would I have recognised that deep down I was this and needed to express it? Would that have given me a clue to my nature before it impressed itself upon me inevitably?
...hm, maybe, since I couldn't find any questions to answer, I guess I'll end this by saying that if anyone wants to ask me questions, they can? Whether you're someone I know, or you're from beyond the fourth wall, I'll happily answer your questions if I know the answers. I wonder what you might want to know.