keepin' it together...

Sep 23, 2010 15:02

Things are a bit of a whirlwind. Thank the gods that the weather has turned & we are more firmly in the season that Kaitlyn and I love the best ( Read more... )

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toshichan September 23 2010, 19:10:33 UTC
Knowing that you have the capability to hide your actions will only increase the likelihood of cutting. Don't buy them.

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amatadlc September 23 2010, 22:46:08 UTC
Although I understand the connection between hiding and enabling... the funny thing is that wearing fingerless gloves or gauntlet-style arm wrappings of various types is actually a developed coping mechanism of mine.

It goes something along the lines of: if you can't get to your skin in the first place, you can't cut said skin. I never really thought about it in terms of subverting what would normally be a hiding/enabling trick. But thanks for pointing that out - just one more reason to laugh at myself, and the crazy twists and turns my life has taken :)

So, anyway, the question is more like:
should I buy this super-sized jar of Advil in anticipation that I might get a headache?
or... should I buy these crutches on the chance that my next Great Adventure lands me with a broken leg?

It's like... umm, there's "being prepared" and then there's "ridiculously over prepared." Just trying to figure out where to locate my current (and anticipated) headspace.

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amatadlc September 23 2010, 22:48:21 UTC
(Just to be transparent: the aforementioned "headache" and "broken leg" are meant as analogous to the initial urge to cut, not the fait accompli cutting)

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clockwerkdragon September 24 2010, 19:32:27 UTC
I had my wedding in October, and despite the end result of my marriage, the /wedding/ was absolutely fracking beautiful. Cool enough not to melt in finery, warm enough not to be frozen with the wonder and beauty of the leaves changing to offer a beautiful backdrop for pictures.

No worries about a collapse, I have faith that you aren't the person you were those years ago - You have tools and options she never dreamed could exist.

March on, soldier ;D

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amatadlc September 24 2010, 22:59:27 UTC
see... I'm using my "superhero" icon for this reply...
because you just totally made me feel like I could fly faster than a speeding bullet & leap tall buildings in a single bound.

Which, actually, is a tiny bit redundant - since I'd have to question where the line is between jumping into flight (since I have the ability to fly), and simply jumping into a very tall leap... Ya know? Dunno if I'm saying this right, but, basically - Superman can fly!!! FLY, who cares if he can jump, too. It's a bit redundant.

Anyway, thanks ever so much for the inspirational words. I'm having a much more solid day today (even though the weather got hotter again). Can't wait to see you. And, yes, it is going to be an absolutely fantastic event :)

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clockwerkdragon September 25 2010, 15:26:52 UTC
....just don't go blockin bullets.

I'm looking forward to seeing you both!

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