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Well iv been driving myself crazy with my mamaw.. it been like 2 weeks now and it just seems to be gettin worse. I cant make the best out of anything really. When no ones around i just sit around and cry about it. And then when I start crying about her I start thinkin about my nanny Gilbert :'(. She died when I was in 6th grade. Its been hard. Then when I look at my dad and wonder where he would be if she was still here because i know he wouldnt be in the shape hes in now. Hes been going down hill for about 5 years now.. its killin me to watch him.. I cant do much, and what I can do I do it.. Ya know I'm only 15 I can only do so much.
I miss my life the way it used to be. When my dad and grandma Gilbert lived together and my dad always had the time and money to have a life. When my mamaw would come get me whenever I didnt feel good... I just wanted to come stay with her... Or just when I got bored.
I remember when I was little stayin up realy late with My mamaw and papaw watchin scary movies.. and when people would start doing "dirty" stuff she would cover my eyes. lol. I would be screamin "MAMAW PLEASE...PAPAW TELL HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE!"
LOOK WHAT SMOKING DOES TO YOU .. YOU FUCKING DUMB ASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well I guess Iv grown up.. I think I grew up a little too fast. I wish I could still be a kid again. When I was younger I couldnt wait till I was 13.....15.....18 Now all I wanna do it be 8 again. Just be a kid for one day.
Time passes...
people change...
you grow up...
...It sucks!