truth is, i need you the way you used to be. because together you're at least half of me, probably the better one and without you, i am suddenly not myself. it's a hard thing to realize that my whole identity hinges on the way my words bounce off your eyes.
alright, gabi. the deal is that you're going to stop writing everything that i am too afraid to let anyone else know that i think it. because it reminds me of how childish i'm acting with this "i am/will be okay" when really i'm trying to figure out how to be okay again.
you make me smile, though. i hope that, in turn, makes you smile.
woman's a mindreaderamateurnightMay 30 2005, 18:31:45 UTC
oh man. it's always i wasn't ok, but now i am, don't worry, or always always i'll be ok, when you know that you'll never be ok the way you once were again, and figuring out another way is hard and lonely. not wanting people to worry, but also not wanting to think about it yourself. i rarely think being childish is a bad thing.
i feel pretty ashamed to discover i based so much of who i am on a loose collection of kindred spirits. but i'm best when i'm with them. and without that understanding, i don't get to be that person as often as i'd like.
sometimes i worry that if i explain my thoughts more fully no one will have any clue what i'm talking about, because it won't be vague enough to apply to them.
hi, cashelle. i'll write soon, i feel like lately things have been too busy to breathe. school ends in about a week and a half for me. i love that icon so much.
Vacuum-packed people would hurt less. Instead we're infested with everything we come in contact with. Fermentation can lead to one fancy dish. Or it can smell awful and make you sick.
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alright, gabi. the deal is that you're going to stop writing everything that i am too afraid to let anyone else know that i think it. because it reminds me of how childish i'm acting with this "i am/will be okay" when really i'm trying to figure out how to be okay again.
you make me smile, though. i hope that, in turn, makes you smile.
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it's always i wasn't ok, but now i am, don't worry, or always always i'll be ok, when you know that you'll never be ok the way you once were again, and figuring out another way is hard and lonely. not wanting people to worry, but also not wanting to think about it yourself. i rarely think being childish is a bad thing.
i feel pretty ashamed to discover i based so much of who i am on a loose collection of kindred spirits. but i'm best when i'm with them. and without that understanding, i don't get to be that person as often as i'd like.
sometimes i worry that if i explain my thoughts more fully no one will have any clue what i'm talking about, because it won't be vague enough to apply to them.
woman, you always make me smile.
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i'll write soon, i feel like lately things have been too busy to breathe. school ends in about a week and a half for me. i love that icon so much.
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