FINALLY AN UPDATE!
Ok, so finally I am going to update. Watching the Gaze live with Beck in the living room, and what better time? This will be long, for me at least, so bear with me here.
I am hunting for a second job right now. It is not easy, especially since I am full time at CVS now, I have to do something overnight. With Matt and Beck out of work, we have to do something. Especially since Matt's unemployment is crap. We want to move to PA, but having the money to move will be the issue. So, yeah money is tight, and getting tighter. We have to pay bills and save money. Not only will we have to move when the lease is up, whether staying in Rockford, or moving to PA, so that will cost money no matter what. I have lived on nothing before, I can do it again. I mean there was a time when all I could afford was $5 a week in groceries, so I know I can adjust. I'm worried about them since they haven't been a this tight of a situation before. I think if we use my experience, it won't be a problem, but I want Beckums happy and healthy, so Matt and I need to cut back. I know it will work out, but he needs to find a job since his unemployment is so low. I can only work 2 gigs for so long before I am exhausted. So yeah, I am stressed about all that. Trying to find a way to have extra every month, and not change our life style too much.
That's right, I found a haven in this God-forsaken town. Rock Cut State Park. It isn't anything like Highbanks in Columbus, but it's an escape. It looks like nothing else around here. I am going out tomorrow to get lost in it and just enjoy nature and life. Nothing is as stress-relieving and satisfying as getting out into nature for me. Now if I could just find someone to go out with me. I walk fast and it's so rocky and uneven, that it wouldn't be healthy for a Beck. Really makes me miss Court. I have been missing my friends a lot lately. I have Matt and Beck who I am grateful for, but no one else out here. It would be super awesome if I could find a guy to share it with ;-). Lishelle at work was joking with me about hiring a guy to which I reply he needs to be cute, have the same values as me, and be attracted to me, to which she asked if I wanted to start interviewing candidate, which I think would be best.
We are growing cucumbers, roma tomatoes, big boy tomatoes, green peppers, red onions, sweet basil, lavender, and spearmint. The tomatoes and peppers are in these things called topsy turvey which lets you plant them and have them grow upside down. So those are hanging off the side of our balcony, with the others in front of them. It's a cute little garden. I can't wait for things to start growing. I told Beck we need a house so I can do an entire garden and have a little plot of heaven. If you can't tell I LOVE the outdoors, and anything I can do involving it..
I am kinda rocking at work, which is wonderful. I love the people I work with, but can do without the little slice of drama that is going on now. I don't want to really get into it, but yeah makes it uncomfortable when you only have so many people working there. And I really like both girls involved, and so am trying to get myself as out of it as possible, and so far it is working. I had a long conversation with the one girl and I told her nothing she said would go beyond us, and I have stuck to that. It isn't in me to go running to the other and tell everything that the one said. So it's kinda nice that they feel they can trust me to talk to and get it out and not worry about it going beyond us.
So yeah, life is pretty ok right now. A little stressful in some situations, but basically amazing. I love watching my little nephew growing. I can't wait until he is here and I can hold him. Now I need to meet someone and fall in love so that I can have one of my own, and our kids can be best of friends. So guys, start applying, I'm interviewing lol. Really though, a date would be nice. If only the only guys I meet weren't the crazies that come into my work we'd be set >_
I am hunting for a second job right now. It is not easy, especially since I am full time at CVS now, I have to do something overnight. With Matt and Beck out of work, we have to do something. Especially since Matt's unemployment is crap. We want to move to PA, but having the money to move will be the issue. So, yeah money is tight, and getting tighter. We have to pay bills and save money. Not only will we have to move when the lease is up, whether staying in Rockford, or moving to PA, so that will cost money no matter what. I have lived on nothing before, I can do it again. I mean there was a time when all I could afford was $5 a week in groceries, so I know I can adjust. I'm worried about them since they haven't been a this tight of a situation before. I think if we use my experience, it won't be a problem, but I want Beckums happy and healthy, so Matt and I need to cut back. I know it will work out, but he needs to find a job since his unemployment is so low. I can only work 2 gigs for so long before I am exhausted. So yeah, I am stressed about all that. Trying to find a way to have extra every month, and not change our life style too much.
That's right, I found a haven in this God-forsaken town. Rock Cut State Park. It isn't anything like Highbanks in Columbus, but it's an escape. It looks like nothing else around here. I am going out tomorrow to get lost in it and just enjoy nature and life. Nothing is as stress-relieving and satisfying as getting out into nature for me. Now if I could just find someone to go out with me. I walk fast and it's so rocky and uneven, that it wouldn't be healthy for a Beck. Really makes me miss Court. I have been missing my friends a lot lately. I have Matt and Beck who I am grateful for, but no one else out here. It would be super awesome if I could find a guy to share it with ;-). Lishelle at work was joking with me about hiring a guy to which I reply he needs to be cute, have the same values as me, and be attracted to me, to which she asked if I wanted to start interviewing candidate, which I think would be best.
We are growing cucumbers, roma tomatoes, big boy tomatoes, green peppers, red onions, sweet basil, lavender, and spearmint. The tomatoes and peppers are in these things called topsy turvey which lets you plant them and have them grow upside down. So those are hanging off the side of our balcony, with the others in front of them. It's a cute little garden. I can't wait for things to start growing. I told Beck we need a house so I can do an entire garden and have a little plot of heaven. If you can't tell I LOVE the outdoors, and anything I can do involving it..
I am kinda rocking at work, which is wonderful. I love the people I work with, but can do without the little slice of drama that is going on now. I don't want to really get into it, but yeah makes it uncomfortable when you only have so many people working there. And I really like both girls involved, and so am trying to get myself as out of it as possible, and so far it is working. I had a long conversation with the one girl and I told her nothing she said would go beyond us, and I have stuck to that. It isn't in me to go running to the other and tell everything that the one said. So it's kinda nice that they feel they can trust me to talk to and get it out and not worry about it going beyond us.
So yeah, life is pretty ok right now. A little stressful in some situations, but basically amazing. I love watching my little nephew growing. I can't wait until he is here and I can hold him. Now I need to meet someone and fall in love so that I can have one of my own, and our kids can be best of friends. So guys, start applying, I'm interviewing lol. Really though, a date would be nice. If only the only guys I meet weren't the crazies that come into my work we'd be set >_