so today was wonderful. me chels n jen left school at 11 n headed to the beach! sooo much fun! got there in record time of course =) so we tanned for a bit n went for a swim in the FREEZING cold ocean. then we went shoppin n wen the sun started to go in we headed to pats. julio showed up, i guess they're friends now..weird. me n jen played a game ( Read more... )

this weekend/week has been HELL. everything that could have possibly gone wrong, went wrong!! sat nite we went to danielle's n were there til like 1230 doing r project. there were so many parties/things to do that i missed out on! then the next day, we find out that we used the wrong kind of camera. so everything we did was useless. COMPLETE waste ( Read more... )

so the past few days have been the most stressful days of my life. i had 3 tests yesterday which were awful. after school i stopped by ryans for a lil bit then went to natick mall with chels n jenna. def got lost thanx to chels. lol. got in a race with these boys on the highway..i was winning but i dunno wat happend? haha. i only bought one shirt ( Read more... )

today was long, and i tried my hardest to stay awake thru my classes. slept with my mom again last nite. i actually sleep somewhat okay wen im downstairs with her. im not ready to sleep by myself yet. after school i went to work early to work on my project with my group. i still have alot to do. saw someone that i havent seen in a while and his ( Read more... )

i was in an awful mood today. i felt like i didnt wanna talk to n e one. people were just makin me mad for no reason. i know people were just trying to help, but sometimes i just need to be alone n not talk ( Read more... )

im sorry if people feel that im pushing them away..its just hard for me rite now and i just wanna be alone. i dont want you guys to take it offensively because i honestly love you guys and appreciate everything that you've done..

This weekend was the hardest weekend I've ever had to go thru. Yesterday was Nick's wake. We got there a lil before 2 and stayed until like 5:30. It was so devastating seeing him. Me n nidz gave him a kiss on his head rite before we were leaving. it was soo hard to go up there n see him. Everytime i think about it, my heart just breaks. I just can' ( Read more... )

another hard day. i wonder if the days will ever become easier? goin bak to work was not easy. everythin reminded me of him. everyone there is so supportive tho, they really help, alot. after work me chels ashley danielle alison n jon came bak 2 friendlys to make our collage of nick. it came out awesome. me nidz n chels brought it to his house a ( Read more... )

i cant even describe how much pain im in. i just miss nick so much. goin to the church was not a good idea..standing where his car was..seein the broken glass..seeing and holding a piece of the plastic bag..omg..its just i know its real now. i dont kno wat to do. i dont wanna be around n e one rite now. i just want everything to be like it was ( Read more... )

why nick? tell me why. i honestly dont understand. i loved this kid so much and i wish that i could have helped him. i wish i could have at least said goodbye..i just wanna see him one last time. i just wanna give him a huge hug and tell him how much i love him. i cant believe i can never see him again..i cant believe we all cant go out to eat n go ( Read more... )