Comments | alrevisalumni: There are no inbetweens.

thewishfire in alrevisalumni

There are no inbetweens.

Nov 23, 2009 12:51

I worry, sometimes, about my other self. Not the "other self" that is my Mana side... I mean the other "version" of me, the one who goes by raisedbyacat on this system. I worry about him in part because he seems so lost, but lately, more specifically ( Read more... )

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strivinghigher November 23 2009, 22:45:44 UTC

I'm worried about him too. I think you said some good things that really made him think, but I'm concerned about the chance that he might ultimately turn away from himself.

Vayne, you were no good at pretending to be a human, but even that was more than you'd have if you simply denied your power. There isn't any "underlying human" in you to take over if your power disappeared. There'd be nothing left.

thewishfire November 23 2009, 22:52:38 UTC

I know. In every way, it's wrong... for him, for the world... and maybe those two aren't such separate things, even.... Just... what do we live for, if not the secret faint hope that our wishes might someday come true, our dreams all be fulfilled, our lives satisfied? We're not just to glimmer and die. We can look up to the stars and feel awe impressed upon our hearts, and know that there is something to which we are all drawn, and we wish for it. To deny those wishes, to say that they mean nothing... that's not just to deny me, but humans, too, and all other people who strive. It's to cut out their hearts as surely as to cut out my own ( ... )

strivinghigher November 23 2009, 23:02:21 UTC

Some people claim that it's only any good to get your wish if you've worked hard for it. But I think that goes against what our hearts secretly desire. We do sometimes wish we could have something right now, and we tell ourselves that working for it is good because that's how we can keep ourselves motivated to work for it instead of sitting around pining for our lack. It's a useful thing to think about when it keeps us working towards our goals, but it's twisted to subsume everything to it, even the goals themselves. I of all people know how easy it is to become twisted like that, but it's not healthy after all...

thewishfire November 23 2009, 23:16:23 UTC

We do sometimes wish we could have something right now, and we tell ourselves that working for it is good because that's how we can keep ourselves motivated to work for it instead of sitting around pining for our lack.

Yes, I think that's very true.... The idea of working for something is-- it's a necessary evil, it's entirely subservient to the fact that we want the thing. And that talent, that skill, the ability to work for things ourselves... we say that learning this strengthens character, but it only strengthens us in the sense that it enables us to do that in more situations where we need it. All that learning this teaches us is how to do that thing itself, and if we've decided that that thing isn't necessary in the first place, we have no further use for this skill.... We might be different people if we didn't have to do this, but would we necessarily be bad people, in a world where we didn't need it? It might be useful, in a given world, to be able to fight to protect yourself, but in a world where we didn't need to fight at ( ... )

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