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[alucardgod]

This is probably my last entry in this fucking thing..all It has caused me is pain

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[alucardgod]

your right I cant...i am sorry thats what i have told myself for so long..and how it is true because you will soon just leave like the restof them...not that you have before or anything....

[alucardgod]

the spirit you carry huh....I guess I carry the worst spirit ever then....

[alucardgod]

but it does not work.....I feel so...weak afterwards...I mean can I get help without him....I do not think I have to have god to live a little bit of happiness..do I?...

[alucardgod]

I am incomplete in some many ways you have no idea...

[alucardgod]

I was nothing with him....I tried..and I really put my heart in it..just to fall every time....why would he let me fall every time....why...I thought could safe with him....I was wrong...all I need now is my music...it makes me more depressed but at least it wont hurt me...