Goodbye

[amadrella]

This is going to be my last LJ. Freindships have been ruined over it. I know my last couple journal have not been very happy. I was told with LJ you are suposed to write what every you want to get thing off your mind. Well I did adn i lost my "freind" over it. All i can say is I am sorry. I really am. I am going to be writing on lj but only for me.

Comments

[cobaltbluetony]

You should always make sensitive and personal entries "private" or "friends only." Otherwise people you don't want reading some stuff do, and stuff like this happens.

Also, how are you? I admit I don't really catch your journal entries all that often, but after you emailed me, I read the past few and WHOA! what is going on with you sis?

You can talk to me about anything, you know. Well, I guess you don't. But you do now. So... yeah...

*twiddles thumbs*
*looks at ground, twists foot in dirt*

Yeah.

*smiles*

[amadrella]

thing have been very complicated. my so called witness freind have left me, i have no firedn i can talk to or confide in adn i guess i havent takes my depressant pill in two months. And a freidn of mine got killed couple weeks a go i am not dealing well with it.I was reading wtinees LJ adn i wanted to be a part of but i though if my own freidn dump why would other pple want to be my freind you knwo...

[cobaltbluetony]

You shouldn't stop taking your antidepressants uless the doctor says it's okay. A large part of why you have been feeling so bad is precisely because of that. Your brain is an organ like anything else in your body, and it can be unbalanced as well. If you had kindey disease, the doctor would insist you keep taking your medicine until the disease was all gone. The same with depression: the chemicals in your brain are unbalanced, which affects your mood severely. So taking the medicine helps your brain to process your thoughts and emotions the way it's supposed to, making it easier for you to handle stress and to react better to difficult situations. It has nothing to do with your worth as a person; you wouldn't blame someone for having cancer, so niether should you blame yourself for having depression. But you won't get better unless you take the medicine you need to treat it

[amadrella]

Ymm talking to the elders is not a good thing. When i got reproved the first time, on of the elders was talking bout it in service. And the other elders told there wives bc there wives coem up to me adn told me. SO i realy dont have any confidenc in the elders...