Alright well its been two weeks. Its seriously so hard to write something down when you are depressed because the feeling hurts so bad you never want to be reminded of how you felt at that certain moment. Alright well i dont even know where to start i guess i can start by saying " I miss him but im doing alright" (thats a country lyric) I really ( Read more... )

Well last night Cameron broke up with me.

Well i've been in the east coast for a week and day now and ive been with cameron and his family for about 5 days. Its absolutly beautiful here, its really green which is so different from nevada. I miss alot of things at home though i miss the people and the up and go about the city. Where cam lives its kind of a small town with no fast food ( Read more... )

So since i last posted i really have alot of things to say. For one i got my lisence, its such a weird feeling its almost like hmmm ok now i have nothing to count down for. Its really weird, but i love it its a total independent feeling ( Read more... )

Alright so this is the 50th entry i have attempted to write its like ill start typing to update then all of a sudden ill just stop. I have no clue why but i just do. So right now im in computer lit and the sub is really scary looking like intensly his name is mr. hand it sounds like a name off of south park. He wont let me listen to my ipod why i ( Read more... )

So today turned into a shitty day. Im fucking tired of peoples shit. Im tired of doing everything to make someone and feel like they dont even care. Im tired of walking on fucking egg shells. Im really just tired of bull shit right now. Its amazing how at the end of a good day i can still be in tears. help.

Alright well it really has been forever since i last wrote and since my last entry was confusing beyond belief it probably seems like i really dissapeared off the face of the earth ( Read more... )

my hands are cold....

they never get this cold....

tonight was weird.....

but i liked it....

im a hypacrit.....

i learned alot of things.....

and it felt i unlearned things too.....

so why?

what now?

im deffinatly lost...

thinking = sucks......

Well Cameron has only been gone for about 15 hours and already a girl has attempted to shove her tounge down his throat. cool i can tell spring break is going to be just great.......

So right now i am so sad. Cameron is leaving in 5 hours and its only for 10 days but its going to be the most painful week. This is really hard and i have no idea what im going to do when the summer rolls around. Im seriously crying right now i feel so lame ( Read more... )