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Keep chugging along
My frustration with everything is ridiculous right now. I am so irritated. I know what the cause is. My car died when I got to work yesterday. After 1300 of fixing, 850 of which I STILL owe John, my car is non functional again. I realise this is really only a temporary set back. However I feel like I am drowning. I know I am blowing things out of ( Read more... ) -
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I've decided that if things with John and I end ever I have possibilities ( Read more... ) -
Hard to keep on the up
Fluctuating moods are really startin' to irritate me. I feel like I'm living on a GD'd roller coaster ( Read more... ) -
bouncing back
A good mood lifter is to get a few more fans on my fan page. A better mood lifter is that one of my fans is Dr. Muse, my chem teacher from high school. He told me I would never be a veterinarian. He was right but Jesus Christ, don't tell kids that.
I think I'm bein' all wonky with my moods from pms. Maybe pmdd. I should look into it. -
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I find myself incredibly frustrated lately ( Read more... ) -
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Let's start documenting my crazy baby name fascination. I think I will always lean toward something classic or foreign, but not too foreign. Let me point out I am NOT trying for kids right now, or maybe ever. Still undecided. I just think it's fun to name my non-existent child ( Read more... ) -
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Therapy went well, after getting COMPLETELY lost. Thanks to Mum, Justin and Craig for getting me un-lost. I think this therapist will work well. She seems supportive and understanding. Though she asked that question of what do you want from this and I was suddenly at a loss for words. I am at high risk for bi-polar as both of my parents have it. ( Read more... ) -
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I only sometimes get down. It all of a sudden was like a bag of bricks. My curiosity got the best of me. I had to google him. Found him. Facebook...thx. Blocked. I wish I could make the music drown out my feelings. I wish I could make anything better than this sickness that just sits in my stomach. I wish I understood why this does this to me so ( Read more... ) -
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i cannot believe how many people are dropping kids around me. weird weird weird. i seem to be one of the few that values my freedom. kids are great, when you're in a better place in life for them. i'm not even sure what my mindset is on them anymore. some days i think it would be okay not having to give anything up. i have no idea why anyone would ( Read more... ) -
tres etrange
I have never really put so much thought into marriage before. I guess it's my nesting bs coming into play. I have been with John for nearing a year. April fools day is our anniversary. I've started paying attention to wedding crap in movies and on tv. Taking note of the dresses and seeing the bouquets, brides maid dresses, rings... I feel very odd ( Read more... )