Russ Has Wings Now

[alvastarr]

At 3:15 this afternoon, Russ passed away in his father's arms. I am, oddly, relieved. Not because of any callousness on my part, but, rather, the bizarre connection that I seem to have with those who've shuffled off this mortal coil. At first I believed myself to be having more schizophrenic episodes, however my mom just told me a few moments ago

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[shine_to_shame]

I am sure you'll do just fine. I am sorry for your loss.

[orfeo517]

Someone asked me to sing at a funeral recently, and I declined. It was a funeral for someone I knew and loved, but I couldn't do it. It's not that I was shy about singing...as you know, I'm a vocal whore, ready to sing anything I can even half-way remember to any audience willing to listen. Call it a mental or emotional blockage, but I can't just sing at will. If I'm sad, agitated, or depressed, I can't sing. I don't care if it's "Amazing Grace" or "Golden Slumbers." It's no good.

[thelatespaceboy]

and everything comes backaroundback again. i sometimes wonder if anyone will go to my funeral. and if anyone will say anything profound and stirring. i wonder if any beautiful people will sob uncontrollably, and make everyone stare and wonder...
i remember standing up, far in the back of a mcchapel at my "first" funeral, for a sweet sweet girl i went to school with whom i'd had a great crush on from the first moment i'd seen her. i remember feeling guilt that day because just two years prior i'd feebed out of a funeral for a relatively good friend. i'd sworn not to go to funerals ever.
you always remember your first.

[casualdick]

I love your journal.