Bleh
Well I thought I'd update my journal...
School SUCKS. I hate it. I am well over the age to be there and I feel that full force this semester. I'm in my third week and already I ditched yesterday and the day before. Going back today was awful. I'm SO lost in my math class. It's my own fault but it still sucks. Tomorrow is my long day. 9am-9pm 4 classes each just as boring/stressful as the last. I ditched both Psychology and Biology on Monday and I know I'm going to get a rash of sh*t for it tomorrow. Why do I feel this way? I want to move on already. I don't want to be in school. I want to be out making money and having fun being 25. I feel 50. I'm just so stressed, My dad's main guy at his business just quit putting strain on him and on the family financially. I need a job.
Which leads me to my next update or I should say lack of. MAC still hasn't called and I'm beginning to think they may never. I know I should apply other places but I REALLY want that job! I'm just too damn stubborn. I applied for Starbucks two years ago and didn't get that either, maybe I'm just destined to work for my father for the rest of my life. So I went down to the counter last week to see if there was anything new going on with my application and the manager was on the phone and too busy to talk. So I was going to go back this week but I HATE being so forward. I have conflicting advice being thrown at me. Half the people say "They like it when you're agressive" and the other half saying "Just wait it out, don't be pushy!" The only good thing is they haven't set the date for the group interview (or so I've been told-maybe they're trying to spare my feelings...) so I "could" have a chance. But why haven't they called? I just have this feeling they don't want me. I felt SO confident at the interview. I have SO much make-up experience and NO retail experience but I still felt like I did well. I just want them to call and tell me something, anything. If I didn't get it, ok, fine, at least I'd know! This waiting crap is KILLING me. It's making me SO damn depressed and I refuse to go back on the medication for that! I just need to calm down and figure out if I should wait or move on.
I didn't audition for the musical tonight. First time in years. Partly because I hope for the above to call, and more importantly because this show sucks. It's a review. My senior year and they do a review! I'm not even going to do make-up. wow. shocker I know. This will also be the first show I don't do make-up in for the last three shows. Crazy. I'm just so frustrated!
On a good note, the two babies are finally in school! It is SO cute! They cry when we first drop them off but they do SO well while they're there! Jason's almost potty trained! He's getting so big! He'll be 3 next month! I feel really old!
And last but not least, Chris and I are going to be Homer and Marge Simpson for Halloween this year! I'm going to use Chromacake and yellow pigment for our faces and arms, it's going to be SO much fun!!! I will post pics when I finally do it. and just so the info is out there, Elizabeth is going to be a witch from Jetix's W.I.T.C.H she's going to look GREAT, and Jason and Nattie are going out as Peter Pan and Tinkerbell =) I'm SO excited for Halloween this year. I hope it's fun!
So that's it. The end of my crappy life update. Pray for me that they'll call, even if it's with bad news. I just want to know. =)
School SUCKS. I hate it. I am well over the age to be there and I feel that full force this semester. I'm in my third week and already I ditched yesterday and the day before. Going back today was awful. I'm SO lost in my math class. It's my own fault but it still sucks. Tomorrow is my long day. 9am-9pm 4 classes each just as boring/stressful as the last. I ditched both Psychology and Biology on Monday and I know I'm going to get a rash of sh*t for it tomorrow. Why do I feel this way? I want to move on already. I don't want to be in school. I want to be out making money and having fun being 25. I feel 50. I'm just so stressed, My dad's main guy at his business just quit putting strain on him and on the family financially. I need a job.
Which leads me to my next update or I should say lack of. MAC still hasn't called and I'm beginning to think they may never. I know I should apply other places but I REALLY want that job! I'm just too damn stubborn. I applied for Starbucks two years ago and didn't get that either, maybe I'm just destined to work for my father for the rest of my life. So I went down to the counter last week to see if there was anything new going on with my application and the manager was on the phone and too busy to talk. So I was going to go back this week but I HATE being so forward. I have conflicting advice being thrown at me. Half the people say "They like it when you're agressive" and the other half saying "Just wait it out, don't be pushy!" The only good thing is they haven't set the date for the group interview (or so I've been told-maybe they're trying to spare my feelings...) so I "could" have a chance. But why haven't they called? I just have this feeling they don't want me. I felt SO confident at the interview. I have SO much make-up experience and NO retail experience but I still felt like I did well. I just want them to call and tell me something, anything. If I didn't get it, ok, fine, at least I'd know! This waiting crap is KILLING me. It's making me SO damn depressed and I refuse to go back on the medication for that! I just need to calm down and figure out if I should wait or move on.
I didn't audition for the musical tonight. First time in years. Partly because I hope for the above to call, and more importantly because this show sucks. It's a review. My senior year and they do a review! I'm not even going to do make-up. wow. shocker I know. This will also be the first show I don't do make-up in for the last three shows. Crazy. I'm just so frustrated!
On a good note, the two babies are finally in school! It is SO cute! They cry when we first drop them off but they do SO well while they're there! Jason's almost potty trained! He's getting so big! He'll be 3 next month! I feel really old!
And last but not least, Chris and I are going to be Homer and Marge Simpson for Halloween this year! I'm going to use Chromacake and yellow pigment for our faces and arms, it's going to be SO much fun!!! I will post pics when I finally do it. and just so the info is out there, Elizabeth is going to be a witch from Jetix's W.I.T.C.H she's going to look GREAT, and Jason and Nattie are going out as Peter Pan and Tinkerbell =) I'm SO excited for Halloween this year. I hope it's fun!
So that's it. The end of my crappy life update. Pray for me that they'll call, even if it's with bad news. I just want to know. =)