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[amberskyfire]

I know I haven't been here in years. And probably nobody is on here anymore. That's fine. I've been having a hard time and have been thinking that maybe this is a good place to write things down. Not things for other people to read, really. Just a place to write down feelings and issues where my husband won't be able to find them. And this is still

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[amberica]

I hope it's not creepy for you that I'm still here from time to time. Just wanted to let you know.

[amberskyfire]

It's not creepy at all, hon! How have you been? :)

[amberica]

I have been... surviving. I had a second child, my marriage completely fell apart (that's a long story in itself, most of which I kept completely secret, even here on LJ), we separated around 3 years ago and the long, grueling divorce was done last May. I got a full scholarship to attend a software coding bootcamp (thanks, Obama) and actually got a job last June after being a stay-at-home mom for 5 years. I've been dating an old college-era boyfriend for the last two years and that's been nice, and I think I'm sort of starting to pull my life as a single mother together.

How about you?

[amberskyfire]

Also surviving. I had a second child as well and then my marriage also tanked. We are still married, but it's no longer a functioning marriage. I had 17 years of never being touched and never having a kind word and one day, I just couldn't mentally take it anymore. He's autistic and it's been too hard on me. So we are still married, still live together, still even sleep in the same bed, but never any sex or touching and there's nothing romantic. We are still a family, it's just no longer a marriage. Except on paper. I don't want to split up because I don't want to put my kids in public school and work full time, so I'm riding this horse as far as it will go and then we will see what happens. :( But we did buy a lovely house.

I'm so glad you're getting your life back together and I hope things are getting a lot better for you. <3