Life has gotten very busy. Holy shit this week has kicked my ass. Tuesday my big came up. I actually got out of hermit mode. I was out of the house most of the day. I went to campus and saw people I hadnt seen in months. I had lunch with my big at the Union and chilled with the girls for a bit. Then went back to seans to hang out for a few hours ( Read more... )

Life has yet to improve for me. I just wish that i wasnt so trapped. I hate feeling like I am trapped. Thats how I feel though. I feel as though I am in a little box and i cannot escape the torture that is my life. Or more like I cant escape how my life is right now. I want to move I want to move now. I am tired of being in debt. I feel as though ( Read more... )

Every once and a while I retake things in my journal to see how much ive changed. Aparently not much but meh ( Read more... )

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Why is the concept of love so complicated. Sometimes I wonder if love is real. I mean I know that love for family and friends is real. I just dont know about the romantic stuff. I mean maybe its all hormones. Noone seems to want to fall inlove with me. Maybe its my hormonal imbalance lol. I dont know. I used to consider myself a hopeless romantic, ( Read more... )

My life is spinning out of control, I have no clue what is going to happen to me. Penskis is like pulling me around emotionally with all the hope they give me before they dash it all away. i just want a job. Now with the change of my moving destination i am getting confused. Florida.... hmmmm....

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OMG OMG OMG

LIZ IS PREGNANT!!!!! She and I have kept in contact on occasion since we've been out of the hospital. But wow I didnt know she was doing that well....
She graduates in may and has a great job lined up. Her life is falling into place, as is kendras. Where is mine going?

I swear to god I hate my fucking life why cant I just get a fucking job already. I am so sick and tired of being poor and having no money I cant do this anymore. I just spent 4 hours cleaning my cousins house for a measly 28 dollars. and i didnt even get the full 28 I only got 20 of it for now. My aunt wants me to clean her house next. 7 fucking ( Read more... )

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