am i mean to you?ambitious_foolSeptember 20 2006, 19:09:33 UTC
... i didn't realize.... just thought i've been distant. from everyone & everything.
i don't really know how to write you a letter cos i don't know where you're living anymore. & lately i've been bad about maintaining relationships. of any sort.
my breakdowns i'm guessing are a little less whimsical, unfortunately... at least these days.
i remember when it was all strange attractors & pockets of self-referential synchronicities, alternative realities & holes in the fabrics of spacetime- stargate wormholes & 2012 & 23 & and the fnords & believing my life was a hidden camera show & all that. that was almost a little more tolerable, for a while anyway.
now it's more about the logistics of deadlines & workloads & obligations & commitments & expectations held by myself and others, & the never-ending drive towards self-betterment & the constant falling short of those projected ideals & the contempt for myself & humanity for being generally so much less than that of which we are capable & all that other nietzschean cal....
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and i fucking love it.
nate, there is so much synchronicity in the world, and the universe just threw me a party.
quit being so mean to me and write me a letter about how you're doing. please? we are friends, so we may as well act like it.....:)
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i don't really know how to write you a letter cos i don't know where you're living anymore. & lately i've been bad about maintaining relationships. of any sort.
my breakdowns i'm guessing are a little less whimsical, unfortunately... at least these days.
i remember when it was all strange attractors & pockets of self-referential synchronicities, alternative realities & holes in the fabrics of spacetime- stargate wormholes & 2012 & 23 & and the fnords & believing my life was a hidden camera show & all that. that was almost a little more tolerable, for a while anyway.
now it's more about the logistics of deadlines & workloads & obligations & commitments & expectations held by myself and others, & the never-ending drive towards self-betterment & the constant falling short of those projected ideals & the contempt for myself & humanity for being generally so much less than that of which we are capable & all that other nietzschean cal....
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