Joe and I have started hitting eachother in the face at random periods of time, its funny after you get a real good unexpected one in at work, but it sucks when you turn the corner to the bathroom and joe grazez your eyebrow with an ill aimed punch. other than that nothing really exciting to talk about, Hannah wants to do something tonight. i want ( Read more... )

So heres the run down. As of late things have really kinda gotten on a steady level. Ive come to terms with some things, learned a thing or two, and all those little cliche' things people say. First one being is this. I have a little longer than one week from today to find an apt, move out and in to said apt while working 8 hours a day starting at ( Read more... )

thats how i feel right about now. i love her,and she is my world, but to know she feels the same, truly feels it, thats a three fold utopian dream. theres something in her way. i can feel it everytime she leaves for the night. this is the girl i saw once for 2 hours and already had made up my mind that death would be best, if i never got to know ( Read more... )

spin it and put it up to my head. 1 in 6 chances of dying, better odds than im having right now. my car is dying falling apart slowly major dollars to fix, my gf left because of her ex sneaking around in her head, i dont know what im doing or going, fuck

its saturday, the first of my two days off, and if i remember correctly Hannah is back in town. However everytime i tried to call her, i suppose she was busy in Oak town to get back to me. so i dont know if shes gonna want to do anything tonight. i was spose to work but my supervisor told me that it was just comp time work and i wouldnt get paid ( Read more... )

so its been 5 days since hannah has left and im really numb. my mind is fried out having worked five shtraight days( yah i added the h on purpose) and not being able to see her. so thats really all i have the mind to write, so here it is senors and senoritas, your moment of reflection.....

you know what reflect on yourself

two hearts, one vast inside the sunshine ....one deep within the smear of blackened blue. beating with light ,dredging with dark. wind fallen petals kiss each heart, sacrificed in madness, they discover rainy curiousity. grace pours from each heart drenching the burning fires below. each heart has exstinguished its warmth with actions unsettled. ( Read more... )

feel as though im losing something slowly, if i do, then that will be the end of those things. and i will once again turn around and dive into the things that comfort me most, and in the shade of those branches, i will sleep.

your moment of reflection: love you with all my heart, but really emotional attachment comes from the brain....

So i just got off work, im off tomorrow and i get paid,so im really feelin it. except for my contact lense, it floats around my eye and it makes my eyelids itch. anyway, not much more than that going on, joe and i were talking about famous down syndrome actors of the 80's and discovered that all of them were on highway to heaven, except corky from ( Read more... )

Once again i donned my garbage bagesque disposable apron and slung pureed food onto trays. I thought alot about Hannah, theres something i cant quite grasp. I want to tell her, it would be the only civil thing to do seeing as its how i feel. Rejection leaves scars on my body that i cant cover up with cliche ink, and perhaps my mind is tired of ( Read more... )