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[alwaysbymyself]

I hate this feeling. The one where I feel like I can't let myself get too close to people. I feel like I just start to annoy people when I get close to them. It really sucks because I'll never be able to let myself get close with anyone. No matter what I do I always feel like I'm holding part of myself back and not letting anyone see it. It's as if

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[cherryxscentedx]

A lot of people are self-concious like that. It's nothing to feel ashamed of, and it's something you'll get over in time. I get like that too. When I like a guy or girl, I automatically assume I annoy the shit out of them and I think they hate me. (Case and point- Alex. except he probably does hate me.) I don't like myself either, but I realized that spending all of my time moping about how much I hate myself just makes me feel worse. I HATE the way I look. But, I try not to complain about it anymore because it won't make me any prettier by calling myself ugly, and calling myself fat won't make me any thinner. I've been trying to avoid saying that about myself because it just makes me more paranoid when I start to like someone. I really do lack self-confidence. A lot of people do. It's nothing to be freaking out over, really. You will grow out of it. I never thought I could grow out of wanting to kill myself, and I'm completely over that now. and that's a pretty serious thing. So, believe me when I say it can be overcome

[alwaysbymyself]

First of all I must say I love how your comment is longer then my entire entry lol.

I do know that I'll eventually grow out of my paranoid thoughts but right now it feels like I won't. I just hate the feeling I get when I really think about it, I always feel like people are secretly judging me and stuff, I guess I'll eventually just have to trust that I have nothing to worry about. There are people who have seen the really me, like you and Scott. I'm pretty sure Ryan has too so it's not like no one has seen it, I just wish I could be me more often. Then again when I'm not me I dont know who I'm actually being. I guess I'm just being someone everyone will like. I must stop that because you're right I never will be happy if I don't be me.

So yes it is late and I'm tired, thank you for your comment it helped and I appreciate it! =)

Goodnight xoxSamxox

[cherryxscentedx]

Lol. Well you know how I lovee to talk, haha.

I'm glad you understand that you need to find yourself to be happy, cause that really is the first step to getting over it. And knowing that you will grow out of it is also a good thing, because at least you have some kind of vice. It's also good that you've been showing yourself to at least some people, because it means that you're not too far gone to even find yourself.

Anywayy, I'm glad my comment helped. Hopefully you'll grow out of this whole phase sooner rather than later, because I know how much it sucks. I hope everything works out for you very soon because I love youu. <3

[alwaysbymyself]

yes you do love to talk lol. Yeah you're right, it's good that I do know I'll grow out of it and that will help it pass sooner then later. I think thats all I have to say.

Thanks again. and I love you too <33

[samanthadooley]

Hey,

I know exactly how you feel, i feel the exact same way, and with me its every minute of everyday. Im sorry you have to feel this way, im sure that it will go away, it just takes some time. I hope you start feeling better, and you shouldnt hate yourself, you are a great person, and anyone would be lucky to be your friend! I LOVE YOU!!!! =D
Take Care hun

-Sammie-