wow. i'm not here right now.i smoked a great deal tonight.at least i feel better than i did about 3 hours ago. i got online and saw d was on so i looked at his profile and it's the profile he uses while at mike's house an i imed him several times and he didn't respond at all.and earlier today, i was talking to dave and i asked him if he wanted to ( Read more... )

well kids, i have officially fallen in love with jason mraz.it was the video for "you and i both" that did it. 1) the lyrics are superb and wonderful and depressing at the same time and 2)how much cuter can a boy be than he is in that video? not much, lemme tell ya.i honestly broke down and had this incredibly cathartic experience while watching ( Read more... )

i will pay someone money if they can tell me what you do when the person you know coherently, is the ONE, and you know which one i'm talkin' about; but they don't know you're the one? b/c i've been sitting here for what feels like forever, doing everything for mike, being his world basically, but he just refuses to see that if you keep leaving me ( Read more... )

well, i got up at 11:30 this morning after realizing i forgot to call brit after getting home last night. :/. oops.so d and i are supposed to go house shopping tomorrow, which is exciting and scary at the same time, you know? i think it'll be really good for me to get out of hagerstown and be out on my own for once.plus, i need to live closer to ( Read more... )

blah blah blah. drove home in like 4 or 5 inches of snow. was supposed to go to dc with amanda tomorrow morning but i don't think that's going to happen now. it's ok, i'm exhausted and i love dc but i've not been in the greatest mood lately. tonight i actually broke down and cryed about mike. it wasn't pretty. i think what really set me off (i had ( Read more... )

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::shakes head:: my parents came home from church tonight and just immediately started being themselves. and by this i mean 1) i was on my cell phone with leighanne and my mom walks in the living room and glares at me and says "is that someone who could have called the house?" the back story for this little comment is that we have 800 minutes a ( Read more... )

so today was kind of odd. the boys stayed all last night and we didn't get up till 12. then we went to the welding supply place and to get ice cream. then we went makeup shopping with d and then smoked. A LOT.and i'm still kinda hazy from that.tiffany, if you're reading this, yes, you have permission to smack me around if i take him back, but not ( Read more... )

the boys are upstairs playing tricky 3, the snowboarding game. it was amusing the first 3 hours and now i'm just wishing they would turn it the hell off.i'm kinda hungry and want to make hashbrowns but if they found out i was making hashbrowns, i'd have to make 8 million pounds of them. i got really annoyed today because i tried to get on rail and ( Read more... )

bummer. i had tickets to go see john waters at the 9:30 club tonight but amanda got in a car accident and it was snowing pretty hard, so leighanne and i figured we shouldn't risk it, and we'd feel guilty going without her.:( so that's 30 bucks i'm never gonna see again.so instead i went to the arcade with dave and t and then to dinner.i am so tired ( Read more... )