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[alushea]

He used me as a punch bag, taking out every single bad day and rough ride he had. I was his personal joke. It was me that made him feel better everyday, making me feel worse than he did about himself, just to make himself feel better.I was his excuse to make everything in the world seem ok

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[sliding_ideas]

stick with this. please stick with this. this is the truth. i know exactly what you mean. and i'm sending all my love to you. you have the power. hang on. xxx

[anonymous]

You are so used to being the one doing all the chasing. Always putting everyone elses mind at ease at the expense of everything you have ever needed to be happy. And for that, considering you as one of my most valuable and trusted friends, I will be forever grateful.
But this time, sit back and let him chase all he wants. This time, let someone else make the effort. This time, let it be them to cycle to your house at three in the morning just to say they love you. And this time, you show that boy what it is to really love someone with all you have.
Elliot wasn't worth it. Sam wasn't worth it. Ian wasn't worth it. You made them worth it. This boy will be worth it because you believe in him. You have grown up so much and you are such a beautiful girl. I believe that this time, you will do yourself good. Because you are worth everything. And this time, I think you might start believing me.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Rand. For all my rants in the past, I owed you that much.
Love you pixie. R xx