another update. im allowed because im sick. HA.
* section 1 - about mee... *
+ Known as: Alaina
+ Lives in: Farmington Hills and Kzoo
+ Birthday: july 2
+ School: North Farmington
+ Religion: christian
+ Shoe size: 9
+ Hair color: brown
+ Eye color: blue/green ish
+ Style: whatever I feel like wearing
* section 2 - have you ever... *
+ Cheated on someone?: not really
+ Been Cheated on?: um I don’t think so
+ Fallen off the bed?: haha yeah
+ Broken someone’s heart?: not really
+ Had your heart broken?: a little
+ Had a dream come true?: yes
+ Done something you regret?: of course
+ Cheated on a test?: unfortunately
* section 3 - currently *
+ Wearing?: WMU sweatshirt, plymoth christian t-shirt, A necklace, fleece pants
+ Listening to?: Goo Goo Dolls
+ Located?: my room
+ Chatting with?: april
+ Watching?: nothing
+ Should REALLY be doing?: out having fun, but im sick so no.
* section 4 - do you... *
+ Brush your teeth?: of course! Gotta have clean teeth!
+ Have any piercings?: 0
+ Drive?: yes, I <3 driving at night
+ Drink?: no
+ Smoke?: no
+ Got a cell?: im only addicted to it.
* section 5 - the last person you... *
+ Hugged?: Kenz, she was crying ‘cause she fell, it was sad…
+ Kissed?: uhhh
+ IMed?: April
+ Talked on the phone: Bridie
+ Yelled at?: my mom
* section 6 - personal *
+ What do you want to be when you grow up?: happy
+ What has been the best day of your life?: hmm not sure
+ What comes first in your life?: Jesus
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: haha a crush, of course
+ What are you most scared of?: being trapped in a car underwater
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: I worry about tomorow
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: yes
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: none
+ Love your family?: deep down, yes.
+ Love your friends?: to pieces
+ Are you a virgin?: yep (( haha I just thought of the scene in Moulin Rouge ))
* section 7 - favorite *
+ Movie: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and Emperor’s New Groove
+ Song: Two Days In February- Goo Goo Dolls… for now anyway
+ Band: lots
+ Store: Target for sure.
+ Relative: Melissa Ann Raymond.
+ Sport: to watch? Basketball. To play? soccer
+ Ice Cream Flavor: Reeses
+ Fruit: watermelon, purple grapes, strawberry
+ Candy: starbursts… the green package
+ Day of the Week: Tuesdays
+ Time: hmm dunno
+ Color: blue
+ Name for a Girl: Brianna
+ Name for a Boy: Daniel
* section 8 - do you *
+ Like to give hugs?: yes… but I used to hate them
+ Like to give kisses?: sometimes
+ Like to walk in the rain?: yess
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: black!! I HATE blue pens
+ Like to travel?: oh so much
+ Sleep on your side, stomach or back?: hmm all three… it actually depends on how my day went. Weird?
+ Have a goldfish?: I did once
+ Ever have the falling dream?: ahh yes
+ Have stuffed animals?: yes. But I lost my favourite at the Ghenas
* section 9 - what do you think about... *
+ Abortion: its so sad and for sure not a good decision
+ Suicide: a selfish last resort
+ Smoking: gross
+ Eating disorders: um
+ Summer: my birthday!!!
+ Tattoos: hott on some. Others just look dumb with them
+ Piercings: just a few....not a million
* section 10 - this or that *
+ Pierced nose or tongue?: nose
+ Single or taken?: single
+ MTV or BET?: mtv
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: 7th
+ Sugar or salt?: sugar
+ Silver or gold?: silver
+ Chocolate or flowers?: flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos?: black and white.
+ M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: both.
+ Hot or cold?: cold because I love wearing like eight billion layers
+ Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup
+ Spring or Fall?: fall!
+ Happy or sad?: I’d rather be happy
+ Wonder or amazement?: amazement
+ Mexican or Italian: food? People? What?!
+ Candy or Soda?: Candy
+ Pepsi or Coke?: Pepsi.
Stop being so perfect. Stop lying to me, and to everyone else. You were great before all the bs you told them. Stop trying to be the answer to all of my problems. Stop trying to say the right thing at the right time. Be a good friend and stop jumping to conclusions. Just be there when you need to be, and once and a while otherwise. Its like, when I wan't to talk to you, you're never there and when I'm sick of you, you won't go away. I'm not really sure where this is going, and I don't really care... but stop lying to yourself and to the world about where it could (( but won't )) be going.
You can stop trying to impress people. Stop trying to save the world and martyr yourself. You've worn us all out with your charades of friendship... being the listener, advice giver, and shoulder to lean on. When really you turn around and tell the world what was just confided in you. Afraid to speak the truth, not wanting to send you into one of your dramatic, feel-sorry-for-me downward spirals. You're already loved, for who you are, not what you're trying to be. Really.
You can stop trying to be the greatest boy that ever lived. Stop trying to be the super hero thats the average joe during the day. Noone understands why you put up with all the crap that you do, but it sure seems like you're doing it just so you have this great story to tell. When really there are greater stories to be told. Its gone beyond annoyance, people are just beginning to feel sorry for you. So... wake up and live life, stop living in the past.
Hmm. That was sort of directed at certain people. Sort of not. Im in a "I can't hang out with anyone so Im going to be mad at them" mood. Sweeetttt.
Anonymously post your first impression of me. truthful. Then post this in your LJ.
I've only been up for five hours and I'm bored. Thats sad. This is going to be a long weekend. I was supposed to hang out with Leah and Allie and I can't do either, which is really upsetting actually. Because they are probably two of the coolest kids I know. I miss my friends already... ' boo you whore '. Bridg- if you cancel on me for Sunday, I may very well die of deprevation of social interaction.
I decided I don't like that boy anymore. He got annoying.
I think I'm going to go watch a movie.
<3 alaina marie