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ambivlence

anonymous post

Jun 26, 2011 19:53

anonymous post

whatever you've got to say, share, vent, confess, wish, admit. here's your place to do it. tell me anything your heart desires. but please do so anonymously.

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anonymous June 28 2008, 11:15:57 UTC

i think you're beautiful and i love the way your mind works

ambivlence June 28 2008, 13:31:02 UTC

thank you <3

anonymous June 28 2008, 14:53:04 UTC

I still love you. I will always love you.<3

ambivlence June 28 2008, 15:14:45 UTC

i said i'd give up chicago for you.
but i'd have stayed put if you didn't want anyone tying down your future.
i'd have given you the world. and i don't know why i'm still groveling to stay in your life. anyone who doesn't offer me the same thing doesn't deserve me. i believed every word you said. and i wish you would take what i said to heart.

brighteratnight July 7 2008, 19:31:02 UTC

i said i'd give up chicago for you

oh.

ambivlence July 15 2008, 23:20:11 UTC

yeah, i did tell her that. i know that i'll have a year there for sure. after a year, i'll know if i'm alright being there, if i'm not dirt poor and if you're still with me, and if i can handle it. i might not, you know. and i'm not betting on that. i'm not planning for anything to happen, but there are possibilities. it's possible that i might not even be talking to her by the time i get there. it's possible that we'll decide it's best for me to stay there if i do end up loving it like i'm dreaming about. but if i did decide to leave, i said i'd deal with it then. and i would be sure it would be what i really want to do.

anonymous July 6 2008, 18:15:22 UTC

i wish i knew you better.
and i wish we talked more.

ambivlence July 7 2008, 02:21:38 UTC

go ahead and start talking, hun. it's summer. there's nothing i would enjoy more than to make another friend. if you're on my flist, i love you already. if not, feel free to add me so we can start.
<3

anonymous July 10 2008, 00:49:35 UTC

you make me smile more than anyone ever has and angrier than anyone ever has. i don't know what to do with you. its so frustrating and even if you cant see it its gonna tear us apart. i get so tired of this. i know im not perfect and i can be a total bitch and that you're not just the problem but it looks like im not the only one you're like this with and its so hard, so fucking hard. i keep trying, im gonna keep trying but in my heart i'm getting used to the idea of us not being anything anymore.

ambivlence July 10 2008, 10:25:42 UTC

i know, i know. most of me is always going to be naive and childish and i don't know if i'll ever grow up because right now i feel like i have more of that in me than i should, and it's upsetting me and my relationships with others more than it should. i probably let it. with me, it's always the same things that i never learn from. i'm always the victim. i'm afraid of the world. quite often i don't know what to say when someone says something serious about their life to me. even you, my best friend. i'm sorry that i have to put you through all this, but it's the fact that you've known me for more than a year without even meeting me, and i can say this because you've looked past all those faults in me. they're still problems, yeah, but, you know them so well. you know me so well. and i'm never going to not think of you as my friend, at the least. i don't want you to stop trying. so it's about time that i started. if you want to forget certain parts of me, things you don't like, i'll put them aside. i'll do anything you ask. i love you ( ... )

brighteratnight July 24 2008, 19:21:30 UTC

nanananan.

hay gurl hay. im bored D:

i think i'll make a caleb picspam!

ambivlence July 24 2008, 20:31:53 UTC

i will be thinking of lolololonnie the whole time if you do that.
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