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I am breaking again. I thought I'd escaped the pain, but I haven't. And now I have nowhere to turn. Nowhere to run. I've never wanted out more, but I could never leave my girls. Somehow I have to survive.
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Orphaned?
Can I just take a moment to feel sorry for myself? I know I usually take several years to feel sorry for myself, but right now, I just need a moment. I've otherwise been pretty happy recently. Babies bring their own luck. And apparently there's no expiration on that luck. <3 ( Read more... ) -
Life, faith and everything in between.
So, I'm sitting here listening to Soldier's Daughter and contemplating the last week. In addition to that, I'm contemplating the last few years. There is ongoing drama between my husband and his sister, my husband and his dad, my husband's sister and her dad.. And while I felt like I could be part of the family and offer an ear to listen, I never ( Read more... ) -
This is how I feel.
I gave up on you a long time ago ( Read more... ) -
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I'm seeing red and he doesn't care. That's all it boils down to. I'm sobbing, and he went upstairs to go sleep in his comfy bed. The one I can't join him in because OUR daughter can't be where all the dog fur is, and she can't sleep unless she's in my arms. So I get to be husbandless. And saneless. I'm fucking losing it. I wanna break everything I ( Read more... ) -
New Beginning..
I'm unraveling. But there's nothing I can say or do to stop it...
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So don't pretend to not love me at all, cause I still don't believe you..
It's been an interesting couple of days. Watching life work it's miracles and disasters.
I'm really not where I want to be in this lifetime, but I'm getting there.
All of my friends are getting married and having children.
Will it ever be my turn?
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Life as I know it
Today seems like a pretty good day for dying.. -
Words I could never say out loud
I'm trying to blink myself out of existence. I find more and more each day that I just back down. I've learned to sew my mouth shut, and keep my feelings in my head ( Read more... ) -
Knowledge.
Fuck you and your agenda, you were never my friend anyway if this is how it ends.