the past few days have been super hard. i guess going off my meds was a HUGE mistake. my bi=polar is kinda out of wak. i couldnt stop crying. crying.crying.crying.crying. all day crying. i go and do stuff, like out to dinner with tim and his parents,hanging out with keith,out with ivana,and school,talking to molly. but i just end up crying. making ( Read more... )

so it was amazing.me adn quinns trip to new orleans for mardi gras. we drove for 7 hrs. we stopped at this little bbq place. it was yummy. the drive was good. we talked and talked. we talked about how i worry way to much. i worry about everything. i worry about amswering phone calls, to responding to ppl, hurting ppls feelings, doing what everyone ( Read more... )

so i am about to go to school and take a test which i am not really prepared for. haha. things have just been a little crazy. on tuesday i had a pretty awful night. really awful. comeplteley awful. i dont know. i didnt think that moving back here would have this effect on me. but being here.. being around all my old triggers. it has a big effect on ( Read more... )

thursday night i went to quinns. it was fun. ellissa was there and this girl kina. we drank and smoked. i had fun. it was fun to not be at my apt hanging out. my brother came home. the house wasnt clean enough for him. weaver cleans houses for a living and before i even cleaned it she said it was clean and didnt need to be clean. so then i cleaned ( Read more... )

another pretty bad week. sunday i was so angry and upset. to tell you the truth i dont remember why. but boy was i upset. i went driving. i went and drove by my old house oh wow i cried. what a suprise. haha. i was just so fusterated with certain relationsips and was so confused about things. i feel like i am the only one in this you know? and ( Read more... )

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so yea this week pretty much sucked. i just feel so strained. school is going great. i got a B on my quiz that i thought i was going to fail. i guess i am smart enough for this school. i have had the flu all week which sucked.i felt better yesterday but today i woke up feeling like shit again. got to hang out with tim. which is alwyas great. hes ( Read more... )

so much school work so much play time. skipped class on wednesday. i ended up staying up all night with quinn. aww his dog nick came over i love that dog. umm. hung out with keith a little and elissa and weaver. this weekend was crazy. me and ellissa went to andrews upstairs to see chris mccarty band play. okay yea wow. i love being 21. i got ( Read more... )

last night was soo great. we all got dressed up and went out to atlanitc station.. we ate at the lobby at tweleve. it was so great. quinn tim chandler me elissa and weaver went. quinn set it up for us.. good ol quinn. we got there. and our waiter was soo cool. he knew it was my b day. and the waiter was soo sweet to us. we all got drinks and sat ( Read more... )

so i have been 21 for 15 mins.. i feel no different. haha. last night was fun. ivanas house was decorated. ballons on the mail box. streamers. happy birthday sign. and a cake with my name on it. it was sweet. ppl came over. lots of ppl. but not the ones that meant most to me. well some of them were there. tim tirrell ivana. but weaver chandler and ( Read more... )