I have no idea where my life goes from here ( Read more... )

Do you remember that time we went to see Josh and met Jim Cuddy? Also found out the old ladies carried llamas around. How weird was that ( Read more... )

I don't know why I post

I posted this in June 2006 and I'm saying it again ( Read more... )

I haven't posted here in ages.
I don't know why I am now.

What has changed has stayed the same and what is the same has truly changed. All at once and not at all.
Nothing much to say.

I thought of her and didn't cry. I came up and wanted to turn on the songs that would make me, but I didn't. Restraint.
But instead turned on songs that I thought would ( Read more... )

"...but it is extremely important to find out where the trouble begins, and I am fairly sure, for you it began with this event. You learned not to trust. If you can't trust, you can't be trustworthy. Nothing is reliable to you and you in turn are not reliable to yourself or anyone else. This causes you to feel shame, terror, self-loathing, ( Read more... )

Do you ever feel like you're your own worst enemy?

It goes off and on. Like a light switch. Not as often, but just as easily ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to think my heart can't take this like I thought it could.

I think its my mind that ruins it for everyone.

somehow i always end up kicking my own ass.