Today, the prevailing sensation is tiredness. I'm tired of trying to fall asleep; tired of all the tension and politics in the office; tired of trying to fix my emotions. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. In material terms, my life is pretty comfortable, but emotionally and psychologically it’s a pigsty ( Read more... )

I listened to a song that I was really into - and I even covered in a few live performances - way back when. Empty Apartment by Yellowcard was on repeat 10 years ago when I was in university and going through an emo/punk phase. I'd forgotten most of the lyrics by now but that song really takes me back ( Read more... )

I was packing my apartment in preparation for moving out and suddenly I felt a vacuum in my soul. A wave of futility flooded me ( Read more... )

As I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
And if I die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take.

- Passion is the feeling you get from mastering a skill; it does not exist 'out there' for you to discover ( Read more... )

The idea that we want or deserve happiness or that we should actively pursue it is a very recent one. Until recently people's lives have revolved around survival. They were far too busy trying to meet their basic needs for food and warmth to have time to think about happiness ( Read more... )

"[A]s the truest society approaches always nearer to solitude, so the most excellent speech finally falls into Silence. Silence is audible to all men, at all times, in all places. Silence is when we hear inwardly, sound when we hear outwardly. Creation has not displaced her, but is her visible framework and foil. All sounds are her servants, and ( Read more... )

Everything will get better, in the end, because I choose it, but first of all, I need to have faith in myself.

“This hole in my heart is in the shape of you. No one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?”

- Jeanette Winterson

You want to play it fuckin' loud. I want everything to be beautiful. We are both obsessed with eternal youth.