Yeah, yeah, I'm working on it- uomo sete
THE ENTRY:
Ok so I just got back from the beach. It was a good plan. I mean, I came home and applied for a few jobs (that I didn't get), then I headed down the shore for some "senior week" fun with friends.
Wedensday night I didn't even bother to stop at my place first. Drove straight to Ocean City to pick Tom up. I got there right as his family was having dinner so they invited me to stay. They're a cute little family, but I see how Tom would go crazy. They're so proper. Dinner was awesome. His mom called it "Mexican Dish." They told me to put down some Fritos first and then top it off with the taco stuff. There was the meat (beef, beans, etc. etc.), then cut cherry tomatoes, lettuce, and cheese. It was adorable. Anyway, then we stopped for a case of Corona on the way to my place to turn on the propane and everything. Next, we went to John's for some beer and pool fun. Dana was there with him. Eventually we convinced Kim and Lorn to get their butts down there. A few of his neighbors stopped by (got us RE-TAR-TED) and Candi and Danny came over to say hi and hang out for a bit. Since the last time I saw Danny, he's REALLY grown up. I mean, he's become the man, y'know? He was completely there for me all weekend and I had a lot of fun chillin with him. He's not just being stupid for a cheap laugh anymore. He's being himself and I love him for it. Anyway, we played some volleyball in the pool and John cooked some chicken. Eventually, I drove Tom and I back to my place because there was no way we wanted to sleep on the floor at John's. We ended up both staying up in the loft, but we're just friends. I kinda was trying to get him to sleep somewhere else, because I was skeptical of why he wanted to sleep in the loft with me so badly. It was cool though, we just passed out and the next morning it felt so innocent and fun. Like I was up there with Chris. Just comfortable friends. It felt really nice.
Thursday was kinda crazy. Dana, John, Tom, Kim, Lorn, and I went to the beach in Sea Isle with Kim's Dad. Her Grandmom showed up at some point too. John, Kim, Tom, and I pushed the lifeguard limits. lol It was fun, we got excited when we couldn't touch anymore. I just wish there wasn't so much damn seaweed. Kim and I got to have some heart-to-heart time, which was cool because it's been a long time since we had talks like that that weren't completely negative or one-sided (on both of our parts for the past year at one time or another it's been like that.) After that we went home to shower and Kim's family invited me and Tom to dinner with them (John and Dana had already left). In a nutshell her family is AWESOME and I'm so glad I FINALLY got to meet them all after hearing so much about them all these years. I got everyone's names down except for a few of the younger cousins and uncles that weren't there. They're a huge family. And dinner? Wow. Delicious and plenty of it.
I ended up driving Tom home around eleven thirty because I promised Candi and Danny I'd go out to the bars with them when they got back. So Candi kept calling me from 11:30 on. I REALLY wasn't feeling going out cuz I was tired, but I sucked it up because she's my girl and I wanted to see her. Apparently Danny had other plans on the island because he couldn't get into the bar, but I got the impression that we would go see him when the bars closed. So anyway, she takes me to this bar in Avalon called "Jack's place" and neglected to mention there was a five dollar cover. Wouldn't have been a problem if I wasn't broke. It was cool though because some guy bought us shots and Candi bought me a few beers. She refused to let me pay. I was glad I got to hang out with her, but this bar....it would have been really tight if there weren't so many of two types of people there: 1) the shallow ass people that kept giving me dirty looks. the girls looking like they wanted to kill us both for different reasons and the guys that wouldn't STOP checking Candi out because she's tiny. and 2)sluts. girls walking around like it's Cancun. Lifting their dresses around their shoulders (not kidding, giving the bands full frontal) and running around in thongs. Not like skirts or pants with thongs on or sticking out....striaght up just in their thongs. No thanks. Penn State isn't even that bad.
Anyway, so we're leaving the bar with her friend Keelie (life-size Barbie, no kidding. Think the girl Brittany from "White Chicks") who fights with her boyfriend and treats him like shit as we leave the bar, yet he keeps running back after trying to make a big stand by saying "fuck you" and walking away. Then Candi starts fighting with the one guy she's hooking up with "Nunneri" because he doesn't want a girl who will cheat on him and although they were just hooking up he saw where it would lead. He didn't want a girl like her and accused her of sleeping with just about everyone on the island. (yeah, she has a reputation apparently) So Keelie drives us over to 24th street from the bar which was on 38th. I was wondering what the hell happened to hanging out with Danny. I'm a little buzzed. We get there and the guys she wanted to hang out with weren't up for it. So out of nowhere these three guys walk up to me and ask me to come to this party. Then they're like "oh are you all together? come over!" So we walk two more blocks to this green house that Candi's partied at before. Apparently this 36-year-old or something she was sleeping with owned it and rented it out. We went into the house to pee and got locked in the bathroom. When we were finally let out we went to the porch where the two of them (Candi was the worst) proceed to talk on their phones fighting with guys for the rest of the night. Candi handed me a bottle of Skyy and I kept swigging it until it was empty. She was throwing her phone on the cement, storming off, and just generally throwing a hissy fit. I wanted to go inside and play beer pong, but they were busy and I didn't know anyone in the house. So after a bit Candi decides to just get up and walk away never to be seen again. She just left me! Still fighting on her cell. Anthony (the ex) and this guy "Nunneri." Keelie hung up and these guys started hitting on her, she was a bitch to them, it was great. She was a real bitch to guys all night, and very Barbie-ish, but such a sweetheart to me. She drove us around looking for Candi because she knew she had to leave me to meet up with her bf. We couldn't find Candi. So she dropped me off at the green house (being as my car was like over 10 beach blocks away) and I sat there hoping Candi had come back.
Anyway, this guy John came out and started talking to me. Told me I should spend the night there (he lived there) because there was plenty of room. We had a talk about college, what we each did for a living, and what a bitch Candi was for leaving. He brought me in and introduced me to everyone and made me a drink. It was really cool of him. He, like, took me in. We talked about how I was different than the girls on the island and how he'd grown up in Avalon. Anyway, I texted Danny that I was pissed at Candi (completely drunk by this point) and he called. I started crying, he calmed me down, found out where I was and said he'd be there to drive us home in my car. He got a friend to come pick him up where he was and drive him to 22nd. Right after I hung up with Danny I told John I had a friend that was gonna come get me. He was upset. He was like "Oh so you're not feelin staying here? :(" and I told him I wanted to, but I just met him, didn't wanna impose and wanted to sleep in my own bed. "Well, what about me?" Stupid, naive me JUST realized that he was trying to hook up with me. "Um...well, I really liked talking to you and you rescuing me..." "Is that all?" He looked like a hurt little puppy that needed an ego boost. I smiled and told him, "Well, yeah, I think you're kinda cute too..." and he looked at me and said "c'mere." Then he kissed me. It was cute. He got all awkward because we kissed out in the open dining room even though everyone was in the living room on the other side of the wall. We got some more privacy and chilled for a bit waiting for Danny. Danny got there and knew John's roommate, Dave, so we all hung out for a little before Danny and I walked to my car and drove home. I haven't talked to Candi since. I saw Danny today when I was leaving. Got home around 5. Sorry that was such a long post, but it was a loooooooong day
Friday I woke up REALLY late, then drove to Sea Isle to meet up with Lorn, Tom, and Kim for mini-golf and ice-cream. My mom ended up showin up just as I was on my way out and guilt-tripped me for leaving. I promised to spend the entire Saturday with her. Told her we could go to the beach. I got to Sea Isle and we sat around watching MTV for like 2-3 hours. I was pissed because 1)I left in a hurry and didn't think I had time for a shower, so I felt gross especially after knowing I had plenty of time and 2)Felt like shit for not spending those hours with my mom and running out the second she got down.
So we finally get to mini-golf and I dunno whether I was hungover, back home and more comfortable being confrontational, or I was just still revved up from being pissed at Candi, but Lorn's usual bitching PISSED ME THE HELL OFF more than usual. Seriously, he kept whining about his swimmer's ear, which is a problem bothering Kim too, but she's not acting like a baby about it. Then he wouldn't do well on a hole in mini-golf and THROW his club. There were KIDS around! (and they were acting more mature than him). So I told him to stop being a little bitch when he bitched at Kim once for accidentally tapping him or something (when he poked her in the cheek with a pencil purposefully earlier). He was all "Are you KIDDING me?" "No, actually I'm not." I dunno, whatever. Then on the walk back to Kim's she was pissed because he said he'd take her to dinner (Tom and I planned to go home) and he basically cancelled the plans in front of all of us when he said "we can always do it tommorrow." I felt bad for her because apparently he always does that.
We get back to the house and decide to order dinner. Long story short there was a problem with the money when the delivery guy showed up because Kim and I had gone on a search for hydrogen peroxide for Lorn's ears so he'd stop complaining. We get back and he's BITCHING at Kim to the point where he just about made her cry. We left and went to take care of things at the place without telling Lorn because he was continuing to be a dick (he had gotten drunk while we were gone). Tom just watched. When we got back he came upstairs and bitched more. He didn't realize Kim's dad had come up the steps while he was drunkenly REEMING her out although she was trying to tell him we took care of it and he needed to drop it. Kim's dad would've thrown him out or kicked his ass (or both) if he heard the way Lorn was speaking to his daughter. Being as I was already pissed and didn't want Kim to deal with that, didn't want her dad to blow up, I decided to yell "Lorn, would you stop yelling at her? We took care of it. It's done, drop it." then he says how he's yelling at BOTH of us (although I was across the room and he was in Kim's face), but as he turns to look at me he sees Kim's dad and changes his attitude. He eventually goes downstairs, Kim follows him a few minutes later, and he's yelling downstairs about me so I could hear him. Kim calmed him down finally and he came upstairs. After eating and a little TV (and a little convo with her Dad) I drove home and he drove Tom home. We had plans for the beach the next day so I gave Tom a hug goodbye (he wasn't gonna be there, he was going home for good) and told Lorn and Kim I'd see them tommorrow. (I also saw Erin for a bit, that was cool). I wasn't REALLY worried about Lorn because I knew he really was being a little bitch and he'd get over it.
Saturday was SO much fun. My mom decided she didn't feel like going to the beach and wanted to take me to the Borgata in Atlantic City. I called Kim and told her I wasn't going to make the beach. Then we got down there, I got a card, and we played the slots for hours on end. We kept finding machines that were so much fun, but we didn't go past the nickel and penny slots. It was a good plan because we actually ended up coming out a bit ahead. She gave me like $100 to play with and I turned it into $170. It WAS $196 at one point, but I'm stupid. I wanted to stop playing and take the money, but my mom wasn't done. I tried to sit next to her and just watch her (she was having so much fun and kept sitting down at different machines on the way out going "I really have a problem. I have a problem" with a smile on her face though the whole time. She's so funny when she gambles and it's not like it's really caused her serious problems, she just loses more than she'd like to and is usually so anal about money). Anyway, it was impossible to just watch her for that long. I slipped some money in the machines and actually got down to $130 from $196, but I brought it back up. We stopped for lunch at some point. We went to the cafeteria. She got Tony Luc's and I got Panda Express. When we got home we walked the dogs together, then watched Diane Lane movies on TV("Must Love Dogs" and "Under the Tuscan Sun"). After that she went to bed and I watched Nip/Tuck until 3.
Sorry about the lengthiness, but it was an interesting long weekend. I woke up late again today, watched some TV ("Happy Gilmore"), went to the beach by myself for a bit, had lunch, watched "50 First Dates", then drove back here. I missed Kyan a lot. Besides, tommorrow I have a few things to get done before I can go over to Melissa's to chill for a bit. Acme, Petco, and applying for jobs. Wish me luck!
THE SONG:
(because I'm a silly bitch that couldn't get another silly bitch out of my head the whole damn weekend. ::sigh:: Whatever. I'm working on it. Oh and I also have a huge crush on another guy I can't have. He's different, and I'm really into him. It would be cool if that would work out, but as for now, I'm just enjoying it even if my conscience is telling me I'm too old for a crush especially on someone so unattainable.)
Looking back if we had one more night to spend
I would steal every second I would never let it end
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to, but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace
'Cause it starts in your eyes and
It filled up all the space in my heart
I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
Make no mistake I'm here in this place
And I'm not waiting around for you
But I can't help it I'm still searching
For some way to get through
I will always remember
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
I wanted you
I will always remember
I will always remember
Ok so I just got back from the beach. It was a good plan. I mean, I came home and applied for a few jobs (that I didn't get), then I headed down the shore for some "senior week" fun with friends.
Wedensday night I didn't even bother to stop at my place first. Drove straight to Ocean City to pick Tom up. I got there right as his family was having dinner so they invited me to stay. They're a cute little family, but I see how Tom would go crazy. They're so proper. Dinner was awesome. His mom called it "Mexican Dish." They told me to put down some Fritos first and then top it off with the taco stuff. There was the meat (beef, beans, etc. etc.), then cut cherry tomatoes, lettuce, and cheese. It was adorable. Anyway, then we stopped for a case of Corona on the way to my place to turn on the propane and everything. Next, we went to John's for some beer and pool fun. Dana was there with him. Eventually we convinced Kim and Lorn to get their butts down there. A few of his neighbors stopped by (got us RE-TAR-TED) and Candi and Danny came over to say hi and hang out for a bit. Since the last time I saw Danny, he's REALLY grown up. I mean, he's become the man, y'know? He was completely there for me all weekend and I had a lot of fun chillin with him. He's not just being stupid for a cheap laugh anymore. He's being himself and I love him for it. Anyway, we played some volleyball in the pool and John cooked some chicken. Eventually, I drove Tom and I back to my place because there was no way we wanted to sleep on the floor at John's. We ended up both staying up in the loft, but we're just friends. I kinda was trying to get him to sleep somewhere else, because I was skeptical of why he wanted to sleep in the loft with me so badly. It was cool though, we just passed out and the next morning it felt so innocent and fun. Like I was up there with Chris. Just comfortable friends. It felt really nice.
Thursday was kinda crazy. Dana, John, Tom, Kim, Lorn, and I went to the beach in Sea Isle with Kim's Dad. Her Grandmom showed up at some point too. John, Kim, Tom, and I pushed the lifeguard limits. lol It was fun, we got excited when we couldn't touch anymore. I just wish there wasn't so much damn seaweed. Kim and I got to have some heart-to-heart time, which was cool because it's been a long time since we had talks like that that weren't completely negative or one-sided (on both of our parts for the past year at one time or another it's been like that.) After that we went home to shower and Kim's family invited me and Tom to dinner with them (John and Dana had already left). In a nutshell her family is AWESOME and I'm so glad I FINALLY got to meet them all after hearing so much about them all these years. I got everyone's names down except for a few of the younger cousins and uncles that weren't there. They're a huge family. And dinner? Wow. Delicious and plenty of it.
I ended up driving Tom home around eleven thirty because I promised Candi and Danny I'd go out to the bars with them when they got back. So Candi kept calling me from 11:30 on. I REALLY wasn't feeling going out cuz I was tired, but I sucked it up because she's my girl and I wanted to see her. Apparently Danny had other plans on the island because he couldn't get into the bar, but I got the impression that we would go see him when the bars closed. So anyway, she takes me to this bar in Avalon called "Jack's place" and neglected to mention there was a five dollar cover. Wouldn't have been a problem if I wasn't broke. It was cool though because some guy bought us shots and Candi bought me a few beers. She refused to let me pay. I was glad I got to hang out with her, but this bar....it would have been really tight if there weren't so many of two types of people there: 1) the shallow ass people that kept giving me dirty looks. the girls looking like they wanted to kill us both for different reasons and the guys that wouldn't STOP checking Candi out because she's tiny. and 2)sluts. girls walking around like it's Cancun. Lifting their dresses around their shoulders (not kidding, giving the bands full frontal) and running around in thongs. Not like skirts or pants with thongs on or sticking out....striaght up just in their thongs. No thanks. Penn State isn't even that bad.
Anyway, so we're leaving the bar with her friend Keelie (life-size Barbie, no kidding. Think the girl Brittany from "White Chicks") who fights with her boyfriend and treats him like shit as we leave the bar, yet he keeps running back after trying to make a big stand by saying "fuck you" and walking away. Then Candi starts fighting with the one guy she's hooking up with "Nunneri" because he doesn't want a girl who will cheat on him and although they were just hooking up he saw where it would lead. He didn't want a girl like her and accused her of sleeping with just about everyone on the island. (yeah, she has a reputation apparently) So Keelie drives us over to 24th street from the bar which was on 38th. I was wondering what the hell happened to hanging out with Danny. I'm a little buzzed. We get there and the guys she wanted to hang out with weren't up for it. So out of nowhere these three guys walk up to me and ask me to come to this party. Then they're like "oh are you all together? come over!" So we walk two more blocks to this green house that Candi's partied at before. Apparently this 36-year-old or something she was sleeping with owned it and rented it out. We went into the house to pee and got locked in the bathroom. When we were finally let out we went to the porch where the two of them (Candi was the worst) proceed to talk on their phones fighting with guys for the rest of the night. Candi handed me a bottle of Skyy and I kept swigging it until it was empty. She was throwing her phone on the cement, storming off, and just generally throwing a hissy fit. I wanted to go inside and play beer pong, but they were busy and I didn't know anyone in the house. So after a bit Candi decides to just get up and walk away never to be seen again. She just left me! Still fighting on her cell. Anthony (the ex) and this guy "Nunneri." Keelie hung up and these guys started hitting on her, she was a bitch to them, it was great. She was a real bitch to guys all night, and very Barbie-ish, but such a sweetheart to me. She drove us around looking for Candi because she knew she had to leave me to meet up with her bf. We couldn't find Candi. So she dropped me off at the green house (being as my car was like over 10 beach blocks away) and I sat there hoping Candi had come back.
Anyway, this guy John came out and started talking to me. Told me I should spend the night there (he lived there) because there was plenty of room. We had a talk about college, what we each did for a living, and what a bitch Candi was for leaving. He brought me in and introduced me to everyone and made me a drink. It was really cool of him. He, like, took me in. We talked about how I was different than the girls on the island and how he'd grown up in Avalon. Anyway, I texted Danny that I was pissed at Candi (completely drunk by this point) and he called. I started crying, he calmed me down, found out where I was and said he'd be there to drive us home in my car. He got a friend to come pick him up where he was and drive him to 22nd. Right after I hung up with Danny I told John I had a friend that was gonna come get me. He was upset. He was like "Oh so you're not feelin staying here? :(" and I told him I wanted to, but I just met him, didn't wanna impose and wanted to sleep in my own bed. "Well, what about me?" Stupid, naive me JUST realized that he was trying to hook up with me. "Um...well, I really liked talking to you and you rescuing me..." "Is that all?" He looked like a hurt little puppy that needed an ego boost. I smiled and told him, "Well, yeah, I think you're kinda cute too..." and he looked at me and said "c'mere." Then he kissed me. It was cute. He got all awkward because we kissed out in the open dining room even though everyone was in the living room on the other side of the wall. We got some more privacy and chilled for a bit waiting for Danny. Danny got there and knew John's roommate, Dave, so we all hung out for a little before Danny and I walked to my car and drove home. I haven't talked to Candi since. I saw Danny today when I was leaving. Got home around 5. Sorry that was such a long post, but it was a loooooooong day
Friday I woke up REALLY late, then drove to Sea Isle to meet up with Lorn, Tom, and Kim for mini-golf and ice-cream. My mom ended up showin up just as I was on my way out and guilt-tripped me for leaving. I promised to spend the entire Saturday with her. Told her we could go to the beach. I got to Sea Isle and we sat around watching MTV for like 2-3 hours. I was pissed because 1)I left in a hurry and didn't think I had time for a shower, so I felt gross especially after knowing I had plenty of time and 2)Felt like shit for not spending those hours with my mom and running out the second she got down.
So we finally get to mini-golf and I dunno whether I was hungover, back home and more comfortable being confrontational, or I was just still revved up from being pissed at Candi, but Lorn's usual bitching PISSED ME THE HELL OFF more than usual. Seriously, he kept whining about his swimmer's ear, which is a problem bothering Kim too, but she's not acting like a baby about it. Then he wouldn't do well on a hole in mini-golf and THROW his club. There were KIDS around! (and they were acting more mature than him). So I told him to stop being a little bitch when he bitched at Kim once for accidentally tapping him or something (when he poked her in the cheek with a pencil purposefully earlier). He was all "Are you KIDDING me?" "No, actually I'm not." I dunno, whatever. Then on the walk back to Kim's she was pissed because he said he'd take her to dinner (Tom and I planned to go home) and he basically cancelled the plans in front of all of us when he said "we can always do it tommorrow." I felt bad for her because apparently he always does that.
We get back to the house and decide to order dinner. Long story short there was a problem with the money when the delivery guy showed up because Kim and I had gone on a search for hydrogen peroxide for Lorn's ears so he'd stop complaining. We get back and he's BITCHING at Kim to the point where he just about made her cry. We left and went to take care of things at the place without telling Lorn because he was continuing to be a dick (he had gotten drunk while we were gone). Tom just watched. When we got back he came upstairs and bitched more. He didn't realize Kim's dad had come up the steps while he was drunkenly REEMING her out although she was trying to tell him we took care of it and he needed to drop it. Kim's dad would've thrown him out or kicked his ass (or both) if he heard the way Lorn was speaking to his daughter. Being as I was already pissed and didn't want Kim to deal with that, didn't want her dad to blow up, I decided to yell "Lorn, would you stop yelling at her? We took care of it. It's done, drop it." then he says how he's yelling at BOTH of us (although I was across the room and he was in Kim's face), but as he turns to look at me he sees Kim's dad and changes his attitude. He eventually goes downstairs, Kim follows him a few minutes later, and he's yelling downstairs about me so I could hear him. Kim calmed him down finally and he came upstairs. After eating and a little TV (and a little convo with her Dad) I drove home and he drove Tom home. We had plans for the beach the next day so I gave Tom a hug goodbye (he wasn't gonna be there, he was going home for good) and told Lorn and Kim I'd see them tommorrow. (I also saw Erin for a bit, that was cool). I wasn't REALLY worried about Lorn because I knew he really was being a little bitch and he'd get over it.
Saturday was SO much fun. My mom decided she didn't feel like going to the beach and wanted to take me to the Borgata in Atlantic City. I called Kim and told her I wasn't going to make the beach. Then we got down there, I got a card, and we played the slots for hours on end. We kept finding machines that were so much fun, but we didn't go past the nickel and penny slots. It was a good plan because we actually ended up coming out a bit ahead. She gave me like $100 to play with and I turned it into $170. It WAS $196 at one point, but I'm stupid. I wanted to stop playing and take the money, but my mom wasn't done. I tried to sit next to her and just watch her (she was having so much fun and kept sitting down at different machines on the way out going "I really have a problem. I have a problem" with a smile on her face though the whole time. She's so funny when she gambles and it's not like it's really caused her serious problems, she just loses more than she'd like to and is usually so anal about money). Anyway, it was impossible to just watch her for that long. I slipped some money in the machines and actually got down to $130 from $196, but I brought it back up. We stopped for lunch at some point. We went to the cafeteria. She got Tony Luc's and I got Panda Express. When we got home we walked the dogs together, then watched Diane Lane movies on TV("Must Love Dogs" and "Under the Tuscan Sun"). After that she went to bed and I watched Nip/Tuck until 3.
Sorry about the lengthiness, but it was an interesting long weekend. I woke up late again today, watched some TV ("Happy Gilmore"), went to the beach by myself for a bit, had lunch, watched "50 First Dates", then drove back here. I missed Kyan a lot. Besides, tommorrow I have a few things to get done before I can go over to Melissa's to chill for a bit. Acme, Petco, and applying for jobs. Wish me luck!
THE SONG:
(because I'm a silly bitch that couldn't get another silly bitch out of my head the whole damn weekend. ::sigh:: Whatever. I'm working on it. Oh and I also have a huge crush on another guy I can't have. He's different, and I'm really into him. It would be cool if that would work out, but as for now, I'm just enjoying it even if my conscience is telling me I'm too old for a crush especially on someone so unattainable.)
Looking back if we had one more night to spend
I would steal every second I would never let it end
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to, but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace
'Cause it starts in your eyes and
It filled up all the space in my heart
I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
Make no mistake I'm here in this place
And I'm not waiting around for you
But I can't help it I'm still searching
For some way to get through
I will always remember
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
I wanted you
I will always remember
I will always remember