My dearest Marian...
I made a very short fanfiction.( Contains spoilers)
My dearest Marian,
I already wrote you these words when I was about to die but…I didn’t…You did… And from this day on, I became different. I couldn’t smile the same way. When I’m smiling, it’s a shy smile, with a bit of sadness. I remember you, I remember your eyes, when you looked at me with anger, and your dark curly hair, with an hairpin - Sometimes very useful isn't it? I remember you, smiling at me, when I proposed to you. We had a plan. We should have had a normal life like anyone else on earth. A simple life. I don’t want to turn back because Much is behind me. He’s cooking something. I know he’s counting on me. I don’t want to disappoint him. I want to be brave as you were, but I can’t stop thinking about you. When I look up at the sky above, something springs to my mind. I will see you in Heaven my love. You told me so. Let’s hope it will be soon enough. Do you remember us? Do you remember when we use to be? Do you remember the promise we made to each other? My sweet, sweet Marian, as an angel upon earth, as a diamond, a tiny piece of rock, so shiny, and so bright. Everything has changed. I can’t smell the scent of trees anymore, I can’t breath, I can’t hear birds singing, and the food has no taste. Make the rain fall on my skin, make it drown me. Why did you go? Where did you go? Maybe you’re just sleeping, a deep rest.You were the thing that kept me waiting, waiting for something better. You were the joy, the happiness, the reason I fought. You were my only dream, my only hope. Now, the world has turned into a nightmare. Please wake me up. I would like to join you, to drown myself. You see I’m weak, and you were right, I’m a fool. You don’t know how much I would like to hear you calling me a fool right now. I should have protected you, kept you safe. I never should have left you alone. I want to die, to see you again, but I won’t. I made you a promise, and as long as I shall live, I will keep fighting, I will fight for the King but mostly for you. I, Robin,take you Marian, to be my beloved wife, for better and for worse, in sickness or in health, now and forever.
Robin